date URL artist's name artist's biography artist's URL title artist's URL title medium dimensions year statement image url image width image height category artwork textcontent 2006-01-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=851 Amy Leach Amy Leach received an M.F.A. in Creative Nonfiction from the University of Iowa. Her essays have been published in The Iowa Review, A Public Space, and The Wilson Quarterly. She is working on a collection of essays about Eta Carinae (a star), Love-Lies-Bleeding (a flower), the takahe (a bird), and Phobos (a moon), among other things. "When Trees Dream of Being Trees" was first published in Spring 2006 issue of The Iowa Review. When Trees Dream of Being Trees artimages/01172006.jpg 500 405 Iowa Writes The tree decided to stop growing after it grew its thousandth leaf. “No more,” it whispered, and started throwing flimsily attached twigs and old nests down, and shaking the birds out. “I am a terrible tree! A thousand leaves is more than enough to prove that! I am slow and slight and my leaves are not lustrous. I have never made a flower, never made an apricot, never made an acorn. Go away birds! I am an impostor tree! I will be a post, if I can just shake off these redundant branches,” and the tree bounced up and down, twirled violently, and tried some catapulting maneuvers in an effort to fling off its limbs. Nothing much was flung, except for some leaves and a butterfly, and they were instantly free from its flinging force, and ended up drifting away instead of zinging through the air. And so the tree started to slam itself against the earth. Its branches were most certainly broken this way, but they were not broken off: such fibrous material does not easily come loose, does not easily separate from itself. So the tree was hung with broken creaking branches. Aghast, it felt itself growing. And, knowing it would only grow more of itself, it cried, “I must get out of the sunlight! I must get out of the rain!” It tried to sink into the dirt. But trees with their spreading root systems are even harder to push down into the dirt than they are to pull up. So the tree finally just stood there with its smashed branches, exhausted, in the late afternoon sunlight. The other trees around regarded the tree going mad without much comment. They had seen this dreadful thing happen before, when trees dream of being trees. 2006-02-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=288 Debra L. Hutchison Debra L. Hutchison spent the first eighteen years of her life on a dairy farm outside of Hampton, Iowa. "Iowa has had a great deal of influence on my sensibilities as a poet," she says. She earned a MFA from Vermont College and currently teaches Introduction to Poetry and Critical Writing at Le Moyne College in Syracuse, NY. Burning the Caterpillars Iowa Writes Caterpillars creep up our black walnut trees,
Settle in crooks of branches.
Without eyes. They crawl out of
Milky veils to eat.

A man with nine fingers
searches for dry matches,
while a stray lifts his leg
over the last red zinnia.

The screen door with silver-taped crosses
Slams. Flies cling to it like meat.
Trouble, the trees don't know.
Small fires light.

Pigeons on the barn roof miss
One color. Mother's dress strains
A rope nailed to a post
With its faded message.

The curling caterpillars drop.
Across the dirt road, a cat runs low
Full in her mouth, a small kitten.

Under the burning trees, I tip my cup.
And feel the ice. It hits
My lips, again and again. 2006-02-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=290 Diana Penny Dianna Penny was born in St. Louis and grew up in downstate Illinois. She completed high school in Muscatine, Iowa, and earned a B.A. in art at the University of Iowa. Biddy: A Childhood Memory Iowa Writes Daddy, who was pastor of Mt. Pisgah African Methodist Episcopal (AME) Church at Chester, Illinois, hosted a religious radio broadcast from station KSGM in Ste. Genevieve, Missouri. With the entire family in tow, he would cross the Mississippi River at Chester, our home, and travel to the station every weekend, either to tape our service or to do a live broadcast from Ste. Genevieve. On our way to and from the radio station, we had to pass through the small hamlet of St. Mary. One day, stopping for gas in St. Mary, Daddy noticed the presence of African Americans in the town and inquired about them. As it turned out, there was a small, impoverished black community situated on the town's mud flats, part of a large flood plain. This area contained several shotgun bungalows and a small Baptist church along a dusty, unpaved road. The residents of this neighborhood expressed interest in meeting Daddy and his family, so the local black Baptist pastor invited him to be guest speaker one Sunday, and we all dined with the pastor and his congregation afterward. All the town's blacks lived on the flats--except one.

Members of this community told us about a lady whom all townspeople knew as Aunt Biddy. Biddy, who had been a lifelong member of the AME Church, lived alone in a house situated halfway up a wooded hillside across the highway, accessible via a winding, graveled drive. We decided to call on her and introduce ourselves. A tall and stately lady with silver braids, bent only slightly by the weight of her years, greeted us on her veranda. Having been born a slave, she was now well past her ninetieth birthday. Although her vision was heavily obscured by cataracts, she was independent and moved about easily, if a bit slowly.

Biddy, as her congregation's only surviving member, told us about her church and led us further up the hillside along a footpath through the woods to a clearing, which contained a tiny AME church of weathered clapboard. The hinges of the church's door creaked as Biddy opened it and invited us inside for a tour. Once inside, we saw backless wooden benches and a potbellied wood-burning stove standing at one side of the sanctuary just beyond the front row of benches. Although many years had passed since a pastor had last been assigned to her church, Biddy visited it weekly with broom, mop, and bucket to keep it clean and say a prayer or two. On this day, we prayed with her. Daddy assured her that the spirit of God had remained present in her little house of worship despite the long absence of a preacher.

A few weeks later, having obtained permission from the appropriate AME Church authorities serving the Fifth Episcopal District, Daddy, accompanied by Mama, all six of us children, a fellow AME pastor from nearby Murphysboro, Illinois, his family, and visitors from the aforementioned Baptist church, conducted a Sunday afternoon service, filling Biddy's humble sanctuary with the joy of the Lord. The river of tears, flowing freely from her clouded eyes, bore ample witness to the immense joy she experienced that afternoon. As the Christmas season approached, Daddy would take us children back to St. Mary again and again to sing carols to Aunt Biddy. 2006-02-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=293 Amy White Amy White is a playwright from Mt. Vernon. Her play, "The Knitting Lesson," was produced by the Mt. Vernon/Lisbon Community Theatre in 2001. She performed a slightly longer version of "Blink" at Riverside Theatre, Iowa City, at their 2003 "Walking the Wire" monologue show.

Blink a story Iowa Writes He couldn't live with us anymore. We kept him for a while after Mom died but he would get up in the middle of the night and try to leave the house. We could hear him going downstairs and putting his jacket on over his pajamas and going out the front door. He'd be so mad when we caught him. "Damn!" he'd say. He never said that before he got sick. We hid his car keys and that really made him mad so we gave him some old keys on a chain. One of them was the key to Roy's old Volkswagen and one of them was a skeleton key to one of our closets--just something for him to keep in his pocket. His car keys. He used to drive all the time, for his job, all over the state. He took us on car trips every summer, thousands of miles across the country. He led tanks into France and got the Bronze Star and the Silver Star and the Purple Heart. And now he can't go to the grocery store and come back with what I asked him to get.

I want to tell everybody at the nursing home: look, you didn't know him, but he was so great. He took care of us. He gave us stuff. He was our dad.

Once last spring he walked out the door and down the street and eight blocks to the highway and went right into Gary's restaurant and sat down. Of course Gary came out and brought him the day's special and sat down and ate with him and then drove him back to the nursing home. The staff was pretty upset about it, thinking about what could have happened, but I thought: Yes! Way to go, Pop! Good for you!

In the special Alzheimer's unit there is no escaping. There are ankle bracelets and alarms and aides to guard the doors.

I'd want to escape too if I was in the Alzheimer's unit. When I go up there, I stay as long as I can stand it and then I make sure he is distracted or asleep when I make my getaway. Down that hall past the nurse's station and through the lobby and out the double doors and oh, God! I'm outta there! Free! I don't care if it's a hundred degrees below zero or a hundred degrees above. I can breathe real air. I can see the sky. I can get in my car and drive home and see Billy and Roy and make supper and not be there anymore.

I'd rather get cancer. My mom fought cancer for twenty years, got down to eighty pounds and lost half a lung and she was so sick and it hurt her so much, but she was still my mom. Asking me, how was I doing? Telling me I looked so nice. Cancer is awful but I swear I think I'd rather get that than Alzheimer's. You'd think that people with Alzheimer's wouldn't know what was happening to them, and maybe they don't know exactly, but they sure don't like it. It makes them really mad. They forget the words for everything. The last time I was with Pop, he said, "Where is your answer?" And I thought, I don't know. Where is my answer? What is my question? What does he mean? I thought he must mean something else, but maybe he didn't. I kept trying to figure out what he was saying, and I asked him, "Do you mean where is Billy? Or Roy? Do you mean Mom? What do you mean, where is my answer? Do you mean, where is my car?" It wore him out, all those questions, but I didn't want to let it go. I wanted to talk to him. Like we used to talk to each other.

I told Roy, just smother me with my pillow if I get this stuff. If you get it first, I will definitely smother you.

I've gotten to know one woman pretty well because she visits her husband in the Alzheimer's unit. She says she always watches his eyes when she talks to him and they look cloudy or foggy or something. It's like that with Alzheimer's patients. Like they don't really see you. But if you keep watching them and talking and touch their hand or their arm or their face--if you can get their attention somehow--they blink, and that clears their eyes. Then for a minute, they see you--before they cloud over again. The nurses all say Pop's calm when I'm with him--he thinks I'm my mom. I hold his hand and we just sit there and I want to say: Come on, Pop. Blink. You can do it. Just blink. 2006-03-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=295 William Ford William Ford lives in Iowa City and teaches distance learning writing courses for Kirkwood Community College. A designated "Iowa Poet," 2003, at the Des Moines National Poetry Festival, he has published one book, The Graveyard Picnic (Mid-America Press, 2002); a second, Past Present Imperfect, is due out from Wordtech (2006). Distance Learning Circuit Rider Iowa Writes Into the soft yellow and plum-
Colored edges of old Bibles,
I'm driving home, teaching done,
Listening to Mahalia Jackson's
"The Upper Room." It's a prayer
Anyone country would understand.

My students would, some
Who actually went to a small school
And read parts of Huckleberry Finn
Or To Kill a Mockingbird.
Older now, so many of them,
They've left bad marriages
And farms for minimal wages
And this off-campus, part-time
Schooling for the next level up
To a little more respect
And family health insurance.

When I'm not there in the flesh
I see them in the distance
On the sometimes shadowy monitor
Tapping the keys of the keyboard
Or pressing down the speaker bar
To communicate with me
So many miles away
Hoping I've got the word
To solve their language problem
Because the textbook's Eastern
Or Pacific Coast in example,
The middle country missing.

Sometimes I imagine myself
A century earlier on horseback
With a new congregation each week
Thumping my boot on the floor
And clapping hands as a woman raises
Her sweating arms heavenward
For the coming of the spirit, her tongue
Rolling in the good King James
And that tomorrow I'll baptize
Tonight's saved in the muddy river,
Recalling how the Jordan's sand
Must have turned gold when
The Master himself went under.

In this darkness I see young men
Picking at their faces to stay awake
And women who cannot hide bruises
And who sneak a child in
Though it's against institutional laws
And my own expressed wish.
Many of them work so hard
I sometimes wonder what it would mean
If their constructions could be allowed
To run together without punctuation
As though language were seamless,
Everything joined to everything
As in the best Greek manuscripts.
Biblical scholars have argued forever
Over the placement of a period
Lest life become one long stream
Of consciousness or fragments. 2006-03-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=296 Carolyn S. Briggs Carolyn S. Briggs grew up in Eldora, Iowa. She won New Letters' Heartland Short Fiction Prize in 1997 and published her memoir This Dark World: A Memoir of Salvation Found and Lost (Bloomsbury) in 2002. She is an assistant professor of English at Marshalltown Community College. from the story The Killing Station Iowa Writes Corrine entered her bedroom with a man who was not her husband, a knife down her pants, and a suffocating urge to kill. Shag lifted his triangular head from the branch.

"I'd watch it," Corrine said. "You smell like fish. He's hungry, hasn't eaten in a week." She put her hand under her shirt, gripped the handle of the knife and waited for him to bend over.

"I think I can handle him," Swinton said. "I'll take care of him and any other business we might have back here in your boudoir." He pushed back the top of the cage. "This snake makes me weak in the knees with love."

She had the knife out now, up in the air, ready. She moved toward him. He seemed to have forgotten she was even in the room.

"I think I can handle him," Swinton said. "I'll take care of him and any other business we might have back here in your boudoir." He pushed back the top of the cage. "This snake makes me weak in the knees with love."

She had the knife out now, up in the air, ready. She moved toward him. He seemed to have forgotten she was even in the room.

He reached his hairless hand into Shag's cage and traced the body with his finger. "Oh, yeah, that's what I like," he murmured, leaning over until his lips were close enough to kiss. "This is what I came for."

Corrine slashed without hesitation. She plunged the knife into Shag's body, nearly halving him. The ease of it surprised her, not so different from dividing a rump roast for two weeknight suppers.

"What the?" Swinton still held the top half. The rest of Shag's body dangled by a tether of bloody hide. "What did you do that for?"

Corrine had never seen Shag extended to his true length, no coils, no alert head watching, just dead weight with his tail curlicued on top of her pastel blue braided rug.

"Go ahead," Corrine said. "You take half and Gerald can have the other. Sound fair?"

"Jesus. You killed him for no reason," Swinton said, nearly crying."He didn't deserve that, that old snake. That beautiful old thing. What's the matter with you?"

"You should probably go now," Corrine said and held the knife up, waving it at him. She felt a warm trickle down her palm and under her sleeve, but she did not look.

"There was no call for this to get ugly," Swinton said. "It was just a business transaction, that's all."

"Right," Corrine said, her teeth set, her voice lowered.

Swinton laid the snake back in the aquarium, lining up the two halves. He patted the spliced place carefully and stood up. He wiped his hands on his jeans. "It's going to break Gerald's heart when he sees this." 2006-03-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=300 John McBride John McBride, Ph.D (English, Univ. of Illinois), MSW (Iowa), taught and held administrative posts at the Universities of Illinois, Michigan, and Iowa, has won awards from many state poetry societies, and is published in a variety of journals. Is Grant Wood's Iowa True? Iowa Writes Past obliging cattle his brush maneuvers,
undulates easily over the crop-rich slopes
of industrious family farms,
and there is much reassurance in
each neat replication
of well-maintained farmhouse, silo, barn.

Take yourself inside the picture, and you can stop
with any question, and know
they will give you their best shot,
and they will chat, as long as you want,
if you appear at all interested,
on wind and rain and sun
and corn and bean rows.

And if you do step in, out of the blue,
into a rambling, century-old farmhouse
for a cup of coffee in the bright kitchen,
you might notice the blinking computer
nodding good-naturedly to you,
specifying yields and the seeding plan‚
but that was beyond his time,

so now you look out
the lace-framed window
to the small shoots,
so young, so unseasoned,
their rustling sighs at the combine
are still food for the imagination,

and then, sauntering on,
leave there, for another,
and reach one of those acrylic towns
where it always is
high noon,
where weather-beaten homes
disclose white fences,
and all the cats,
demure on front porches,
have that cool, do-I-care stare. 2006-03-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=302 Elizabeth Duffy Elizabeth Duffy, PhD—also published as Beth Anne Duffy—lives in Solon and is a former professor of international cultural linguistics. Dr. Duffy is actively writing, enjoys reading Russian and Celtic poetry, has written poetry about African Maasai women, and has recited poetry in Germany. Sweet Baby Anne
5 Oct. 2003 Iowa Writes Sweet Anne, little baby in my arms
accepting the touch of my shaking hands.
I stroke your forehead
and bless you with my kisses.
Ten tiny fingers I count
and ten tiny toes, all perfect.
Fine dark hair like your daddy's
delicate nose like your grandma's.
I long to hear you coo or giggle
but silent you remain,? because, because.
Your newborn skin already swells tight
to seal forever your lovely pale blue eyes.
Your daddy takes you in his arms
and wraps you in a satin-trimmed blanket.
He covers your toes and your fingers
and finally, your now-shut eyes.
He kisses the bundle that is your body
and with tears surrenders you for burial.
Never will I hold you again, my Sweet Anne,
my stillborn baby; except in my heart. 2006-03-10 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=304 Jim O'Loughlin Jim O'Loughlin is an Assistant Professor of English at the University of Northern Iowa. He runs the Final Thursday Reading Series in Cedar Falls and is the publisher of Final Thursday Press. Final Thursday Press http://geocities.com/finalthursdaypress/ The Zone a story Iowa Writes The Zone is a semi-circular arc stretching from our daughter's high chair for the distance of a toddler's reach. Our daughter, Emma, though only two, understands The Zone. At least Emma realizes that all items within The Zone are eligible for play. If we try to put a bib on Emma before clearing The Zone, it is within her rights to twist off the top of a saltshaker and create an anthill-sized mound of salt in front of her.

We respect The Zone, so after we walked into Mycanos Diner and picked out a table as far away from the smoking section as possible, we leapt into action. While I buckled Emma into the high chair, my wife took out a wipe from the diaper bag and sanitized the high chair and the table. Then while my wife took out a plastic bowl with Cheerios, I removed all objects of interest from The Zone: sugar packets, napkins, pads of butter, water glasses, and tips from previous customers.

A waitress approached. Jennifer, according to her nametag. Jennifer smiled at us, but we could tell she did not have children because she placed a set of silverware right in the middle of The Zone. Emma immediately grabbed a knife and started waving it in the air, evading our attempts to disarm her, while Jennifer asked if we wanted anything to drink. My wife distracted Emma with a stuffed animal while I approached out of eyeshot and cleverly snatched away the knife from Emma's hands. Jennifer stood, hand on hips, impatiently waiting. We ordered coffee and attempted to restore order.

Waitresses with children have an implicit understanding of The Zone, and they will assist us in piling up one end of the table with side orders of toast, jugs of syrup, and extra cups of juice. However, Jennifer, I realized, saw The Zone simply as available space. When she returned, she placed a coffee pot right in front of Emma. The coffee pot was a bright Day-Glo orange designed to perk us up, but in the eyes of our daughter it was a shiny bauble come rightfully into her possession.

We lurched forward. Six hands struggled for control of the coffee pot.

Jennifer smiled, blissfully unaware, waiting for our order.

"Cute kid," she said. 2006-03-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=305 Nan Lundeen Poet Nan Lundeen, who grew up on a farm in Clinton County, Iowa, is a staff writer for The Greenville News in Greenville, South Carolina. Her poem "Crate" won best of issue in the South Carolina Writers Workshop 2002 Anthology. Her poetry has been published in small literary magazines. Companion and Mathilda Lundeen Iowa Writes Companion

My little dog
keeps me company
while I brush my teeth.
Nobody else I know
will do that.


Mathilda Lundeen

The wintergreen she rubbed into her knee
mingled
with roses.

I still see her
at age eighty, picking up her skirts
and wading through the creek
to search out
shy ferns hidden in the bluffs.

Or gathering the eggs
scratching chicken dirt with her fingernail,
"Bosh, a little manure can't hurt you."

She argued with her children
stalked upstairs, blue eyes
ablaze,
insisted on molasses in the rye.

Her mother died
when she was eight
and Gram saw her
one night on the stairs.

In her rocking chair, stitching
quilt blocks,
"That was Judith's party dress
and that Aunt Clara's apron,"
she wove
long stories
about Cynthia's cow, goblins, and British generals‚?

Snuggled close in bed
we whispered late at night
about romance, boyfriends.
"I don't trust that one.
Eyes too close together."

She was right. 2006-03-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=308 Brian Chambers Brian Chambers, of Eddyville, is a life-long Iowan who retired from the military with twenty years of service. He is currently attending Simpson College in Indianola, majoring in English with a history minor. Beech-Nut, a story,
intrare per unam ianuam et ex per alia* Iowa Writes As I walk from headquarters across camp to the guard tower all I can think about is that there are only two weeks left. I am sick of the sand, the wind, and the dust, and the only place I want to be at is Fort Living Room. The f-ing new guys (FNGs as we call them) arrived yesterday and the Commander gave me the in-briefing detail. As the wind picks up and drives sand against my face, I remember when I was an FNG. I was scared as hell. We were supposed to run convoy security, and this sergeant by the name of Zavacki had been assigned to train us before he rotated back to the States. For some reason he had singled me out from the squad.

"You see that sign there right there, Corporal?" he said.
"Yes, Sergeant." I replied.
"Tell me what it says."
"Complacency Kills, Sergeant."
"Do you know what it means?"
"Yes, Sergeant."
"Why do you think it is posted here, at the gate?"
"I'm not sure, Sergeant."
"When you drive past this gate, that sign serves as a final reminder to keep your head out of your ass and be on guard at all times. It's dangerous out there."
"Yes, Sergeant."
"Good, now get down to the Company area and wait for me. Training starts immediately. I have two weeks left in this dump and I intend to make sure that you don't get yourselves killed."

It couldn't possibly have been a year already. I was promoted after Zavacki left; I took over the squad. They were back at the hootch now, standing down, waiting to help train the replacements. We started with six and we were now five. Hooker took a round in the neck eight months into the deployment. He was fumbling for a piece of gum when he should have been watching the windows.

It was supposed to be a quick run that day to Taqaddum, but the decision to take the shorter route through the heart of Ramadi made it a dangerous one. Hooker knew this; we all knew it. The debris of bombed buildings lying in the street made it slow going and the buildings that were left standing sat close to the street‚? too close. As we navigated around the debris all eyes were on the windows. I risked a glance at Hooker‚ our gunner‚? and at the same time I saw him look down and reach inside his vest. "Hooker!" I yelled, but it was too late. In the split-second that Hooker looked down, the sniper pulled the trigger. We lit the window up from where the sniper fired, but little good it did Hooker, he was already dead. I sent a letter to his father. I was told later that almost the entire town had shown up for the funeral. It didn't make any sense. A piece of gum.

Life in the desert isn't easy but there were moments and we made the most of them. My squad, as well as a few others, built a basketball court to kill some time between missions. Three-on-three ball games, some volleyball and poker pretty well occupied the down time. And of course there was the training; it was endless. "Keep the Blade Sharp" was our mantra and, in order to survive, countless repetitive exercises were required. The result was a finely trained squad, each member an extension of the others. It kept us alive through countless convoys, except, that is, for Hooker. Gum. Why did he have to have it? Didn't he remember the sign? If he had just kept focused, I would have bought him all the damn Beech-Nut he could have chewed. I will visit his father when I get back home. I will tell him Hooker was a fine soldier. I won't tell him about the gum.

The FNGs are standing at the base. They are waiting, and then they stiffen as they see me. I pick one out, the soldier on the end. "Corporal?"
"Yes, Sergeant."
"You see that sign right there?"
"Yes, Sergeant."
"Tell me what it says."


* Latin. Translated; "Enter through one door and exit through another." 2006-03-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=309 Nicholas Dowd Nick Dowd grew up in western Iowa, graduated from Drake, and now lives in Nashville, Tennessee. Though he has not lived in his home state for many years, Iowa is still the object of his affection. Dry Gold Iowa Writes I scale Iowa's western rim, climbing and rappelling Interstate 29, north to LeMars then south to Missouri Valley. Harvest is in full swing, everything moving. Rail cars, mounded with corn, creak and sway among the stubbled fields, glinting brilliant blue in the unfiltered sun. The autumn sacrament is being celebrated. For the first time since moving to Tennessee twenty-five years ago, I am near home on a dry, gold October day.

Recent months have strung together like boxcars for me, my calendar a steady stream of arrivals, departures, PowerPoint presentations, and meetings that last longer than they need to. When I miss my flight from Omaha to Nashville, I am told I can drive to Kansas City and catch a later flight. So, re-renting the same car I have just turned in, I rejoin the caravan jostling toward the Missouri line.

I have tried to convince myself that there is a flow to this type of living, that the numbing cadence of business travel is the natural order of things. After awhile, I find that one can actually begin to draw comfort from discomfort — the Stockholm syndrome of contemporary life. Repetition becomes an anesthetic. Inconveniences, familiar traveling companions.

Glancing at the dashboard clock, I gauge how much time I have. Barring a flat, there is time to grab a slice of pizza, fill my gas tank, locate the rental car return and ride the Avis bus to the terminal. There is time for all of that — and maybe more.

I find myself imagining what more might entail.

East of Exit 10, Iowa Highway 2 shoots arrow-straight into Fremont County, before ricocheting up the side of a bluff. On a whim, I decide to see where it leads and, in the process, discover Waubonsie State Park.

Nosing into a graveled area, I get out of my car and immediately feel like an alien dressed in a gray suit, starched white button-down and club tie, crunching dry leaves under my wingtips. Finding the picnic table furthest from the road, I resolve to sit still — but I struggle. Mile markers continue to flash by in my mind; spreadsheets display themselves in sequential order while my petulant cell phone continually demands an audience. I finally turn it off.

After sitting quietly for a time, I hear a sigh. Someone exhales in the soft, October sun. It is my own breathing. A breeze whispers by, insects drone and a tractor chugs somewhere out along a distant, green terrace until all sounds gradually soften into one padded, ambient hum. A deep settling comes and, with it, remembrance of what I have always known — that all sounds come from one sound.

Then, an immense hush gathers in the Missouri River valley below me, rushes up the hill through the trees, rising a hundred feet aloft before sweeping off to the north. I am left here in its wake, stilled and yielded, left here in the unmediated presence of an Iowa autumn afternoon.

In "My Antonia", Willa Cather writes of the happiness of being "dissolved into something complete and great." Now, hidden away in the southwest corner of the state, I enter that same boundlessness, welcoming sweet dissolution, free again and fully restored.

After an hour lived out of time and with my spirit newly-settled, I re-enter the more immediate. Accelerating back onto I-29, I continue the journey, reluctantly re-attaching myself to the umbilical mechanism that dispenses gasoline, cash and French fries.

Having tasted both light and air, I again bow to the tyranny of the urgent. Is there an ATM at the Rock Port exit? A McDonald's?

Then I remember. It doesn't matter. I have just been fed. 2006-03-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=311 Curtis Bauer Curtis Bauer earned his B.A. from Central College, in Pella, IA, and London, England; and an MFA from Sarah Lawrence College, NY. After several years based alternately in Mexico, Spain, and Iowa City, he now teaches Creative Writing at Texas Tech University. This poem is from Bauer's collection Fence Line (BkMk Press, 2003), which won the 2003 John Ciardi Poetry Prize. Landscape: Galicia with Two Figures Iowa Writes There is a church,
there are women
sitting in a circle
making gossip and lace.

The waves welcome then
turn us away.

There are always clacking hammers
in the distance, gulls and salt in the air
outside the bars
where we share cafe con leche
while boys play
a football match the future
of the world depends upon. Somewhere

in this I became the man who took
the hand of the woman you became,
a loaf of bread under his arm, in her hand
empanada wrapped perfectly by a woman
who left her shop to watch them walk away. 2006-03-19 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=313 Mani Rao Mani Rao was born in 1965 in India, and moved to Hong Kong in 1993, where she has mostly lived since. She is the author of six poetry collections. A Fall 2005 participant in the UI's International Writing Program, Rao is back in Iowa as the 2006 UI International Programs Writer-in-Residence. This story is from the book H.K.I.D: Stories from the city's hidden writers (Hong Kong: Haven Books, 2005). Writer in Residence http://intl-programs.uiowa.edu/outreach/writer_in_residence.htm Junket a story Iowa Writes Remember the lions outside the Bank of China tower? And how we used to use their jaws to staple extra-thick bank documents? One day, when a security guard went to relieve himself, the teeth disappeared and the Hong Kong stock market crashed.

According to rumors, the teeth got on the list of an auction and the seller was an antique shop really in the business of antique-style furniture. But when the police wrenched open crates in the storerooms on Hollywood Road and Cat Street, they found nothing but ivory, tons of ivory. The shop-owners claimed it was old stock from the 90s; there had been no new deliveries since it had been made illegal to trade in ivory. As for missing teeth, they pointed at the China Resource Centre, try the medicine section, they said.

When the stock market went under it was not a big deal because the really rich turned to Plan B, the really poor lost nothing, and everyone else had jobs. But newspapers and internet sites were still uncensored, and as a result, things were loose and a lot was said. One newspaper looked at their archive of the annual horoscope for the city, which had clearly indicated change beyond control. A legislator (a newcomer), showed off in a radio interview by pointing out that the sound of the original Chinese word for teeth had a syllable that was reminiscent of another Chinese word which sounded similar to the sound of the word for energy; Hong Kong had lost its energy. A Chinese proverb about the impossibility of pulling teeth from a tiger's mouth did the rounds, and if you considered the lion as a kind of tiger, then the impossible had occurred. One proverb said: If you cannot bite, never show your teeth. Another proverb said: When fortune turns against you, even jelly breaks your teeth. Hyped, people soiled themselves. Sewage emptied into the harbor faster than the efficiency rate of the effluent recycling system, the water level rose and the streets were flooded. The water measured five-people deep and would not recede. The death toll was not too bad, numbers somewhere between India and Iceland: Iceland where every single person was rescued from lava by using choppers, India without enough escalators and elevators. Hundreds of security guards died when the water rose and people murmured in private that it was retribution for the negligence over the teeth. Many of the guards were Gurkhas, the same community that fought for the British army.

While the city's lowlife escaped into the hills and fought it out with the illegal immigrants, wealthy construction companies with directors who lived on the Peak flew in cheap labor from Shenzhen and built walkways connecting the high floors of Hong Kong buildings. New airports, car parks and flyovers went up in a matter of weeks. The MTR re-invented itself and turned trains into submarines.

Commercial, shopping and housing infrastructures were already in place. Food was already being imported. Clothes and money were already made of plastic. Having watched what happened in Mumbai monsoons, many buildings had already launched Crisis Management Solutions. This meant that when the bowl of the South China Sea spilled over, there were no expensive assets at the street level anyway, and MIS had already relocated servers to higher floors.

It did not take long for the city to return to business as usual. The stock market recovered. Hong Kong Tourist Association got a new lease on life with an advertising campaign. Two ad agencies competed, one multi-national and one Beijing-based. The gweilo agency recommended "City of Sails" and felt that the controversy about plagiarizing Auckland's tagline would help amplify the impact of the budget. The China agency recommended "Hong Kong Junk City" and proposed retaining the existing campaign with the logo of the Hong Kong junk; they would simply change the text everywhere and save HKTA millions of re-branding dollars. The China agency won. Embankments were built all along the harbor to ensure that the risen waters would stay in the city. Chlorinators and cleaning systems were installed to maintain a beautified waterscape. Hong Kong was hailed as the "Venice of the East" by Dr. Condoleezza Rice. China was proud of the sobriquet. Singapore was now mud.

A memorial was constructed for security guards in Chatter Garden, and HSBC opened a Premier account for each of the surviving families. One artist set up a lounge with tall chairs, a coffee machine and scalloped cookies in case the ghosts of the security guards dropped in. Another artist erected a figure in guard uniform, as if walking on water, and called it resurrection. 2006-03-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=315 Terry Savoie Terry Savoie's work has appeared in more than 130 literary journals, anthologies, and small press publications, including Poetry, Ploughshares, and Prairie Schooner. He lives in Davenport. Ventriloquist Iowa Writes Between pencil-
thin moustache
& lower lip,

his limp
smirk
harbors a city

of gold-capped
clenched
teeth & a pot

of honeyed
language
hidden

in the hollow
of his Adam's
apple.

He's
a comic
who wants

us to think
his life's
merely lip

service,
idle chit-
chat,

answering
when spoken to,
never (never?) making

much sense.
  In
his world the other's
always the soured

dummy while
he stays
the straight.

                  His life
even God
        (given Time)
might grow
to love. 2006-03-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=317 Bob Tremmel Bob Tremmel grew up in Sheldon, Iowa, graduated three times from the University of Iowa, and since 1989 has been teaching in the English Department at Iowa State University. Most semesters he has lunch once a week with his friend and colleague, Mary Swander, in Mary's luxurious office suite. Bob is the author of Zen and the Practice of Teaching English and a recent book of poems, Crossing Crocker Township. Lunch With Mary Iowa Writes Today, you have squash
soup, a can of sardines
and a bag of seaweed

little reddish green
leaves that taste
like dried bluegills.

It's called
"dulse"
as if it were
much, much sweeter.

I have my usual
cheese, three mozzarella
sticks, some slices of dried
apple, apricot, peach.

I tell you
about the t-shirt
I got for Christmas

the white one
with the illuminated
map of Trinidad
and Tobago
on the chest.

You tell me
about the leaky glass
bottomed boat, how
you all sang
"dah bucket is gone
and dah water come in"
and how you swam
to safety‚ twice‚ wearing
your flipflops and balancing
your camera bag
above the water

about the deep drumming
rain on a thousand
metal rooftops
and finally the flash
flood and the mountain
flowing through the streets.

not to mention
the Muslim bull calf
who escaped
the knife just
in the nick of time, ran
through the Bingo game
on the beach, straight
to the Hindus and his own
little slice of Nirvana. 2006-03-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=318 Kristin Hall Kristin Hall was recently married and lives with her husband and two cats in Iowa City where she enjoys gardening and fixing up her very old house. A Long Ride to Ottumwa Iowa Writes Flower me in the Day Lily underbelly,
but briefly because the alley is busy
between those of us scraping the fence
and those of you calling it a labor
of love‚ ?like flame like fire,
I'm glad that's not me
smoking the boundaries.

On gameday, an intergalactic highway
painted into our yard prepared for you
with unseasonal sweat motivating down
the stone alley and rounding the corner
to the new white fence you can see
from blocks away. You are drunk
from your Huck and Tom genius,
passionately applied like another major
development in the landscape that has
stopped just for a while
before the blank defeat and long ride back to Ottumwa. 2006-03-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=321 Ina Loewenberg Ina Loewenberg has lived in Iowa City for more than 36 years. In addition to her most recent career as a photographer, she has been an internal auditor at The University of Iowa Hospitals and Clinics, a tax preparer for H & R Block, and a philosophy teacher at Coe College. Mission Statement Iowa Writes I'm not a look-out-of-the-window poet.
Oh, yes, I love what we call nature but don't know what

To do with it. Beauty in the plump fields of Iowa
Dressed in a mismatch of greens silenced my camera

When it was my instrument; I stood dumb,
Insightless, before what others earlier had done.

This landscape, shy and unassuming, sits
For its portrait patiently but doesn't tell what its

Meaning is. I do only a little better in New York:
Its delicious debris nonetheless can't talk.

I need my percepts bound to concepts as Kant
Demanded, I need allusion & illusion, I want

Speakers from poems and myths and my own
History to inhabit my landscapes, not land alone,

Not even sky and water, clouds and birds.
My landscapes are composed of words. 2006-03-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=323 Dian M. Gottlob Dian M. Gottlob works in the University of Iowa's Center for Credit Programs, where she coordinates two extended learning undergraduate programs: the Bachelor of Liberal Studies and the Bachelor of Applied Studies. She also has an adjunct teaching appointment with the College of Public Health. She resides in Kalona where she writes both fiction and nonfiction. The First Return Iowa Writes Even in the midst of a midwinter storm when scattered piles of white slide across my driveway and down my rural road and when the wind snaps brittle tree branches, I remember that first return. Summer images, recorded decades ago, are cloudless.

Coils‚ ?green, yellow and red‚ ?speed down the line; wires wrapped in color that I carefully dip into a hot pot of wax. My clothes are crusted with circles, which I peel from my pants each night. Within the Connecticut Audio Dynamics Factory, machines, voices of authority, and chatter between stations manned by women briefly interrupt the incessant loop of top-forty music that repeats itself for eight and a half hours. I await the 15-minute break; I think about Iowa City.

"It's the coldest place on earth," I'd said to my brother who lived in Oswego, a blizzard-ridden town that abuts Lake Ontario. Even for an upstater like me, who'd skied down the icy Adirondacks, my first December on the plains seemed monstrous. By the end of spring, when I could afford only breakfast charged to my university bill, I considered abandoning the frigid landscape.

"You'll need to get all 'A's' to get any money," the department chair had told me, and I did, so that summer when the Audio Dynamics bell rang and the line briefly shut down, I called him.

"Where are you?" he asked, as factory clatter filtered through the phone. When I explained, he fell silent. "There's a teaching assistantship available, but it's only for the first semester."

Early morning the following Thursday, too early for factory work, I boarded a crowded commuter train with my green duffel bag, canvas backpack and jean jacket. Dumped onto a long platform in Grand Central at 7:30, I walked across the street to the LaGuardia bus stop where cars, cabs, people and a humid August day folded in around me.

I released a smile only after the plane had landed in Cedar Rapids, when I was swallowed up by rows of crops and friends who raced east towards the Mississippi River. In the evening as we sat on a fractured concrete wall, we cast out fine blue fishing lines into the darkening water. The sun set behind us without a nibble, but when I caught sight of the barge‚ lights that brightened down an iron side as the engine sent splashes of water towards my feet‚ ?my memory became photographic. I flipped from a morning to an evening print, from a chaotic Grand Central to a composed Mississippi, and I was illuminated. Like a shed skin, I peeled away the summer and floated the summer sights and sounds south towards St. Louis, a tumble of troubles that I deep-sixed.

"I'm staying on this side of the river, forever," I stated, a promise that wasn't kept. Years and a degree later, I moved to New York, the Twin Cities and again, Connecticut. Yet always when in doubt, when life forced a change, I returned to Iowa. Even after my last foray to Texas, when I'd retreated from success along the north/south route in my little red sports car, cats in the back, friend in the front, I marked home by the number of miles it took me to place myself between the Missouri and the Mississippi.

My last arrival in early October I was greeted by golden fields. I rolled in all directions during the twenty-mile drive from an I-80 exit to my new Kalona home, as my friend inhaled the hogs and horses while tractors and buggies scrolled across the windshield.

"Why would anyone ever leave here?" she commented, after we surveyed my new Amish neighbor's garden‚ ?the autumnal lines of fat, fresh vegetables and fruits.

And like the first return, the last one has ended in a promise. When road ice keeps me housebound, when summer skies blister the back of my neck, I try to retrieve the evening snapshot of the Mississippi from my mental scrapbook. I dredge up that image of a brilliant barge and relax, remind myself of the first return and renew my commitment to a place and space just west of the Mississippi. 2006-03-31 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=325 John E. Archer John E. Archer is an Iowa native, born in Centerville, who lives in West Liberty, Iowa. He has authored technical articles while working for several industrial firms. His latest project is a first-person account of growing up in Muscatine and Davenport, Iowa, along the Mississippi. Lemon Meringue Iowa Writes Just five years old and no one to play with; the new place we had moved to on Maiden Lane in Muscatine was not remote, but I hadn't met anyone my age yet. It was a warm morning in 1944, a good day for a walk for a bored five-year-old boy.

I decided to walk downtown. I knew I wouldn't get lost because I had done it once with Mama and Paul. It was about a mile and I would walk slow. I would go down Maiden Lane towards Roscoe, which I knew would lead me to Eighth Street, where I had to turn at the bottom of the hill onto Cedar, and Cedar would take me right downtown.

It was simple.

I was about two blocks from our house when I saw a man fixing his car. Daddy had said his name was Johnny and he was a good mechanic. I walked by blowing on my little harmonica that Paul had got for me by sending in ten cents and a Cheerios box top.

"Hey bud!" he yelled, "Can you play that thing?"

"Sure," I replied. I crossed the street to where he was working.

"Let me see that harp." he said, as he spit a stream of tobacco deftly over his shoulder. "Here's how you do it." Taking the harmonica from my outstretched hand, he pointed out how you had to hold your tongue over the holes you didn't want to play. He spit again and stuck out his tobacco-flecked tongue and covered two holes and blew on the others. The sound was a single note, not the jumble I had been playing.

"See bud," he said, "Now we'll see if thing's got any music in it." With that he played a short version of Yankee Doodle and then Oh! Susanna. He was really good. "Now you give it a try, bud."

I blew a few notes but the sweetish aftertaste of his tobacco made it hard for me to think about playing.

"Well, you just keep trying," he said, and he turned back to his car.

I blew a few notes and walked down the street. When I was out of sight, I stopped and spit several times to get rid of the tobacco taste. I wiped the harmonica off and put it in my pants pocket. Maybe I'd give it to Paul when I got home.

I watched squirrels playing tag on Eighth Street. They ran away when I got too close. On Cedar, I passed a postman who said, "Hi son," as he walked by. A fat lady smiled at me as she pushed a baby carriage past me. I wasn't tall enough to see the baby.

I came to the first traffic light of downtown. It was green. Mama had told me to only cross when it was green. The green one is on the bottom. I walked to a restaurant just past the Courthouse. It was painted red and white and had a big sign out front but I couldn't read. Paul had told me that it said "Maid-Rite." I could smell hamburger cooking so I went inside and sat on one of the high stools at the counter.

I was looking at the pies in the pie case behind the counter when a lady came up with a glass of water and set it in front of me. I took a long drink.

"Can I get you some pie, Hon?" she asked.

"What kind of pie is that with the white stuff on top?" I asked as I drank some more water.

"That's Lemon Meringue, Honey."

"I don't have any money," I said, "but I sure would like some of that pie."

"I can't give you pie without money, Hon." And she added, "Don't you think you should go home now, son?"

As I walked back up Eighth Street hill I wondered if Mama could make a pie like that. I was picking up buckeyes from under a tree about a block from our house when a police car stopped across the street.

"Hey kid! Are you John?" the policeman yelled.

"Yes I am!" I said proudly. I really liked my name.

"Well, you better get home quick. Your mother's been looking all over for you. She thought you were lost."

"I'm not lost," I replied. "I just went for a walk." 2006-04-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=379 Mary Vermillion Iowa native Mary Vermillion pens mystery novels and teaches English at Mount Mercy College in Cedar Rapids. Her first novel, Death by Discount—a finalist for two Lambda awards—portrays Wal-Mart's impact on small towns. Her second novel, Murder by Mascot, features Hawkeye basketball. Mary Vermillion's website http://www.maryvermillion.com Excerpt from the opening pages of Murder By Mascot Iowa Writes My face hurt from fake-smiling through the game's first half. The source of this pain came from the seating arrangement in Section A, Row 5 of Carver-Hawkeye Arena. My ex, Anne, had the aisle seat—which I didn't mind, given her legginess. What I did mind was her new partner, Orchid, who wedged herself in between us and made it nearly impossible for us to talk. She bumped my right side every time she turned to whisper in Anne's ear or to grab a handful of their organic popcorn. Things were no better on my left where I was saving an empty seat for Neale, my long-distance girlfriend. She was supposed to meet us for dinner before the game, but still hadn't shown.

Our mascot, Herky, paced the court's perimeter, his huge plastic hawk's head bobbing atop a tall, spindly body. His beaky grin looked every bit as stiff as mine felt, but that didn't stop the hordes of children who wanted to high-five him or hug him. He flapped his arms—or wings—as we scored, and Orchid clapped along.

Narrowly dodging her elbow, I adjusted my glasses and checked the scoreboard: Iowa Hawkeyes 45, Missouri Tigers 41.

"We should be way ahead by now," Orchid grumbled.

"It's the first game," Anne said. "We're just rusty."

At least that's what I thought she said.

"We don't have much depth." Orchid nodded toward the bench, which was directly in front of us. Orchid's season tickets are much better than mine, as are her luck and her job. She is the program director at the alternative radio station where I work. In other words, my boss and my constant reminder that life isn't fair.

She jabbed me in the arm—on purpose this time. "I wonder what's keeping your girlfriend," she asked. Her eyes were the same color as her steely buzz cut and vulva-shaped pewter earrings.

I shrugged and summoned another fake grin before grabbing my cell phone and punching in my own number. If my housemate Vince answered, I'd inquire about his Persian, Norma Desmond. That was our code for get me outta here. Alas, Vince did not answer, so I left a message for Norma and turned my attention to the game.

Coach Bridget Stokes waved a clipboard in the air and yelled at her team to play defense. Technically speaking, Bridget was not the coach. She was Carol Oliver's most experienced assistant and therefore in charge while Coach Carol visited her dying brother in Pennsylvania.

Our standout point guard, Win Ramsey, dribbled the ball downcourt and heaved it to our only freshman starter. She squared her feet to the basket and nailed the three.

"Jessie March," Orchid said. "She's gonna be good. Check out that jump shot."

What I noticed about the freshman was that she was the only player with auburn hair. For the most part, that's how I keep track of the players—their 'dos. Granted, it's not foolproof given all the faux-blond ponytails.

"The rookie is family," Orchid said. "Elaine saw her at the Alley Cat with our shortstop."

For Orchid, no women's sporting event is complete unless she determines which players are lesbians. Me, I have better things to do than ponder the sexual orientations of nineteen-year-olds.

After the Tigers scored an easy two, our center, Kate Timmens, set a nice pick for Varenka White, who drove to the hoop and got hacked by the Tiger center. It was the fourth foul on their top scorer, so the crowd erupted, hushing only when Varenka stepped to the free-throw line.

After she sank the front end of her one-and-one, there was no triumphant riff from the pep band. Except for some scattered applause, the arena was freakishly quiet.

Anne gasped, her eyes fixed on the other side of the arena. I followed her gaze past the players lined up at the key for Varenka's second shot. There, sprawled in the front row—right across the court from our women's bench—was the infamous hoopster, Dave DeVoster. With his disconcertingly blond hair, the star forward looked like a Nordic model for Abercrombie and Fitch. His outstretched legs grazed the out-of-bounds line as he laughed with two guys who looked like linebackers.

Why shouldn't he laugh? Not only had the senior forward just avoided jail, but he had also gained an extra year of eligibility when the university granted him a red-shirt season and the remainder of his scholarship. This, after being charged with raping one of its female athletes. 2006-04-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=381 Tim Trenkle Tim Trenkle is a resident of Dubuque, Iowa, where he writes a column for the Telegraph Herald. "My people have all been farmers and meatpackers," he says. "I write human interest pieces about Iowa and the values of our world, seen from the banks of the Mississippi." Echoes of America Iowa Writes The train rumbles the ties that hold the rails on the bed of stones. It moves sound up from the earth into the chairs at the long, green-topped tables where the veterans sit in the conference room of the newly decorated restaurant. A round-faced old man touches his gold-rimmed glasses as he listens to the conversation above the rumble that holds his chest at his throat.

Tables are pushed against each other across the length of the room to form two rows. Veterans are seated along one of the rows and friends and family at the other. A splash of food graces the tables in color on dozens of plates. Little rolled fingers of chicken are set by taco shell salads and French soups. Ham dinners are ladled upon mounds of potatoes. Potato soup steams above the rich napkins, and the silverware is long and heavy enough to accommodate the biggest hands.

The banquet honors the passing of an old soldier.

A speaker places his hands on the table. He's talking to several of those acquainted with the departed. He wears a tie striped in red, white and blue that moves diagonally up the knotted cloth. The tie is held to the white shirt by a gold clip. He looks down the length of green and turns to his left where a bounty of food covers thirty feet of tables. On his right is a window that gives up a view to the flashing, red railroad crossing lights.

He shifts his weight from his hands and as he stares down this last supper the lights from the window extract a gleam from his eyeglasses.

Some of the people are red-eyed.

One of the men seated with the veterans shifts in his seat and his suspenders shift on his shirt while the train rumbles past in the yard next door.

The words of an earlier service today still hang in the air. The talk is about the old days of Dubuque and service to country. Many of the attendees remember the man they've come to celebrate. The veterans have spoken about sacrifice and commitment at the final passing of the flag. The salutes are gone and the rifles are silent.

The old gentleman at the table's edge wears an American flag on his right shoulder. One of the women comments that it appears backwards. "Shouldn't it be turned the other way?" she asks. "The blue field of stars is leading," she says.

In the quiet of the moment a veteran says, "The blue leads because it symbolizes peace."

One of the old men wearing blue trousers with gold stripes trailing down the sides, the man who clicked his black boot heels upon transferring the flag at the casket, is bustling, preparing to leave. A shaded light covers the tables and makes shadows on the plants that hang at all four corners of the ceiling.

One of the people at the table of friends says that the flag was probably made in China. At this a silence, like death, like the funeral procession, like the smoke of the guns before taps, fills the room. Heads turn, one to the other.

Each of these last to pay respects to an old friend is left with their thoughts of him and of America.

Echoes of the lonesome train roll out beyond the bluffs. 2006-04-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=382 David Mitschelen David Mitschelen's boyhood home was Madrid, Iowa. He earned a Master in Library and Information Science from the University of Iowa in 1993 and currently provides answers at Washington High School in Cedar Rapids, Iowa. The Almost-Noon Whistle Iowa Writes An extended mechanical moan accompanied by our dachshund's mournful descant and Mom's call to lunch: that's how I remember noon as a boy. The noon whistle was a part of growing up in a small town. There was no reason to it. If it marked the beginning of a lunch break, why didn't another whistle mark the end? It certainly didn't mark the end of a work shift. There weren't any businesses in town big enough to work in shifts. Besides, it wasn't a factory whistle; it was the noon whistle. It was a fact of life like green grass, blue skies, and chewing gum on the bottom of school desks.

I'd forgotten about noon whistles and other facts of life while busy learning more important facts at college and various other places far from home. I was reminded of them after settling down in small-town Iowa again.

"What's that? Fire? Police? Ambulance?" But the siren had stopped before my wife finished the question.

"That's the noon whistle," I answered. Providing answers is what I do best.

"But it's not noon," she said. My wife is Swiss. Time is an absolute.

I looked at my watch. It was 11:52. "Noon isn't really an exact time. It refers to the time when the sun is highest in the sky," I informed her. Some answers need elaboration.

"When is the sun highest in the sky?" she asked.

"At 12 o'clock," I replied. I had no intention of trying to explain daylight savings time.

"But it's not 12 o'clock," she repeated.

I tried a different approach. "The noon whistle isn't to set your watch by. It's a tradition. A person at the town hall turns it on as a kind of signal that it's time to go to lunch," I explained.

"Today he must have been really hungry," she said.

I couldn't swear that the whistle always blew at exactly 12:00 when I was growing up. Kids didn't have watches, and time wasn't important back then. Noon was whenever the noon whistle blew. But now I had to look at my watch to see when hunger struck the designated town official. It generally ranged from five to ten minutes early, though occasionally it was as early as twenty till and once it was five minutes late.

Then, without warning, it sounded at exactly 12:00 for a full week. Was the person on a diet? Had the clerk been fired and replaced with a more efficient bureaucrat? Had the fallible human been replaced by an automatic timer?

On Monday the whistle blew at 11:48. My wife and I looked at each other.

"Back from vacation." 2006-04-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=384 Claire Kean Claire Kean lives in Cedar Rapids, Iowa. She is twelve years old and a sixth grader at Harding Middle School. "I like reading just about any type of story, but I like to write non-fiction the best," she says. Tap Tap, Knock Knock Iowa Writes "Click, tap, tap." I glance out the French doors lining the plain white living room walls. My dog Blaise, a gigantic, fluffy, loving collie, is smiling in at me. "Click, click, tap." Once again he gently taps on the glass doors, just like a little gentleman. Part of me wants to go out and face the blistering cold, to take my dogs out for a beautiful walk to the river. Yet, another part of me wants to be lazy and sit at home and sip tea all day.

"Click, click, tap tap." With Blaise's big, warm, brown eyes staring through me, I melt and go to the laundry room to get my shoes. The dogs go crazy. Every 30 seconds there's a loud, anxious whine at the door. "I'm coming," I assure them. Another loud wail. I open the door and they prance around the garage. Blaise sounds as if he's singing, he howls so long and loud. "Let's go for a walk!"

We walk out the side door, and while walking across the yard to the woods, FLASH! I see a blur of deep brown and beige. Here comes Ted, the neighbor dog, rocketing by to join us. We head down the deep, white, untouched, snow-topped trail into the large, frozen meadow. The dogs occasionally run off to dig up an innocent mouse to eat. Luckily the mouse usually escapes through the grass. The dogs still stand there sniffing as if thinking, "Huh? Where'd he go?" They always trot back to me to make sure I'm still there, wag their tails, and then trot off again.

A stand of trees looms before us. We enter the woods. The tall dark trees stand like people watching us, but they never speak, or follow us. I hear a cracking noise. Bailey, the middle-sized dog of the three, is sliding on the ice ahead of us, cracking the ice in some spots. Now I hear a splash. Over one hundred pounds of dog plunges in through the ice. Blaise just lumbers up and seems to say "I did that on purpose," and saunters off. He gives Ted a dirty look, as if he's jealous that Ted never falls in.

After an hour of this, three wet, dirty dogs walk back to the house. The wind is whipping my hair. I am no longer cold. It was great to get out, and now I have earned my hot tea, in my bright red velvet armchair by the fire. 2006-04-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=386 Mary Iber Mary Iber is Consulting Librarian for the Sciences at Cornell College, and teaches in the School of Library and Information Science at the University of Iowa as an adjunct assistant professor. She has lived in Iowa for 23 years. Shoveling or How Long to Delay Shoveling? Iowa Writes Fresh
light
pure
white
snow.

Petite
paw
prints
define
edges.

Erase
traces
of the
pathfinder.
Shovel
But
Remember. 2006-04-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=388 Kristy Parker Kristy Parker was born and raised in Waterloo and is currently an Art Education major at the University of Northern Iowa. She has been writing poetry since she was 12 years old. Gaia's Cave Iowa Writes Rattled rivers of fear glide through her thighs
Her own glimmering scarlet waters course to the center of her Underworld
To the forbidden fruit left untasted, the essence of Gaia hides in her cave
Waiting for Orpheus, with his sweet music of abandon
To unlock the entryway with echoes of song and mirth
His hands that so deftly plucked Cupid's harp, will make the walls tremble
And eyes that could see through Athena's biting armor
See what lies at the end of the living tunnel
That welcomes its warrior home...a place inviting, warm
Full of the truth that lies hidden behind the shadows of her eyelashes
That she can cast down no more....because Orpheus would never let her look away
From love so real, it makes the gods jealous 2006-04-13 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=390 Walter Richard Knupfer Walter Richard Knupfer received his B.A., M.F.A., M.A., and Ph.D. degrees from the University of Iowa. His work has appeared in The Paris Review, The Antioch Review, Ploughshares, The Ohio Review, Turnstile, The Great Lakes Review, and elsewhere. In the Bed of Iowa Iowa Writes where you and your brother were born
in the rolling landscape of corn, beans, rivers
and fogs of fireflies where you can't tell
the fireflies from the stars, born in an ancient

seabed that became topsoil layered and layered
until shoots of grassland filled with meadows
of phlox, Indian paint-brush, daisies, blue asters
and lavender sunsets and purple thunderstorms.

We used to race under the rainbows through clapping
lightning storms, breaking through the waves of color
of showers again, dousing ourselves when the line moved
through pouring streams, the soil draining down-river

to the muddy blues' oily muck. A conch, a coral reef,
a whorl, an aching noise when the earth burst into the sea
and all swirled into all, a calamitous, cacophonous blast,
a chorus of noisy crickets, a cochlear shell that amplifies

nothing but the whistling wind and tinnitus, a petrous
hardness, an undulating crust of shaken blankets of tin
soldiers who die and die in crusted paint in pink flesh.
From there you were reborn, from word from word,

in a cloudy world under the Iowa sun, fistula, fistula,
burst into another word, another word, another word.
I love you, my son, who has taken me from the gentle
speech through the left hemisphere in another life of my own,

the map of the heavens through the fourth sign and beyond
through unbalanced semi-circular canals, losing our balance,
from watershed to watershed. We can wait for the shoe to drop,
like the flat Missouri fault buckling, bubbling and blistering

in fissures and cracks, tremors and temblors in rolling land
pounding the flat table, shaking the tablecloth with crystal vases
and ground glass and sand, correcting the plate of earth
of petrous rock that calcifies into a limestone escarpment,

but everything pales like your ossified petrous inner ear
glued by flaps of skin that connects you with the world,
and the light of your eyes on campfire, transfixed
in flickering embers, stupefied by the mystery of the stars. 2006-04-16 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=393 Sheena Smitley Sheena Maree Smitley was born in Des Moines, Iowa. She is 20 years old and a sophomore at Simpson College. An English major, she plans to teach high school after graduating. Porcelain Memory Iowa Writes Who gave you right
To call yourself Daddy?
I remember the pressure
of your large palms
like wind on a black umbrella tent
smashing my skull
into the thick, dark, crimson carpet.
Your dry, paint-stained fingers
wrapped firmly 'round my shoulders
as my frail body, shoved
through air, finds a wall
tough as your fist
that used to scrape
itself across my cheek.
Who gave you right
to call yourself Daddy?
The sting of alcohol
in your breath,
burning beneath the blood
stained cuts on my skin
and causing my tears to well.
Your forceful roar, so close to me
that I could feel your droplets of
alcoholic saliva landing upon my freckles,
blending with the tears of blood
that dripped helplessly down
the side of my face.
I remember your head would shake
in complete rage
until your voice no longer existed.
It thundered through my home
what used to be our home,
and the walls began to tremble
as your beer-stenched self
made way through the front door.
My tiny feet were left with no choice
but to hide and pray
that someday an angel would come
and carry me away.
The fury in your eyes
seeped into me
like hell's tempestuous black hole
and eventually swallowed me whole.
Who gave you right
to call yourself Daddy? 2006-04-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=394 Savanna Snead Savanna lives in Cedar Rapids. She enjoys reading, riding her bike and hanging out with her mom and friends. Savanna dreams of becoming a president, judge, lawyer, writer and actress. The Beast Iowa Writes Ever since I was ten I have been afraid to go to my grandparents' house.
I remember one particularly horrifying day when I was forced to spend the night there.
My mom opened the screen door and knocked hard on the cruel red wood door.
My grandma opened the door and smiled. It was terrifying.
Her yellowish-green teeth glowed in the moonlight, her eyes were squinty, and I swear they were turning black!
I half expected to see the numbers 666 appear on her wrinkled forehead!
I clung on to my mom but she pushed me away into the hands of evil.
"No! Don't leave me here! I don't want to die!" I screamed, but she just walked away.
My grandmother shut the door and locked all eight locks.
"It's feeding time," she said in her scratchy voice.
She led me into the kitchen and pulled off my only protection from evil, my coat, and hurled me into a cold wood chair.
There it was. The monster.
Its titanium skin gleamed in the yellow light. Its sixteen eyes flashed red. The monster's mouth was wide open and I could see its glassy tongue.
My grandma pulled open the white refrigerator door, reached in, and grabbed a frozen cheeseburger.
What would she do with it?
She placed it on a plate and on the beast's tongue.
Ugh! She was feeding it.
She pushed on its eyes and it screamed in rage and pain!
What evil and madness was this?
She closed its mouth and touched another eye.
"Mmmmm," went the beast as it fed.
I sat paralyzed in my seat.
After a minute or two of shock, the beast roared loudly three times and my grandmother opened its mouth and took the cheeseburger out of the beast's mouth.
Disgusting!
She set the plate down in front of me and smiled again.
"Enjoy, my little angel," she cackled.
I was sure she had fallen off her rocker and could not get back up!
I poked it. Ugh! It was soggy and damp from being in the beast's mouth.
I picked it up and sunk my teeth into it.
Well, it could have used some ketchup, but oh well! 2006-04-19 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=396 David Zollo David Zollo is an Iowa City-based singer, songwriter, keyboardist, and the founder of the music label Trailer Records. His CDs include The Big Night, Uneasy Street, and The Morning is a Long Way from Home. David Zollo's website http://www.davidzollo.com Parnell Iowa Writes They said I'd never hold your arm,
They said I'd never hold my head up high;
They said I'd never hold the nighttime in my hands,
So they said, and they was right.

They said the pills and liquor would not raise me,
Such a shame to see a young man die.
They said my emotions were the distance between two points,
So they said, and they was right.

If I make it back to Parnell,
I ain't never coming back here;
Where my dreams were tossed like whiskey across the bar
And the whole place smells like my fear.

I took off west with both legs running
To find myself some of your happiness,
But my hopes were scattered like husks in the field;
I've given up on life I guess.

If I make it back to Parnell,
I ain't never coming back here;
Where my dreams were tossed like whiskey across the bar
And the whole place smells like my fear.

So baby, if you see me walking,
Back home, all alone, in the moonlight,
Then you'll know that place got the best of me,
So they said, and they was right.

If I make it back to Parnell,
I ain't never coming back here;
Where my dreams were tossed like whiskey across the bar
And the whole place smells like my fear.

© 1999, David Zollo, BMI, all rights reserved. From the CD Uneasy Street, on Trailer Records, Iowa City, USA. 2006-04-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=397 Tom Snee A Duluth, Minnesota native, Tom Snee now lives in Iowa City with his wife and son. His work has appeared in the Wapsipinicon Almanac, The Long Story, Elysian Fields Quarterly, and Exquisite Corpse. His story, "First Start," was recently included in Fenway Fiction, an anthology of stories about the Boston Red Sox. He works in the University News Service of the University of Iowa. Venus Banging on the Windshield Iowa Writes Hey, you OK in there? I fought the day-old whiskey and scotch and cheap tequila to pry open my eyelids, gasped at the rancid sour smell of myself, squinted through the summer sun high in the sky to Venus banging on the windshield. Stunned, I mustered only a thick and bubbly-throated ungh and gawked at her startling beauty, hair that flowed like a golden river, eyes blue as icebergs that chilled my skin, a body I would have paid to see naked, right then and there. She needed only to stand in a giant open clam shell to complete the picture.

You've been in there all day, we're starting to get worried, she bent over so her shirt fell open to me and only me and when I peered down, making no attempt to hide where I was looking, I knew I would marry her, I knew I would never leave this town of Wherever I Am and marry her and she would become Mrs. Venus Robinson, and I would get a job at a hardware store, the one right across the street with the hand-lettered help wanted sign in the window, and work my way up to manager, maybe some day buy the place when the owner retires to Tucson, and we would have two children, Romulus and Roy, and become scions of this town of Wherever I Am, known by everyone, friends to all, benefactors, civic do-gooders. We will sing songs at Rotary, slice frozen cod at the Lion's fish fry, lead the Pledge at PTA meetings and hack away at the Chamber of Commerce golf tournament, and at night we will retire to our three-bedroom ranch in the nice subdivision on the edge of town and put our kids to bed after a story and count our blessings and then make love, wild animal love, sweaty and intense, loud and passionate, the kind that brings you closer to God, the kind that solves all the riddles of the universe and makes sense of the pain of it all so broken hearts can be endured and dashed lives put back together.

So where you from, anyways, she pushed her collar up to close the gap and I looked up to her face, soft as a pillow, warm as the midday sun, eyes bright as jade and teeth white as stars, and I said would you marry me. She laughed like it was the silliest thing she'd ever heard, a sharp you-can't-be-serious laugh, just like I'd heard the day before, on bent knee, a diamond that cost me two month's salary (just like the ads said it should), a laugh that revealed to me the profound understanding that my destiny was to spend the rest of the day in a bar and drive all night to Wherever I Am to marry Venus banging on my windshield.

Take it easy and I hope you get home all right, she laughed and walked away, her jeans a half-size too small for her sparrow body, but I knew we would be married, I knew it was only a matter of time. 2006-04-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=400 Chris Kilgore Chris Kilgore is an Iowa writer. He was born in Dubuque but has lived in Iowa City since 1997 (with a 10-month hiatus in Missoula, MT). He has a few stories posted on online journals, one of them published in an e-zine called Johnny America. Johnny America http://www.johnnyamerica.net/ How Man Came to Know That the Merilles Fish Was Poisonous and Inedible Iowa Writes One morning in the summer of a year before years were counted two men with brown leathery skin waded out far into the cold waters that stretched away to Hedvana, the land of the dead and unborn spirits. Armed with long spears poised high above their heads they scoured the glassy waters for food. The one called Bu tè flung his spear at a blue fish with yellow spots, impaling it. Bu tè retrieved his spear, raised it and examined the bright blue and yellow creature on the end of it. This was a fish that no man had ever seen before and Bu tè's heart became full, he rushed back to the beach at once, splashing and flailing. The other, called Bu yà, noticed this unusual behavior by his friend and so came ashore to see what the matter was. Bu tè had already gutted and splayed the fish, and was now making an obeisance over it. Bu yà beheld the fish before Bu tè and was awestruck by its brightness. He took his seat next to Bu tè and also began making an obeisance. Bu tè looked at his friend and made a grave expression. He then made guttural noises in his throat. What Bu tè said to Bu yà was: "You can't have any."

"What do you mean," asked Bu yĂ , not a little offended. "There is enough for both of us. We are great friends you and I. We share everything."

"I'm sorry, Bu yà, but this fish I cannot share with you because it is a gift from Hevis, the lady of Hedvana and it was sent to me. If you were meant to have some, Hevis would have sent you your own Merilles fish." At this Bu yà became suspicious, wondering how Bu tè knew that the name of this fish was Merilles, which in their guttural tongue meant 'magic fish for a great warrior.'

Bu tè began to devour the Merilles fish while Bu yà watched jealously. When Bu tè had gorged himself he lay back on the sand, his lips shiny from the tetrodoxin-containing oil of the Merilles, secreted in the ovaries, eggs, blood, liver, intestines, and, to a lesser extent, skin. Bu tè began to moan and mumble in ways Bu yà did not understand. Bu yà jumped to his feet believing that Bu tè was having a divine vision.

"What do you see!?" Bu yà hollered. Bu tè looked up at Bu yà with blood-red eyes that then rolled back into his head as he vomited and soiled himself many many times. When there was nothing left inside his stomach he was left heaving and convulsing on the sand. For about twenty minutes Bu yà sat next to him and watched intently as the tremblings of his friend's body and the rise and fall of the chest grew less and less until at last Bu tè became still. Bu yà, upon examining the body, found his friend to be without spirit.

"Truly," Bu yà thought, "this was a fish sent by Hevis to bring Bu tè back to Hedvana. Indeed, Bu tè must have been the greatest warrior in the life of the land."

Bu yĂ  gave a great tribute to the body of Bu tè, he built an altar and a pyre on the beach and bid him good speed on his journey to Hedvana and then returned alone to his village. Bu yĂ  related with great ceremony the story of Bu tè and the Merilles fish. His story became known to all people for many miles around who, from then on, always did two things: they exalted the memory of the great warrior Bu tè and were wary of the Merilles fish and knew not to eat of it, lest they should be carried away to Hedvana. 2006-04-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=402 Aliona Hairetdinova Aliona Hairetdinova, originally from the Republic of Moldova, is a sophomore at Drake University majoring in international business, finance, and English. "I write both prose and poetry in my spare time—usually both are in the abstract or lyrical form," she says. The Corporate Iowa Writes She chaotically pulls out metallic sounds of a packaged wooden trapezoid through a round plastic hole. Maybe ten, she stands alone. Blue cashiers rush boxed Pepsi cans and White Stag socks across the laser-jolting X. It beeps in recognition of each set of barcode lines. Barcodes on childhood pinks. Rainbow clouds. Even ponies and butterflies are laser-ed in. She checks her left hand. Bites the pinkie nail. Pulls on the strings behind the plastic. Scratches her nose. Everything in her life is barcoded. She has no control over the numbers, as long as spiders crawl on the bathroom walls and the ladybugs slip through windowsill cracks. She could crawl and slip, if she wanted. If only barcodes wouldn't sting her under the sheets. Oh, she just ate an oatmeal cookie! Lights would turn up on the road and she wouldn't pay attention because she plucks metal out of plastic and polished wood.

She will ring a terribly unkempt turnpike somewhere in Tennessee or Colorado and would never reach the bell. Or the phone for that matter. Or any other sort of communicable disease. She washes her hands before meals with soap and water and brushes her teeth at night to avoid gingivitis in ten years. It is the Pepsi that causes cavities—she knows, but she hates going to the dentist. That swooshy-wheezy thing hurts her teeth in the bright light. Metal on human bone. Like raw steel, or oxidized hemoglobin—all metal in a plastic bag, so who gives a damn.

She has to eat broccoli and spinach because they say so. When she grows older, she'll indulge herself in overcooked carcinogens from Teflon pans and bright yellow boxes of Arm & Hammer baking soda. Clean like a squid, she'll be another ringing barcode. Singing in a digital downpour. Lost souls, found bodies, and deep black eyes in orange veils with golden bracelets from the East. They used to call it the Orient and shun the name now—orient yourself within pi and pick the right line of spices. And some religious Confucianism. Somewhere in Shambala or Jerusalem, squared away, she'd divide her awls into water and corn and build little people in shattering sand castles.

She might just stay at the strings behind the plastic cover. In the electric lights of the optical clinic. Searching the floor for the right speck. It would search for her too and she'd be lost in tall dry grass, hugging her knees, hoping, counting bugs in the air. Twenty or thirty. Who would pay for them all? The ice cream is running all over and she can't help the heat. She could run away to the mounds and play in the dirt. There are rocks there, after all.

She knows how to plant beans. It doesn't take much—grandpa's earth grows eternally with plenty of water. It's not your Chia Pet. It needs care. She grew into it and turned around to find her sneakers hanging from the door handle. Striped. Like endless barcodes. The calendar tells her about her own—own—beans. The date. Time. Place. It is all a set of empirical calculations. In moon years. She learns about them in school, wearing her sneakers, wet from the water in the garden. Forest, tall dry grass. Muddy shoelaces and a lonely dandelion on the kitchen counter top. She already forgot about them. She already lost herself, as she has done before, to the Cartoon Network.

Tomorrow, she will plant the tree—she knows, and she won't even have to take out her shovel. It already grows outside her window, on the corner. Yes, she will plant it tomorrow. And set two corn people in its shade—it wouldn't be lonely that way. She will play for them the corporate barcode. String after string. Her ponytail tick-tocks, as she pulls on the metal under the plastic. She turns around. Quizzically flows beyond the blue cashiers and beeping lasers, still somewhere in the dry grass, with squeaky sneakers, still reaching for that bell at the turnpike. 2006-04-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=404 Robert Dana Robert Dana is Poet Laureate of Iowa. Taking Down the Christmas Lights Iowa Writes Our neighborhood's gone dark again,
all its Christmas lights down now.
We unclipped from our eaves, two
weeks ago in the unseasonable, late
December warm, thirty yards
of blue icicles, accordioning them
into fist-sized bundles, securing them
with green plastic ties, the kind
meant for staking up garden
plants in summer, then packing them
neatly in a box marked Outside.
Our P-E-A-C-E sign with its mad
racing combinations and slow fade-
out-fade-in hangs blankly green
once again for another whole year
with the tools in the garage: crowbar,
loppers and pruners, step ladder.

And tonight, the season at last grown
wintry, knuckles cracking with cold,
my wife coils up snaking extension
cords and dismantles our white,
skeletal, antlered reindeer, Horatio,
—he of the moving head—last
and best of show, folding him down
and packing his separate parts
into his proper carton for storage
in the basement, along with boxes
of bulbs, strings of lights, tree
ornaments, some with family histories.
And the two small, robin sized,
feathered birds, one red, one white,
that top our tree as shining spikes
and stars and archangels do others'—
the one descending, the other rising. 2006-04-30 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=407 Kim Bridgford Kim Bridgford is a professor of English at Fairfield University, where she edits Dogwood and Mezzo Cammin. Her third book of poetry, In the Extreme: Sonnets About World Records, recently won the Donald Justice Poetry Award and will be published by the West Chester University Poetry Center in spring 2007. The Most Ferocious Freshwater Fish Iowa Writes The piranhas like their appetizers plain—
A scent of blood, a frantic human splash.
A school of fish will gravitate to pain
And turn the naked body into hash.

They race for food, and gobble up their meals:
The make a dietitian shake her head.
Of course, one is distracted by the squeals
When making a nutrition pyramid.

They pick bones clean, with single minded ease;
And in this sense they are easy to please.
No fancy food, just flesh and flowing blood:
And these ferocious fish will call it good.
Like diners who've survived the Great Depression,
The piranhas eat with little hesitation. 2006-05-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=408 Jean Marie Hall Jean Marie Hall is a feature story writer and columnist for the Clayton County Register in Elkader, Iowa. Her column is entitled "Flora, Fauna and Folks." She has worked for this weekly newspaper for nearly twenty years. Life as a Creek Iowa Writes I am water and moss and sand and rock and mud. Water primarily, rock always, moss in late summer, mud along my banks, and sand when floods roll it down my path.

I don't know how old I am. I don't remember how or when a gush of water, rockslide or just plain erosion caused me to break away from my mother, the Turkey River, and find my own path in life. At first I wandered wide and shallow trying to decide where I wanted to go. But by and by, the soil under me washed away and banks began to form at my side and my fate for centuries was decided.

Animals love me and depend on me. Deer and turkey come to me for drinks. Birds come to drink too and they eat the bugs above me and the seeds on the weeds that grow on my banks. They decorate me with bright colors. Raccoons live close by and use my water to wash their food, persnickety as they are about that kind of thing. I used to have muskrats that would do their water ballet in my deeper parts and live in my banks. I haven’t seen them here lately. There have been possums and other animals, even an occasional nasty-looking snapping turtle.

If the water is just right in the spring, the fish called red horse swim down me. I have pools filled with minnows.

A hundred years or more ago, Indians crossed me or pitched their tepees beside me. Indian women carried my water to their cook fires and washed their clothes here in my water and on my rocks. Indian children played with twigs for arrows and sticks for ponies along my banks. They swam in me when they were hot. When they were teenagers, they flirted and courted beside me.

Later people built a wonderful bridge across me that took them in their vehicles down a road across the country. Under the bridge, I grew very deep and people came to swim in those depths and dived off that bridge.

Now I am old and lazy and just roll slowly along my path. For the most part, I am gentle although when winter snows melt, it sometimes causes me to become angry. One time when the big waters came I went a long way out of my path and caused a lot of damage to my banks and nearby trees. Giant boulders crashed down through my water. I left some of the trees bare-rooted and they will die. For that I am sorry, but I couldn't stop the big water.

One year I lost all of my water. It was called a drought, but when the rains came, I got well again.

The bridge is old and rickety and the people do not use their vehicles on it anymore. Many of the rocks that help hold it up have washed away. But sometimes the people walk across it or sit on it and just watch me. I think it brings them peace. Sometimes they even have picnics on it.

It's quiet for the most part but sometimes those same people bring children in the summer to paddle around in me. Those children don't mind getting moss between their toes. Sometimes the children come in the winter to walk timidly on my ice. I love to hear their laughs and squeals. It makes me feel young again.

Some people love my rocky bottom because I have fossils that tell of a time long, long ago, much longer than I can remember. They make me feel that my story is important and that I should keep rolling along this old path for many more centuries. 2006-05-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=411 John L. Kies John Kies, his wife of fifteen years, Emerita, and their two children, Clarice and Luke, live in rural Jackson County. The Curator Iowa Writes It was a graveyard of sorts, a place where worn-out machinery rusted quietly under the summer sun. My grandfather picked his way, stopping occasionally to point at an ancient haymaker or a broken harvester. I was not listening. I resented watching grandpa. There were many places a boy my age wanted to be on a summer day, that day I remember.

Star Wars was a smash hit and every radio I passed taunted me with the theme song. I chafed under daily farm chores and the injustice of being too young to possess a driver's license. My older brothers would not allow their younger brother along on their evening escapes from the farm. I sat in those evenings, after milking and chores, and I dreamed of attending a fantastic movie event.

My salvation came on a stifling summer morning, while the sun beat on rows of corn. The animals lay sheltered in the shade of oaks and maples; and by midmorning I lay sheltered in the basement of the farmhouse. I left the coolness of the stone foundation to take a call from my brother's girlfriend. She invited me to the movie theater and I accepted immediately. It did not matter that she was only ingratiating herself with the family—I was going to see the movie!

The old man changed all of that, the old man who came home from the hospital. He needed "watching." The movie needed watching! Not this feeble stranger.

He prattled and moved stiffly through the machinery. Tall thistles did not impede him, nor did the honeybees that erupted from flowers. I hoped the old man would get stung. I was sure several thistles stuck him.

I approached him, picking my way past the weeds. He was standing next to an ancient machine once pulled by horse and harness. He was explaining how the complex contraption worked, how he had worked long hours in the field with it. What more he said was wasted breath.

I found an old wagon seat and climbed upon it, pretending I was piloting an interstellar craft. As my grandfather droned in my ear, I saved the galaxy, beating back tyrannical forces and rescuing captive women. He called for me and I motioned for him to wait—one second more and I would have the enemy!

I found him among the weeds and tall grass. He was tired and had lain down for a nap. I knelt to help bring him to his feet. Steely fingers dug into my shoulder and I cried out in pain.

"Did you hear me, boy? Did you hear what I told you about the old days?"

I told my mother he had died at once, but in fact he lived almost the entire time I carried him back to the house. He asked several times, as I carried him, whether I had heard him. I lied and his eyes told me he knew.

I went back a week later, to the spot where my grandfather stood among the thistles and honeybees. Here was an old plow, there an iron-wheeled manure spreader. There was nothing of any interest there, nothing exciting. I sat on the wagon seat nearly the entire day.

That machinery is still standing out in that field, still rusting, safe from the covetous eyes of scrap dealers—I have seen to it. 2006-05-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=413 Nicole Rae Hancock Nicole Rae Hancock is 14 years old. She lives in Ames, Iowa, and goes to Ames Middle School, where English is her favorite subject. "I started writing when I was in sixth grade and haven't stopped since," she says. Drowning Iowa Writes No windows or doors. The room begins to fill with water and you're afraid of drowning. Then the walls begin to move in and there's nowhere to go. You see a dark hole in the bottommost corner. "May I only reach it in time." You suck in a deep breath and plunge down hard. Fighting the water rising. Swimming far below to learn you have not moved at all. Air is slipping from your lungs while you're stuck in a whirl. "Am I upside down and dying or simply asleep?" Your body becomes weightless, slipping so deep. You open your eyes to see the hole one last time, right in front or you. 2006-05-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=415 Christine Dale Christine Dale is a nontraditional student currently pursuing her B.A. in English, with a minor in Creative Writing, at the University of Northern Iowa. For the last year she has been working at the North American Review. One of her poems, also about Iowa life, won third place, college division, in Lyrical Iowa 2005. Claustrophobia
after Annie Dillard Iowa Writes Those who say Iowa is flat have never really looked around. Say rather that Iowa is not flat, but wide open. Try standing outside alongside a country road an hour or so after sunset. There are no orange sodium street lights to protect you from the night sky that stretches from east to west, north to south. There are no trees whose leaves and branches hide parts of the sky like fingers over your eyes during the shower scene of Psycho. There is only you and the unnerving whisper of the wind through the corn. Add to that the ghostly green of the northern lights, shifting silently in the sky above you. Or perhaps meteors shoot across the night in bright orange streaks at the rate of one hundred per hour. Maybe a total lunar eclipse is turning the full moon an unearthly shade similar to that of dried blood. Truly awesome sights, in every primitive sense of the word.

Is that why you joke about Iowa's flatness? Is it that you are afraid to stand in the open spaces under the sky? Most city dwellers have forgotten the night sky. In the light-polluted cities, there is no longer a need to tell either the season or the direction by the stars. No need to know that Orion rises in the winter or that the Big Dipper is in the northern part of the sky. You have clocks and day-planners to do that for you.

Do you even remember what the Big Dipper looks like? Can you find the North Star? Don't you feel disconnected? Come with me out into the openness that defines Iowa's night. We'll leave the tree-crowded city streets behind; leave the overbearing protection of the orange sodium lights. I'll hold your hand, if you like, to help you shake loose the agoraphobia that city life has burdened you with. It is long past time you learned to see the sky again. 2006-05-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=416 James C. Perley James C. Perley was born in Iowa and lives with his wife on their farm in Little Sioux. After serving in the Air Force, he earned an MA from the University of Iowa. "We raised two children. My wife teaches school. And I chase storms," he says. Homecoming Iowa Writes I was coming home. It was 1970, and the United States was in turmoil over the long Southeast Asian war. Some anti-war protesters vented their frustration on returning soldiers like me. Jeers and tomatoes greeted troops. I had been gone for two years and did not realize how much the country—and I—had changed. It was too much to absorb. All I wanted was to once again set foot on Iowa soil.

Earlier that day, I had been on a small Air Force base as medics loaded a bleeding woman onto a helicopter. Hours later, I was on a plane bound for Iowa. So much had happened it was difficult to distinguish dream from reality. Civilian life was minutes away, but my mind remained on my old base.

Then I saw her. She was a young flight attendant, only six months on the job. Her sparkling eyes and ready smile invited conversation. We soon learned her uncle worked where my wife and I bought our wedding rings. We compared landmarks until we realized we knew people in common.

The flight attendant returned to chat during free moments, and during her break, she took me to first class. We talked, and then we talked some more.

I relived my adventures, and she told me of the places she had visited. My spirit brightened as the night wore on. It was as though we were the only two people on the plane. Neither realized how far our voices carried.

Finally, it was time to leave, and my new friend returned to her post. After we landed, I stood to leave. As the flight attendant gave me a Disneyland balloon and wished me luck, someone behind me began to clap. Then another and another did, until all of the passengers gave me a standing ovation.

I didn't realize that given the national mood, my experience was close to unique. As I basked in the good feelings, I silently thanked the woman whose conversation made it happen.

Ten years passed. I thought of the woman and what the evening meant to me. I wanted to thank her and know if she was enjoying a happy life. Several halfhearted attempts failed. I didn't even know her name.

Two years ago, I accidentally found one of her high school classmates. She was certain my description matched the girl she knew in school, a girl who had become a flight attendant to see the world. Were they still in touch? I could thank her at last.

I can still see her sitting in the seat ahead that night. Her infectious smile shows her teeth well, and her eyes sparkle like diamonds. She loves her job. It takes her to interesting places and she enjoys meeting people. The woman tells me, "Oh, you should see..." this place or that, and I promise to try. We laugh at a bad joke.

I want to break through the years and thank her, to ask about her life, but I can't. She died of cancer over twenty-five years ago. I was too late. 2006-05-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=419 Lidija Dimkovska Lidija Dimkovska participated in the 2005 International Writing Program residency at the University of Iowa. Born in 1971 in Skopje, she has lived in Bucharest, where she attained a doctoral degree in Romanian literature, and now lives and works in Ljubljana, Slovenia. "Nail Clippers" is from her first collection in English, Do Not Awaken Them With Hammers, which was published in 2006 by Ugly Duckling Presse. Nail Clippers Iowa Writes Since I took their nail clippers abroad with me by mistake,
my family's nails have been growing out of control and unevenly,
their toes and fingers are lengthening rampantly
and breaking out through their shoes and handshakes with strangers,
and the horrified neighbors no longer try to eavesdrop.
I call them from far away wishing, between two surges of shouting,
to mollify them, singing them popular newly-written folk songs,
begging their forgiveness with the great thoughts of small nations.
So what are long nails compared with my thirst for the truth,
don't you see you're becoming immortal already?
But you take it so hard.
The nail clippers gape at me from the bedside table,
just as unhappy with the change of environment.
This is madness, I scream, I'll mail them to you,
but then they all shriek on this and that end of the line:
"No way! Customs confiscates nail clippers!"
When crossing the border, I hid them in my right sneaker.
My family threatened to cut their nails with the kitchen scissors.
No matter what, they weigh on my conscience like a plaster collar.
All night I dream of them with bleeding fingers and fainting.
The next morning I woke up with hemorrhoids,
and desperation plugged my spirit.
Claustrophobia is more powerful between a nail clipper's blades
than among people who have forgotten God.
The rainbow colored peacock on the clippers
murmured in a human voice:
"Life is the choice of nails, hair and skin,
but manicuring, that's the choice of divinity.
You've been biting your nails all your life,
but brought me here just to spite me. Get me back.
I don't care how, you godless no-nail, or get your family here
to trim their nails like human beings." And come they did,
and never even looked at me, but settled cozily on the bed
and trimmed and manicured their nails with the clippers,
throwing the parings on the floor and smiling contentedly at the peacock:
"A little while, and we'll be going home."


translated by
Ljubica Arsovska and Peggy Reid 2006-05-13 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=420 Sarah Prineas In addition to working at the University of Iowa's Honors Program, Sarah Prineas is a writer whose stories have appeared in Realms of Fantasy, Paradox, and Cicada, and in the Hugo-nominated online magazine Strange Horizons. Three of her stories have been honorably mentioned in The Year's Best Fantasy and Horror edited by Ellen Datlow, Kelly Link, and Gavin Grant. The Dragons of Fair D'Ellene Iowa Writes The cliffs of Fair D'Ellene blush pink in the evening, just as they did when the dragons dropped from them like falling stars, flaming in the last darts of light from the setting sun, falling until the wind was caught within the great sails of their wings, and up they soared over the sea, the last of the sunset gilding their bellies.

Too heavy to launch themselves from the ground, they had to live on the cliffs, you see. They had to fall before they could fly.

When I was young, my mother took me. We borrowed a dory and sailed around the headland. My mother's strong hand guided mine on the tiller; the wind made the boat buck like a pony and I licked spindrift from my lips. In the water below the cliffs, we turned the boat into the wind, dropped the sail, and waited while the sun rolled down towards the horizon. When the rim of the sea took its first nibble of the sun, the dragons began. Only a few at first, then scores, falling and flying, until they filled the sky like—like nothing else at all. You had to have seen to understand what they were, and now they have gone and you can see them no longer.

When they finished, when the sun was gone, we sailed for home, my mother and me. We rowed when the wind died. The sea cradled our boat, humpbacked waves rolling around us. Clusters of stars gathered in the sky, flocks of glittering birds that guided our way home.

My mother is gone now, as the dragons are.

Atop the cliffs now stands a battlement. Stark, gray, slotted with cannons and dotted with squat towers. Soldiers bearing arms pace the wall, their bleak eyes turned outward, seeking enemies.

We are safer, now. But the dragons have gone from the cliffs of Fair D'Ellene. 2006-05-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=422 Floyd Sandford Floyd Sandford is a Coe College Professor emeritus of Biology. A former Peace Corps volunteer in Africa, he does marine biology research in the Caribbean, enjoys world travel and long-distance hiking, and works to encourage habitat preservation and increased biodiversity for wildlife and other entities with no voice on an acreage in Northeast Iowa. Like Two Old Trees Iowa Writes There they go, arm in arm, my two companions Jiri and Marie,
at night along the unlighted street covered with leaves wet from the snow
Life partners for over half a century.

Jiri's steps flag and falter. "A circulation problem in my legs," he says.
And yesterday at tea I was surprised to see the Marie I've known for years
      suddenly disappear behind a mask, stolen away by some obscuring
      neural veil

"Alzheimer's," says Jiri.

But here they are, lurching and laughing, like two children at a game.

I look at my friends holding on to one another as they weave and falter,
      and think of two trees in the woods.
Each bent and leaning against the other, with roots partly exposed,
      less strong and secure but still upright, still putting forth leaves
      and embracing the sun.

Here they go, my two old friends Jiri and Marie, linked arm in arm,
      like two old trees, weaving their unsteady and uncertain course
      on rough cobblestones and wet leaves.
Heading home up the narrow darkness of Glinkova Street
      on this cold, moonless
November evening in Praha. 2006-05-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=424 Robert Berner Born in Council Bluffs in 1940, Robert Berner was a student in the Poetry Workshop in the 60s, working with Don Justice, Marvin Bell and George Starbuck. He currently lives in New Haven with Cecelia, his wife of 40 years, and publishes poems occasionally in literary magazines. The New High-Tech Telephone Number of the Muse
(With Thanks to Donald Justice) Iowa Writes It's unlisted now, but years ago
you could find it, even on the wall
of the men's room of a certain tavern
in Iowa City: "For a good rhyme
call 1-800-843-
6873." Dial it
today, you'll get a standard "The number
you have reached is not in service."

I tried to call her on my wife's cell,
but, like a maiden in a tower, she couldn't
hear me, and I took a roaming charge.

Used to be, you could get her anytime,
if she was in, but she'd never call back
if I left a message on her machine.
And when I tried again, last night,
her end-carrier cut right in:
"This number is on the no-call list." 2006-05-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=427 Margaret Horn Margaret Horn works at the Center for Credit Programs at the University of Iowa and helps students register for Guided Independent Study, Saturday & Evening, and Distance Education courses. She has written a novel on domestic violence and lives in Iowa City. Cat and Mouse Game Iowa Writes the cat snarls

    flexes its claws

    strikes out at the mouse

        the unsuspecting mouse

    just sits there

    unprotected

        the swift feline

    pounces and

    easily snares

    the mouse in its paws

        the mouse is confused

    it doesn't know what hit it

        the cat plays with the mouse

    tossing it up in the air

          this way

            that way

        the mouse is diverted

    by the crafty cat

    into thinking something

        it did

    caused the situation

        the cat laughs to himself

        the silly mouse

    he says scornfully

    never catches on to my game 2006-05-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=428 Courtney Staudacher Courtney Staudacher is in the eighth grade in Harding Middle School. She wrote her poem last year. Living Withing A Circle Iowa Writes Not knowing what lies beyond
No courage to go and see
Nothing but space ahead
Space that will always be there

No beginning to start at
No end to be found
Nothing to look back on
No memories to cherish

Your mind is wiped blank
There is nothing to know
Each step only brings you back
Nothing to choose from

As sameness surrounds you
And no way to escape
What is holding you back
Your life that goes in a circle 2006-05-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=430 Ezzat Goushegir Ezzat Goushegir, a playwright, author and film critic, received her M.F.A from the Theatre Department of the University of Iowa. In 1990 she was a Fellow in the UI's International Writing Program. Currently she teaches at DePaul University. "Gang Lu Bought Two Guns," which Ms. Goushegir began writing in 1992, is based on the 1991 shootings of six UI faculty and staff members by a former UI graduate student. Gang Lu Bought Two Guns Iowa Writes Scene 3
WHO AM I?
(Music is heard. Gang Lu unskillfully dances with one of the cardboard soldiers from up the stage. There is a row of Chinese soldiers down stage. He puts a blonde wig on the soldier's head.)

Gang Lu:
You like it ha? (pause) I like it too...Do you have a good time with me? (pause) Me too...(He touches her breasts) You have big ones!... Chinese women don't have big ones, but you...yeah...you do, you have big ones...

(Suddenly music stops. He stops dancing too.)

What's wrong with you? We both are having a good time...Don't we? (pause) Don't be ridiculous!...Don't we have a good time? (pause) No?...(pause) Why?...Because I touched them?...your...What's wrong with that? All right...all right...all right...Don't leave me alone...please...don't...(pause) sit with me and have a beer...(pause) Have a beer with me!...Don't leave me alone...ok?

(He replaces the cardboard soldier down stage. Then brings a pitcher of beer and two glasses.)

Oh damn it! She left me!...O.K....Go away bitch...you stupid bitch!...(pause) No...it's not the way of my talking!

(He sits and drinks alone, talks to the audience.)

It's like a movie to me at least!...It didn't really happen to me...I'm trying to imagine things in my mind...Because I'm trying to make another character of myself. If you want to be accepted in a new society, you have to be a part of them.

I can't be relaxed...I don't know how to act...Perhaps I'm so relaxed...I don't know...I just don't know...I don't know what I'm saying! But I know that those who lie, make me vomit...

I left my Chinese friends, because they've lost their pride...They're licking between the Americans' toes! (pause)

I can't act like Americans...It's so far away from me...far away from me!!...

I feel I'm not a MAN anymore...I'm a WOMAN...The way Americans talk to me...they talk to me like I'm stupid...They smile at you like this...

(He makes an artificial smile.)

And talk behind you like this...

(He makes a face.)

He is so boring! So polite...His English is awful...His accent...oh...and they laugh!...He so polite, it bores me!...He is nice...but you know...He is CHINESE!...You know...

(He drinks beer.)

I chose loneliness because people make me depressed...

(He stands up.)

What's my real character?

(He looks at the mirror.)

Who am I? LU GANG, born in 1963 in Beijing, China...No...I'm not LU GANG. I dont know myself anymore!

(Light shows two rows of cardboard soldiers down stage and up stage.)

I'm between these...I'm not Chinese and I'm not American...Who am I? What am I doing here? Where is my place? China?

(The voice of protesters are heard: "WE LOVE RICE, BUT WE LOVE DEMOCRACY MORE." As the voice grows, down stage we read on a screen: "JUNE 1989, TIANANMEN SQUARE." Then a slogan: "WE NO LONGER TRUST DIRTY PUBLIC SERVANTS, WE TRUST DEMOCRACY." The voice is gone.)

The end of the dictatorship of the proletarian...The dictatorship of the proletarian...Proletariat!...My parents! They are not able to dictate any thing! They are still living with a dream of chairman Mao...They are just an ignorant couple who some day used to believe in communist movement. Time has never changed from 1948...Even though Deng Xiaoping tried to make a reform. (As Deng Xiaoping): "It doesn't matter a cat is black or white as long as it catches mice." But still our tables are empty and the world goes forward very fast...and I'm a bullet of energy who is leaping in this corner of the world...and my voice has no sound for the deaf...and my hand...

(He moves his hand on the air.)

No sound...because it's just one.

(He claps and makes a melody with two hands.)

Two hands together make a sound.

(A shot is heard from distance, the other shot closer...Repetition of several shots. Then the sound of marching soldiers and tanks and screaming and shooting, after a moment, silence.)

The goddess of democracy collapsed. The huge statue of the goddess, because you...you...made it of paper not of the stone!

Where am I? Wait a minute...
Where am I?
Not in the U.S. Not in China!
Where do I belong to?
Nowhere!...
Hanging between the sky and the ground! 2006-05-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=432 Mike Chasar Mike Chasar lives in Iowa City where he is a frequent contributor to "Poetic License," a Monday feature of the Iowa City Press-Citizen's op-ed page. More of his writing is available online at Poetry, Word for/Word, The Cortland Review, and The Iowa Review Web. Song for the Manatee Iowa Writes Humble, homely, whisker-snouted
recluse—you
were no sultry mermaid and I,
alone in that rented canoe,

was no scurvy Blackbeard
keeping a lookout for you.
Aye! You were a silent passerby,
some strange sea-shape I

did not see swim so much as glide,
nor glide so much as fly.
And yet, O blubber!
What was there to identify?

You were a thought, an endangered
nautical motion
crossing that bare expanse
and headed, it seemed, for the ocean.

You were the legend that the snook
could never be—a silent arrival,
a postmodern sailor's
map to survival,

a Weeki Wachee woman
and reminder of land,
the desire of seeing a shoreline
and seashells, lines in the sand. 2006-05-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=433 Susan Glaspell Susan Glaspell (1882-1848) was born in Davenport, Iowa, graduated from Drake University, and worked as a journalist at the Des Moines Daily News before moving to Cape Cod, MA, where she wrote drama and fiction. The entire text of the 1916 play Trifles is here. http://www.vcu.edu/engweb/eng384/trifles.htm from the play Trifles Iowa Writes COUNTY ATTORNEY. Well, Mr. Hale, tell just what happened when you came here yesterday morning.

HALE. Harry and I had started to town with a load of potatoes. We came along the road from my place; and as I got here, I said, "I'm going to see if I can't get John Wright to go in with me on a party telephone." I spoke to Wright about it once before, and he put me off, saying folks talked too much anyway, and all he asked was peace and quiet—I guess you know about how much he talked himself; but I thought maybe if I went to the house and talked about it before his wife, though I said to Harry that I didn't know as what his wife wanted made much difference to John—

COUNTY ATTORNEY. Let's talk about that later, Mr. Hale. I do want to talk about that, but tell now just what happened when you got to the house.

HALE. I didn't hear or see anything; I knocked at the door, and still it was all quiet inside. I knew they must be up, it was past eight o'clock. So I knocked again, and I thought I heard somebody say, "Come in." I wasn't sure, I'm not sure yet, but I opened the door—this door (indicating the door by which the two women are still standing), and there in that rocker—(pointing to it) sat Mrs. Wright. (They all look at the rocker.)

COUNTY ATTORNEY. What—was she doing?

HALE. She was rockin' back and forth. She had her apron in her hand and was kind of—pleating it.

COUNTY ATTORNEY. And how did she—look?

HALE. Well, she looked queer.

COUNTY ATTORNEY. How do you mean—queer?

HALE. Well, as if she didn't know what she was going to do next. And kind of done up.

COUNTY ATTORNEY. How did she seem to feel about your coming?

HALE. Why, I don't think she minded—one way or other. She didn't pay much attention. I said, "How do, Mrs. Wright, it's cold, ain't it?" And she said, "Is it?"—and went on kind of pleating at her apron. Well, I was surprised; she didn't ask me to come up to the stove, or to set down, but just sat there, not even looking at me, so I said, "I want to see John." And then she—laughed. I guess you would call it a laugh. I thought of Harry and the team outside, so I said a little sharp: "Can't I see John?" "No," she says, kind o' dull like. "Ain't he home?" says I. "Yes," says she, "he's home." "Then why can't I see him?" I asked her, out of patience. "'Cause he's dead," says she. "Dead?" says I. She just nodded her head, not getting a bit excited, but rockin' back and forth. "Why—where is he?" says I, not knowing what to say. She just pointed upstairs—like that (himself pointing to the room above). I got up, with the idea of going up there. I walked from there to here—then I says, "Why, what did he die of?" "He died of a rope around his neck," says she, and just went on pleatin' at her apron. 2006-05-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=436 Hamlin Garland Hamlin Garland (1860-1940) was born in Wisconsin and grew up in homesteads in Winneshiek County and Mitchell County, Iowa. "Under the Lion's Paw" appeared in his short story collection Main-Travelled Roads (1891). Read the full story here. http://xroads.virginia.edu/~HYPER/HNS/Garland/paw.html from Under the Lion's Paw Iowa Writes When night began to fall, and the geese, flying low, began to alight invisibly in the near corn-field, Stephen Council was still at work "finishing a land." He rode on his sulky plough when going with the wind, but walked when facing it. Sitting bent and cold but cheery under his slouch hat, he talked encouragingly to his four-in-hand.

"Come round there, boys! Round agin! We got t' finish this land. Come in there, Dan! Stiddy, Kate, stiddy! None o' y'r tantrums, Kittie. It's purty tuff, but got a be did. Tchk! tchk! Step along, Pete! Don't let Kate git y'r single-tree on the wheel. Once more!"

They seemed to know what he meant, and that this was the last round, for they worked with greater vigor than before. "Once more, boys, an' then, sez I, oats an' a nice warm stall, an' sleep f'r all."

By the time the last furrow was turned on the land it was too dark to see the house, and the snow was changing to rain again. The tired and hungry man could see the light from the kitchen shining through the leafless hedge, and he lifted a great shout, "Supper f'r a half a dozen!"

It was nearly eight o'clock by the time he had finished his chores and started for supper. He was picking his way carefully through the mud, when the tall form of a man loomed up before him with a premonitory cough.

"Waddy ye want?" was the rather startled question of the farmer.

"Well, ye see," began the stranger, in a deprecating tone, "we'd like t' git in f'r the night. We've tried every house f'r the last two miles, but they hadn't any room f'r us. My wife's jest about sick, 'n' the children are cold and hungry—"

"Oh, y' want 'o stay all night, eh?"

"Yes, sir; it 'ud be a great accom—"

"Waal, I don't make it a practice t' turn anybuddy way hungry, not on sech nights as this. Drive right in. We ain't got much, but sech as it is—"

But the stranger had disappeared. And soon his steaming, weary team, with drooping heads and swinging single-trees, moved past the well to the block beside the path. Council stood at the side of the "schooner" and helped the children out two little half-sleeping children and then a small woman with a babe in her arms.

"There ye go!" he shouted jovially, to the children. "Now we're all right! Run right along to the house there, an' tell Mam' Council you wants sumpthin' t' eat. Right this way, Mis' keep right off t' the right there. I'll go an' git a lantern. Come," he said to the dazed and silent group at his side. 2006-06-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=439 Octave Thanet (Alice French) Alice French (1850-1934), whose pen name was Octave Thanet, was born in Massachusetts but lived in Davenport, Iowa, from the age of five until her death. She wrote seven novels and seventeen short-story collections. "The Face of Failure" is from Stories of a Western Town (1893). It can be read online here. http://www.gutenberg.org/etext/2949 from The Face of Failure Iowa Writes "Well, I know one thing, that Uncle ain't EVER going to make money. He—" The last word shrivelled on her lips, which puckered into a confused smile at the warning frown of her brother. The man that they were discussing had come round to them past the henhouse. How much had he overheard?

He didn't seem angry, anyhow. He called: "Well, Evy, ready?" and Eve was glad to run into the house for her hat without looking at him. It was a relief that she must sit on the back seat where she need not face Uncle Nelson. Tim sat in front; but Tim was so stupid he wouldn't mind.

Nor did he; it was Nelson Forrest that stole furtive glances at the lad's profile, the knitted brows, the freckled cheeks, the undecided nose, and firm mouth.

The boyish shoulders slouched forward at the same angle as that of the fifty-year-old shoulders beside him. Nelson, through long following of the plough, had lost the erect carriage painfully acquired in the army. He was a handsome man, whose fresh-colored skin gave him a perpetual appearance of having just washed his face. The features were long and delicate. The brown eyes had a liquid softness like the eyes of a woman. In general the countenance was alertly intelligent; he looked younger than his years; but this afternoon the lines about his mouth and in his brows warranted every gray hair of his pointed short beard. There was a reason. Nelson was having one of those searing flashes of insight that do come occasionally to the most blindly hopeful souls. Nelson had hoped all his life. He hoped for himself, he hoped for the whole human race. He served the abstraction that he called "PROgress" with unflinching and unquestioning loyalty. Every new scheme of increasing happiness by force found a helper, a fighter, and a giver in him; by turns he had been an Abolitionist, a Fourierist, a Socialist, a Greenbacker, a Farmers' Alliance man. Disappointment always was followed hard on its heels by a brand-new confidence. Progress ruled his farm as well as his politics; he bought the newest implements and subscribed trustfully to four agricultural papers; but being a born lover of the ground, a vein of saving doubt did assert itself sometimes in his work; and, on the whole, as a farmer he was successful. But his success never ventured outside his farm gates. At buying or selling, at a bargain in any form, the fourteen-year-old Tim was better than Nelson with his fifty years' experience of a wicked and bargaining world.

Was that any part of the reason, he wondered to-day, why at the end of thirty years of unflinching toil and honesty, he found himself with a vast budget of experience in the ruinous loaning of money, with a mortgage on the farm of a friend, and a mortgage on his own farm likely to be foreclosed?....

There was only one way. Should he make Richards suffer or suffer himself? Did a man have to grind other people or be ground himself? 2006-06-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=441 Bess Streeter Aldrich Bess Streeter Aldrich (1881-1954) was born in Cedar Falls, Iowa. She graduated from Iowa State Normal School (now the University of Northern Iowa) and moved to Nebraska where she raised a family and wrote fiction. Read the rest of her 1919 story "A Long-Distance Call from Jim" here. http://www.nagasaki-gaigo.ac.jp/ishikawa/amlit/a/aldrich20.htm from A Long-Distance Call From Jim Iowa Writes To Ella Nora Andrews, calm, unruffled, serenely humming a gay little tune, gathering her school things together—her "Teacher's Manual of Primary Methods," a box of water-colors, and a big bunch of scarlet-flamed sumac—came the sound of the telephone.

Ella Nora, in her crisp blue linen school suit, shifted her working paraphernalia and took down the receiver. Fate is a veritable chameleon for changing shape and color. This morning she had entered the fat, puffy person of asthmatic Mrs. Thomas Tuttle, and was saying:

"That you, Ella? Have you heard the news? Jim Sheldon is coming here the last of the week. He'll be here on Number Eight, Friday afternoon. And get ready now for the climax—he's bringing his bride. Wha' say? Yes, his wife. He telephoned Pa from Chicago—imagine anybody telephoning clear from Chicago, Ella! He's waited long enough to get married, I must say. He's thirty-six, if he's a day. I know, because my Eddie's just two months older. Well, we must do something for them, and we'll have to get busy right away. Wha' say? All right; I'll ask Addie Smith and Minnie Adams and Mis' Meeker—she's forever thinking of things to eat—" And on and on went the rasping, wheezing voice of Fate, while, through the window, Ella watched the red and yellow and orange zinnias in the back yard fade and run together into a smudge of prismatic coloring.

Ella hung up the receiver and leaned against the window. There was a pounding in her throat, and she couldn't seem to concentrate her thoughts. The zinnias had brightened somewhat, but were still dancing diabolically with the cosmos behind them. From the chaotic jumble of her mind the naked, leering truth picked itself out: It had happened at last—Jim was married. By which statement one gathers, and rightfully, that Ella had in some indefinable way been prepared for the news she had just heard.

In truth, Ella had been preparing for it for years. She was thirty-one now, and from her twentieth year she had been working consistently on an elaborate defense system that surrounded her heart.

Patiently she had dug the trench of an apparent and complete absorption in her school work. She had piled around it countless sand bags of mere-friendliness toward Jim, put up an intricate entanglement of the barb wire of her sharp wit, and over it all painted the deceiving screen of her evident joy-in-her-freedom. But down under all this complicated protective system was The-Thing-in-Her-Heart, palpitating, vital, strong, held a prisoner for years by the stern edict of her mind, doing penance for having been unwise enough to go wandering out into No Man's Land of Dreams. 2006-06-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=442 Vic Camillo Vic Camillo teaches at the University of Iowa. "A Letter from Barbara" first appeared in The Iowa Review 36.2 (Spring 2006). More of his writing can be found at his web site. Vic Camillo's website http://www.math.uiowa.edu/%7Ecamillo/ A Letter From Barbara Iowa Writes I asked you to tell me what I owe,
What you lost for my not being near you,
The fine I should pay for the shared air I stole,
The rent for the angry words I took for myself from us two.

You told me I will make right by being a distant good
For some people we do not know,
For children who are eaten by soldier machines,
For mothers tortured back to every yesterday.
I will pay you by listening to screams for words I took away,
I will apologize to the dying
For ignorant nights I spent walking by myself
Under the illusions of imaginary rainbows,
For the days when I was alone writing with my toes
In the sand at the edge of the sea of ourselves
That no human wind or weather can control. 2006-06-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=444 Dana Sonnenschein Dana Sonnenschein graduated from the University of Iowa in 1983 but still comes back regularly to visit family. Currently, she teaches at Southern Connecticut State University. She has published two chapbooks, Corvus and No Angels But These; a full-length collection, Natural Forms, is forthcoming from Word Press in 2006. Family Farm Iowa Writes Not even the corrugated fields,
the well water and Sunday dinner,
could prepare a green college girl
to be left alone to labor:

the closeness of furrow and farrow
when a great sow began to grunt
under heatlamps, to heave like lava,
dropping piglets till only the runt,

dark and reluctant, remained,
coiled beneath her tail. She rocked
the boards with her weight and began
sinking to sit. I panicked.

But slapping her bristled haunch
was like slapping a mountain;
I found myself bound to reach
beneath, feel for that pig, half-in,

half-out of a world with too much use
for him. But I wasn't thinking,
Pigs are smart. Common sense
wiped his fluttering nose clean

and chafed his skin: slippery life
will have warmth and light. And nothing
would have surprised that new midwife
more than the news: Pigs eat their kin,

though she saw blood marking the hand
she carefully wiped on her dress
and silos holding yellowed seasons
in spires of indelicate mesh. 2006-06-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=446 Dan Maloney Dan Maloney is the lead singer of the Iowa City indie/folk/pop band Death Ships, which will release a CD this year titled Seeds of Devastation. Death Ships http://www.deathships.com/ Great American Song Lyrics Iowa Writes Won't you come and sit with me awhile,
the wine's got me talking and I
can't think of anywhere I'd rather be.
I'll lend my ears you can tell me
about your day.
Watch your eyes flicker with excitement over life's
small victories.
Convincing me this is the great American ideology.
This is the great American ideology.
You gotta hold on to what you got.
Convincing me this is the great American ideology.
You can ride with me. But you can't get closer
than you are it's much too hard. 2006-06-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=447 Gail Ariel Brehio Gail Ariel Brehio is originally from Southern California. After years in Seattle, she and her husband chose Iowa to move to, after researching ideal places to raise a family. "Three things that are not so ideal: snow, ice, and tornados!" she says. Solitude and I Iowa Writes Nobody owns me.
No thing owns me.
But solitude and I
Are good friends.
We walk the streets,
Solitude and I,
Stare into windows,
Check out dumpsters.
Solitude says, "Eat to live,
Don't live to eat," as I
Stuff and swallow quickly
Stale bread and rancid potatoes.
Pleasure doesn't own me.
I take pleasure in that. 2006-06-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=449 Christopher Merrill Christopher Merrill directs the International Writing Program at the University of Iowa. "Logbook" first appeared in The Iowa Review 35/1 (Spring 2005). Logbook Iowa Writes A wooden sailboat riding low in the water, between the harbor and the barrier island given over to great blue herons and wild horses. Someone made off with the logbook, in which a history was recorded in the invisible ink of desire: the scandal surrounding its maiden voyage from London; the ports of call in which the fleeing family took refuge; their decision to dry-dock in Casablanca for the duration of the war they did not survive; the new owner's murky references; how he outfitted the boat to deliver armed insurgents to Albania; how it was stripped of the contraband he picked up off the coast of Peru; the foolishness of the authorities in St. Kit's who allowed him to escape; the changes in the weather on the night his boat capsized near Fiji and he disappeared; the discoveries of the marine biologist who sailed to Savannah, where the boat was torched by a slave trader's crazed descendant and then tugged north by a salvage company along the Intercoastal Waterway... The George III is peeling black paint from its bow to its stern and boards from all of its portholes. No one knows why it was named after the king. And who can explain why the tide is redder than the sun at daybreak? Sand drifts into the channel; the sprawl dredged from the point covers the marsh grass and dying trees in which the horses search for water. The sea is rising, rising. A heron glides over the oyster flats. The war will never end. 2006-06-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=452 Shon Wignall Shon Wignall is a twelve-year-old at Harding Junior High in Cedar Rapids. She is in seventh grade and is an honor student. She participates in extra-curricular activities at her school, likes to read, and also likes music. The Wind in My Hair Iowa Writes The wind in my hair, so smooth and calm, I put my fingers up with my palms. It feels like I just blow away, when everything just stays, stays put. Nothing more I can feel, only my feet on my aching heels. Looking up and thinking why, looking up and thinking, "Why is the sky so high?" Someone answers from behind, I turn around and there's no sign. Nothing, nada, no one there, so I just stood there and stared. Looking back at all my years, it's kind of weird; I don't have a memory of those fears. 2006-06-16 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=454 Mario Duarte Mario Duarte is an alumnus of the Iowa Writers' Workshop. He has published poems in The American Poetry Review, Carolina Quarterly, and Sycamore Review, among others. Mario is an Academic Advisor in the Academic Advising Center at the University of Iowa. Yes, We Were Always Poor Iowa Writes Like raindrops, like semen, the stars
began to drip into the wide girth
of the towering tree of the night
that echoed with cicada music.

Under a bridge, water flattened
like so many delicate wings
on my eyelids, until I jerked
at the distant ring of a shotgun.
Night, let the testimony begin.

Tree of tomorrow, I am ravenous,
afraid, waiting to be born anew.
Like my father's, the sand may whip
out of my throat, but I am not quiet.

Yes, we were always poor, although
we could not see it—ťthe tortillas
with salt and butter and coffee
were all that could see, until the screen
began to darken—I must close my eyes. 2006-06-19 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=457 Rejeanne Davis Ashley Hankins Rejeanne Davis Ashley Hankins moved to Solon, Iowa, from Ponte Vedra Beach, Florida, with her husband in 2005. She is an editor, writer, and communications consultant; she also enjoys painting, drawing, making bracelets, cooking, and gardening. from Gray Iowa Writes A small, frail boy with ashen skin sits on the floor of his father's house. He is dressed in handmade blue corduroy overalls with buttons that look like the face of a clock. He wears a small engineer's cap on his head, which makes him seem like a miniature train conductor. In front of him are three coloring books and a 64-crayon box of Crayolas with a built-in sharpener. He leans forward and picks one of the books.

Leafing slowly through the pages, he settles on a picture of a woman holding a kitten. It reminds him of his mother. She walks through the living room as he starts to color. He studies the dress she is wearing and decides to color his picture the same way. He picks up his green crayon and colors her skirt. He is careful to stay in the lines. He picks up his yellow crayon to color her blouse.

His mother walks through the room again on her way to the kitchen. He asks her what color her hair is. She tells him it is brown. He picks the gray crayon out of the box and carefully fills in the woman's hair. He uses the same crayon on the picture of the kitten. When he finishes his picture, he writes his name slowly at the top of the page and tears the picture out of his book and tapes it on the refrigerator. Then he puts his crayons back in the box and puts his books back in his room.

He takes out his Matchbox cars and very quietly drives them around on the squares and circles of his rug. When he gets tired, which he does very easily, he stretches out on the floor and falls asleep. His breath is labored, and the tips of his fingers are as blue as the veins visible through his delicate skin.

***

The day after his operation, I wake up early. It is still gray and quiet in the house. I am in my brother's bed. I look out his window and I can still see the moon—a light gray orb in a dark gray sky. I know my grandmother will be up even though she stayed up late last night talking to my parents as they waited in the hospital. I'm wearing pajamas with feet because the floors are still a little cold in the morning. It is the middle of March. I walk out toward the kitchen, following the smell of sausages cooking. As I pass by the couch in the living room, I see my mother lying out flat. I am surprised to see her. Her hands are covering her face and her body is shaking. I step very quietly toward her and touch the couch near her face. The red fabric is soaking wet. I pat my mother on the arm. She shudders and draws in a deep, strangled breath.

My grandmother hears her sob and peers in the room. She sees me there, wide-eyed and panicked. She crosses the room quickly and scoops me up and carries me into the kitchen. Her eyes are puffy and red. I put my thumb in my mouth and start twirling my hair. She puts me down and offers me a hot buttered biscuit. I can't eat. I point to my mom still sobbing on the couch. I don't know what to ask. My father comes into the kitchen and swings me up into his arms. He takes me for a walk outside, zipping me inside his leather jacket to keep me warm.

***

Thirty years later, my mother gives me a box of photographs and letters and drawings to sort through. The photos are mostly black and white—photos of my brothers and me by the swings in the back yard, photos of us dressed up like ghosts for Halloween, photos of us holding kittens and cats.

At the very bottom of the box, folded into a small square, is the faded page of a coloring book, with the picture of a gray-haired woman holding a gray-haired kitten. 2006-06-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=458 Kathryn Cushman Hall Kathryn Cushman Hall is a local writer and editor. She currently works at the University of Iowa. Sledding Hill Iowa Writes The gods want to help, really,
The white streaked with voices,
If only, if only, the ice celestial,
Ribbons for hair, laughter.

The woods are dark, the branches creak.
At night, it might be here
Where the gods assemble,
Count these footprints, pining for morality. 2006-06-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=460 Meridith Brand Meridith Brand lives and works in Iowa City. from The Twelve Dancing Princesses & Other Bedtime Tales Iowa Writes Prologue

Here are the red shoes that dance her to death.
This one bears fierce iron slippers like flames.
And the sea-sprung—well, she earns a step
of ten thousand knives that she can't ever blame.
Cut through the tongue. Peck out the eyes.
Spill from her lips the vilest vipers and toads.
Set her down in the desert till it changes her beauty.
Lock her up. Make her sleep. Change her name.

VII. Appetite

I crossed the line.
I realize now what I did
was unforgivable.
I understand
there must be some control
and that's why he came in
swinging the axhead.
That's why he's the hero.

But what about me
and the girl—that adorable
redhead? The minute I saw her
I envied her
song, her cap, her concern
for her grandmother.
She stirred up a hunger
I'd never known before.

It was crazy—they'll tell you
I left my right
mind. I followed along
on the trail, trying to win
even a smile. She'd have nothing
of me, I've been warned
about those such as you!
Such as me? My stomach
turned over. I went to extremes.

It's unfortunate he saw what he did
when he found us. On reflection,
I see that my instincts
were off. I'll admit
to that charge, but I'm still not
sure which of my appetites
brought the ax down:
displaying myself as a woman
or doing it for love
of a girl. 2006-06-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=462 Yiyun Li Yiyun Li grew up in Beijing and came to the United States in 1996. She earned MFA degrees in fiction and nonfiction writing at the University of Iowa and currently teaches at Mills College in Oakland, California. Her essay "The Ground Floor" was first published in The Iowa Review in Fall 2004. from The Ground Floor Iowa Writes They called me Carp at school because I had a big head. I was not the only child who had a big head, but I was the only one stuck with the name of the most stupid fish, the one that had landed on people's dinner plates more than any other fish I had known. Other children had other nicknames—Ping-Pong Ball, Eggplant, Light Bulb—all better than mine because they were not my nickname.

It was not any better at home. Sister Jin called me Piglet. Grandpa called me Little. Mom, when she was in a good mood, called me Bunny, Penguin, Duckling, any name of a harmless animal, but when her sunny mood turned overcast, as it often did without warning, I became Wolverine. Dad was the only one who used my real name, but he spoke the least in the family, so it did not help much.

A second floor auntie called me Rubber Doll, a name reminding me of the mud-covered rubber boots the grownups wore on rainy days. The upper level aunties all called me Little Fat Jin, meaning I was the fat little sister of Jin. Uncles in the building usually responded only with a nod when I greeted them, and when they needed to say a word to me, they called me Li's Daughter.

I was seven going on eight, anxiously waiting for the day I would be the respectable age of ten, when my real name would take a firmer stand.

"Ten years old and you are done with your human years," Grandpa warned me. This was the ancient tale he had told me: at the beginning of the world, Man was assigned a life span of ten years. As he grew older and smarter, Man, naturally, was not satisfied with the short ten years he got. He went to God and asked for more years, but God refused, saying the request would throw off the balance of the world. Man cried and cried, and his tears moved a hundred animals. One by one they entered the palace of God, and asked to give up a year of their own lives for Man. God assented, and Man got another hundred years. "That's why you never hear of a person older than a hundred and ten," Grandpa said. "And a man is a pure human being only in the first ten years. Ten years old and you start to live your animal years." 2006-06-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=465 Steven Patterson Steven Patterson grew up on the California coast and lived for many years in the high desert of Idaho. He graduated from the Iowa Writers' Workshop, where he was a Teaching-Writing Fellow, and has since returned there as a visiting professor. He now lives with his wife in Iowa City, where the mountains are just memories. "Aground and Aloft" was first published in The Iowa Review's Spring 2004 issue. Read the rest of the story here. http://www.uiowa.edu/~iareview/mainpages/patterson.html from Aground and Aloft Iowa Writes I fly in deep river canyons and come to rest where flat land is scarce. My day is a hopscotch route, up and down, up and down. For the dwellers of remote outposts I am a taxi service, mail carrier and delivery van. On occasion I am called on to be an ambulance driver, an emergency outlet arcing over the granite peaks. Once I have been a hearse of last resort, bearing out the body of a drowned river runner as cargo in the tail, cinched up tight in his sleeping bag. But these are details that don't change my waking day. I attend to the variables around me: the steep slopes, the jutting trees, updrafts and crosswinds and density altitude. My importance doesn't lie in what I carry or where I go. I am responsible for my skill with the yoke, a knowledge of flaps and throttle, an eye for the condition of the air. It is my task to settle the machine to the earth in impossible places, like alighting at the bottom of a soup bowl.

I make runs out of Cascade, where I work for Chimp Atherton. His name is on the hangar and the planes. My husband, Ron, and I hired on eighteen years ago, when it was just the three of us. Today there are four pilots, Chimp not included, as well as two mechanics and three women who run the office and take radio calls. Now, in the summer, is our busiest season. Every pilot and every plane will work steady through until the aspen groves turn yellow and quaky. Then we will bolt skis to a couple of the Cessnas and deliver groceries and mail to some of the ranches that get snowed-in. But the work is slower in winter. Two of the summer pilots head down to Arizona for the winter and run a flight school, and then appear again when the rivers here are high with snowmelt.

I prefer the taxi and supply flights, ferrying cargo around, traveling routes I can see in my sleep. Chimp likes some of the fancy flying, chartering for the Forest Service Aerial Fire Attack when the ridges start to burn. Powell, a moustache with a man attached, likes to get up there and tool around for hours, so he volunteers for the Fish and Wildlife trips to monitor gray wolves they have marked with radio collars. I'm not much for the adventure these days, though. When I go up I want to know exactly when I'm coming down again. I want to picture the landing before I ever take off. 2006-06-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=467 Charlotte Wright Charlotte Wright is the managing editor of the University of Iowa Press. She has published poetry, stories, essays, reviews, and literary criticism. Washing the Ambassador Iowa Writes She had never washed a car before in her life. That wasn't something a fourteen-year-old should be proud of, Aunt Doris had said as she handed her the bucket, sponge, and soap. Marcia took them and walked out the door. She squeezed some Lemon Fresh Joy into the bottom of the bucket then walked around the side of the house to fill it with water, feeling Aunt Doris's eyes on her the whole time.

In the short driveway stood her uncle's truck and her aunt's station wagon. Behind them stood the nearly new Ambassador, which was blue, not red the way it should've been. Her father had bought it. She traced soapy circles all over the hood then moved to the front of the car. Dried bugs and butterflies covered the grill and headlights, so she turned to wash the side instead. If she bent down far enough, Aunt Doris wouldn't be able to see her. Face to face with the tires, she wrinkled her nose at the gray dirt caked on the hubcaps. Did she have to wash these too?

Marcia remembered the bright red car in the brochure her father had brought home. He asked her which color she wanted. She still can't remember why she pointed to the blue.

Her legs were getting tired, so she stood up. The hood of the Ambassador was streaked and cloudy. She wished she knew what time it was. She squatted by the rear door and swished the sponge around in the bucket to make more suds. She tried to remember if the brochure had said royal blue or navy. It didn't matter. Both had sounded dignified. The red had been candy apple.

She was washing the rear bumper when she heard the screen door open. "Marcia!" said her aunt. Marcia squatted a few more seconds before standing up.

"What?"

"Aren't you done yet?"

"No. It takes a long time. It's hard."

"Well, no wonder. You haven't even got the hose running. I guess your dear daddy never taught you how to rinse as you wash, all the way around, so you don't get streaks."

Marcia kept her head down, thinking of her father. Everybody kept telling her how much he'd spoiled her. When she thought of all the work Aunt Doris made her do, she could see why they thought that. Since moving in with her aunt and uncle three months ago, she had managed to burn the shirts she ironed, break the dishes she washed, and turn a whole load of laundry pink. She didn't mean to, but she wasn't sorry, either.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I don't know how to wash a car."

"Well it won't get done just standing there. Go get the hose. I should have known better than to stay in the house while you worked." Aunt Doris stood on the steps while Marcia turned on the hose. "And you'll have to start all over again. Dried soap won't wash off."

Marcia put more soap and water in the bucket, then started rubbing the hood again, this time rinsing each section with the hose before she went on to another. When she worked her way around to the car door, she put her thumb over the hose and directed the spray toward the wheels. Dirty water came pouring out. She used the same technique on the front grill, watching the dead bugs slide down to the driveway.

When she finished, the car wasn't streaked, but it still wasn't shiny. Water spots covered the blue surface. Red was the color she had wanted. But she thought candy apple sounded too immature.

Aunt Doris's voice came toward her again. "There's a cloth in here that'll get those spots off. And hurry it up. The Fosters will be here in twenty minutes. I'm not about to show them a spotted car."

So they were going to sell it. Marcia should have figured it out. Red or blue, it made no difference. Her father had bought the car; now it had to go. Marcia went inside and took the special cloth from Aunt Doris's hand. It made her fingers feel oily. She put it on the hood of the Ambassador and rubbed hard. She wondered again what time it was. 2006-07-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=648 Kim Bluth Kim Bluth is an American writer currently living in The Netherlands. She attended the Iowa Summer Writing Festival last summer. "My writing became a true passion there and then," she says. Rainbow Canvas Iowa Writes Late one summer day in Iowa City, I weaved my way from the Student Union to my hotel. A heavy haze of heat and humidity covered the campus and surrounded me like a cocoon, dampening and draining all color, sound, light, and depth, until I uncovered its hidden allure.

Amongst the granite gray buildings that melted into the background of the steely sky, I spotted the shirtless young man in black shorts. His well-browned skin, glistening in the humid thick air, matched his well-etched physique. Crossing the black pavement not too far away from me, he was obviously deep into a vigorous run that I could tell was something he does every day. I regretted my distance from him but was grateful for my opaque sunglasses giving me the ability to watch at my discretion without him knowing. He didn't see me, and if he did he didn't care. For just an instant, I wished to turn back the clock twenty years so I could be the co-ed that he might have noticed.

Back at my hotel, I rode up in the elevator with a young family, the youngest a 16-month old boy just getting comfortable with his legs unstable and mobile underneath him, wearing navy blue bib overalls with a colorful plaid shirt and brown moccasins on sockless feet. He was obviously fascinated with watching himself in the mirror. His mom mentioned something about having been cooped up in a room all day. I was not surprised when he took off, the minute the doors opened, into the foyer with nary a look behind. If he could talk, he would have responded to his mother "...and I will never be contained again." I felt old and burdened as I retired to my room.

I headed down to the Plaza for dinner. Outside the doors of my hotel, I paused to watch a group of children frolicking in a ground fountain. The main draw for them was the rapid shots of water coming from barely visible holes in the pavement. All that mattered to them was the water being cold and them playing together. Chasing, running, jumping. The youngest wore saggy bright blue swim trunks, ill-fitted like they might have once belonged to his big brother. A white water diaper sagged underneath the sagging of the suit. It could have been the first time he had ever seen a fountain like this. He was just as happy watching the water, waiting for it to careen into the air, as playing in it. I wanted to shed my shell of adult clothes and be a child with them. Too many adult reasons why I didn't.

Further on, I passed by a young couple studying under a weathered gazebo. Their open books and white pages of notebooks were strewn over the entire surface of the table along with the unmistakable green logo of two Starbucks coffee cups. Deep in conversation over some pressing college student topic that would probably overwhelm me now, the whirl of color all around was invisible to them because they had created their own. I saw other sights, like punk girl in black carrying a lightly and brightly swathed baby and a mountain bearded man in a red pickup. It was this diversity amongst the people and the transition from shining afternoon brightness to the faltering light of the impending evening that freed me from my initial cocoon. It wasn't so grey and stifling after all. 2006-07-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=653 Joshua Kryah Joshua Kryah attended the Writers' Workshop at the University of Iowa and is currently a Schaeffer Fellow in poetry at the University of Nevada, Las Vegas. His manuscript, Glean, will be published by Nightboat Books in 2007. "Neverbody" first appeared in The Iowa Review 36.1 (Spring 2006). Neverbody Iowa Writes Unsaid,
          but that the hand makes it
known, a gesture not yet clear, but veering
close, close.

And what else should speak for you then?

The sparrow
                caught in the soot-limed chimney,
its wings thrashing and thrashing and
thrashing—

What revealed then, what rent?

Bone, ivory, dentin—
                      the body's bright Braille to sift through
as harbinger, herald, or messenger—each a sign
almost certain

to assemble an architecture worthy of worship,

but that your livid offering,
                              again enlivened, its parts
quickening to pronounce a way back, should
want only to linger or bide

or persist, uninterrupted, in this, its marrow-house. 2006-07-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=655 Verl Lekwa Verl Lekwa of Columbus Junction, Iowa, was raised in Cedar County, graduated from the University of Iowa, taught high school for 34 years, and retired. "Is this Heaven?....Then It's Not Iowa" appeared in the most recent issue (#11) of Wapsipinicon Almanac. Since 1988 the almanac has been edited by Tim Fay and published at his Route 3 Press in rural Anamosa/Monticello. Each issue features a mix of fiction, reviews, essays, poetry, art and homey information, packaged in the format of a folksy, old-time almanac. Is This Heaven?....Then It's Not Iowa Iowa Writes Iowa looks like hell. And in deep summer, it feels like it, too. I know what Iowa looks like because I'm an expert. (Expert: anyone 25 miles from home.) I've seen every nook and cranny, and I don't even know what a cranny is. But I've seen it. Because I've been in every one of Iowa's cities and towns.

In 2003 when I completed visiting and rating every town on the official Iowa DOT map, my mind went back over 50 years to the first time I went beyond a state bordering Iowa. I loved history and platted a trip that took my family to Kentucky, Tennessee and Arkansas. (Abe Lincoln, Andrew Jackson and Nashville's Parthenon were the major magnets.)

We saw poverty, big time. Broken down houses, rusty cars in yards, unpainted sheds, weeds right up to the porch (which often had an old washing machine in a prominent place). A real eye opener for a boy from a small, generally neat Iowa town. But when I took a critical look at Iowa a half century later, I saw way too much of that same disorderliness and ugliness. The South had moved north.

From childhood my interest was history, and I carried that from a small-town eastern Iowa upbringing to the University of Iowa and into 34 years of teaching, mainly in high schools. The military took me to post-war Korea; to visit relatives I have been to Scandanavia twice. I also have lived on the west and east coasts and in the Rocky Mountains. So to view Iowa cities I had the advantage of having lived in various places in this nation and abroad, with the added benefit of viewing differing urban areas.

My trips started innocently enough one October day on my way home from visiting a cousin. I often travel county roads and with each small town I visited, I remarked at the beauty of the season and considered how much of Iowa I hadn't seen. Maybe I should keep a map and cross out each town as I visit it, I thought. And a later thought: why not try to visit them all. And yet later, why not try to rate them for attractiveness. So when I pulled into my driveway, I had a plan. A man, a plan, Iowa (not Panama). 2006-07-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=660 J. Harley McIlrath J. Harley McIlrath manages the Grinnell College bookstore and writes powerful fiction. He and his family live in rural Grinnell. "'Possum Trot" appeared in the most recent issue (#11) of Wapsipinicon Almanac. Since 1988 the almanac has been edited by Tim Fay and published at his Route 3 Press in rural Anamosa/Monticello. Each issue features a mix of fiction, reviews, essays, poetry, art and homey information, packaged in the format of a folksy, old-time almanac. from 'Possum Trot Iowa Writes When Bob White bought his National steel-bodied resonating guitar, his momma's heart did a little dance. She thought having an instrument was good news for Bob White's soul. Bob's momma got it into her head that if Bob had an instrument he'd want to play it. And the only place she could think of for Bob to play his guitar was for accompaniment in Pastor Reiland's Church of Hope and Long Suffering.

Her heart did a little two-step at the thought of it.

Whenever she knew Pastor Reiland was out on a mission, Bob White's momma snuck Bob into the sanctuary of the Church of Hope and Long Suffering and stood him in front of the piano. Then she banged out a chord and kept banging on it until Bob found it on his guitar.

Bob's momma hit a chord.

"That there's a G," she says, "G-G-G-G-G-G-G," and the G chord echoed in the sanctuary while Bob White sorted through the strings on his National steel-bodied resonating guitar.

"D-seven," Bob's momma says. "D-seven-D-seven-D-seven-D-seven."

Bob's fingers fumbled around the strings on the neck of his guitar.

"Hell," Bob White says, "This here's more work than freeing the buttons on a bra clasp."

Bob White's momma's heart caught its toe in the carpet and planted its face flat on the dance floor. She stood up.

"Look at that there and don't ever forget it," she says, pointing at the keyboard on the piano. "That there is Music with a capital 'M'."

Bob White stared at the keys on the piano. He was afraid his momma had heard one talk too many from Pastor Reiland. She'd breathed in more sulfur than her brain could corral. Her mind was cooked through and ready to be served.

"There's 52 white keys on that piano," Bob's momma says, "and there's 36 black keys."

Bob's momma gave him a knowing smile.

"Those white keys is the pure ones. Those is God's keys. You want to keep an eye on them black ones. Them black keys is the devil's."

Bob White reached out and hit a black key with his finger. Then he hit it again, hard, and listened to the echo bounce around the sanctuary of the Church of Hope and Long Suffering.

"Amen," says Bob White.

In those days, Bob White had a convertible that had a rumble seat. When Bob White went out driving, his guitar rode in the rumble seat.

"Where you going?" Bob's momma says.

"Momma," Bob says, "I'm off to worship in the Church of Blue Sky and Dusty Road."

"You're going out drinking," Bob's momma says.

"Momma," says Bob as he banged the convertible door shut, "if you can get that piano into the rumble seat, you're welcome to come along." 2006-07-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=668 Dennis Herrick Dennis Herrick received an M.A. in journalism at the University of Iowa. The former publisher of the Sun in Mount Vernon and Lisbon, he now teaches journalism at the University of New Mexico and writes fiction. He is the 2004 winner of the Tony Hillerman Mystery Contest. "Spirit Journey" appeared in the most recent issue (#11) of Wapsipinicon Almanac. Since 1988 the almanac has been edited by Tim Fay and published at his Route 3 Press in rural Anamosa/Monticello. Each issue features a mix of fiction, reviews, essays, poetry, art and homey information, packaged in the format of a folksy, old-time almanac. from Spirit Journey Iowa Writes They stood by Pioneer Cemetery's stone wall with a gaping hole between the graves and faded limestone markers between them—five young men from Iowa's Meskwaki Tribe dressed in traditional fringed buckskins and moccasins.

A group of angry citizens faced them.

I spotted them while driving down Elm Avenue on my Tuesday morning commute as a reporter at the Union-Sun newspaper. Five Meskwakis digging in a cemetery looked like news to me.

I read the sign leaning against the stone wall as I swerved my dented pickup in behind several cars already parked along the street.

WE ARE CONDUCTING AN ARCHAEOLOGICAL EXCAVATION OF PIONEER CEMETERY. WE'LL SELL THESE RELICS AND BONES TO ARCHAEOLOGISTS AND COLLECTORS. EVENTUALLY THEY CAN BE DISPLAYED IN AN INDIAN MUSEUM HONORING WHITE SETTLERS.

"Are you people insane?" a woman yelled above the shouts and the cacophony of car horns. "I've called the police!"

The Meskwakis were sifting pails of dirt through a screen, cheering each time the dirt gave up an antique from pioneer days. The blankets beside them had buttons, broken pieces of old dinner plates, bottles and the rusted remnants of a muzzle-loading musket.

Bones were heaped on a second blanket.

As I elbowed my way through a crowd of about 20 people, more cars and pickups fishtailed in a blaze of brake lights around my parked truck.

"What are you doing?" several motorists shouted.

"My great-grandparents are buried there!" a woman yelled.

A bearish, bearded man ran past me. The Meskwaki he ran toward looked strong and fit, while bearded-man was heavy from 20 extra years of greasy hamburgers, weekend beer runs and armchair quarterbacking.

"Get out of my way," bearded-man yelled at the Meskwaki. He launched a roundhouse swing, but made the poor choice of taking on Iowa's Golden Gloves middleweight champion. The Meskwaki blocked the punch while rocking the man's chin with an overhand right. Bearded-man crumpled to the grass just as two police cruisers roared up to the chaos and four officers emerged running.

I angled straight for the Meskwaki boxer. With the cops hot on the scene, he wouldn't be around much longer to interview.

"I'm from the newspaper," I shouted. "What's your name?"

"Hiram Hawk of the Meskwaki Tribe at Tama," he said, eyeing the police running toward him. "We're protesting the desecration of Indian graves—"

A cop lunged, spinning him around and pinning his arms behind him.

"—at the mounds last week."

* * *

We walked into a dark room. Jay flicked on a light and led me to a table. On it were four clay pots, several arrowheads, a pile of pierced shell beads, a copper blade, clay pipe bowls with carved lines, and stone effigies shaped and polished into small animals. I could see grains of dirt under some pieces.

"Look at this!" he said. His eyes shone from the intoxication of enthusiasm. He handed me a five-inch clay figure of a kneeling woman holding a bird.

"Incredible," I said. "Where did you get it?"

He didn't answer. Instead he began chattering about the ancient wonders arrayed before us.

"The last person to touch this before me was an Indian several centuries ago," he said, holding up a pot with a painted design. "If it wasn't for us collectors, Eddie, these treasures would be lost forever." Jay wasn't slurring his speech as much when he picked up objects. "Of course, they're worth thousands of dollars."

His voice turned to background noise. I wasn't listening. My peripheral vision sensed a white object. Without turning my head, I glanced to the side and saw it—a skull on a bookshelf, staring at me from dark sockets.

"Look at this pot," Jay exclaimed. "At least a thousand years old. Can you imagine its value to a collector? Twenty grand at least."

Jay continued talking and showing me objects. I tried to act interested, but I was chilled by the skull's sightless stare. You couldn't resist, could you Jay? Stealing the burial artifacts wasn't enough for you, was it? I felt nauseous.

"Come back when we're both sober," he said with a laugh. "Collectors like us love this stuff, but you don't look so hot right now." He swept his arm around the room. Decorated buckskin shirts, bows, tomahawks, old photographs and shadow boxes of beaded moccasins and arrowheads covered all four walls.

"Let's go," he said, guiding me back to the door with a hand on my back. "Ya look like you're gonna hurl, and I don't want that in here."

I glanced back. The skull screamed silently at me. 2006-07-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=672 Annice Frederick Annice Frederick has a BA in Art from the University of Iowa. She has been published in Lyrical Iowa, See Magazine, and Moments in Time. Roman Evening Iowa Writes The street vendor folded
the wings of his windup
bird and put away the
lighted yo-yos. His day
was done, though we were still
wound up and lights were on
the fountains. We had climbed
the winding stairs of Saint
Peter's dome to view Rome
from the rooftops, stood awed
before Michelangelos
and Raphaels, gone down
the Spanish Steps and drunk
from the fountain at the foot.
The steps were lined with people
enjoying multilingual
chatter and the spraying
water sounds. The plastic bird
had flown, white winged, against
evening-darkened buildings,
circling, returning to the
vendor's hand. We left the
square and serpented through
narrow streets, backtracking,
laughing, unfolding maps
and moving on. Rounding
a dark corner, we came
upon the Pantheon's vast
form, face lightened by moon
and street light. Pantheon,
"all deities," by architects
who challenged earthquakes.
I caught my breath a moment
as the ancient edifice
seemed suspended in time
and space. There it stood, base
lower than the streets and
columns rising. Ray took
my hand and we shot back
in time a moment. Then
the laughter urged us on
and we rejoined the group
that didn't know we'd left it. 2006-07-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=677 Carol Lauriault Carol Wilson Weller Lauriault, a third-generation Iowan, is a University of Iowa graduate. Born in Des Moines, she attended public schools there, as well as in Macedonia and Council Bluffs. She lives in Gainesville, FL, as do her two adult children, Alec and Clea. Learning Chaos Theory in Macedonia, Iowa Iowa Writes Our house sat square on the edge of a field
that rolled west toward the West Nishnabotna River.
My father strung a wire fence to mark the difference
between prairie and yard, chaos and order.

One spring we peered through the wire mesh
to watch the river flood, its silvery gray
water rising to devour the field. And once
a tornado flew up. Rose out of the corn,

hurtled along the river's bank and was gone,
but not before we'd seen its dark funnel churn
or felt the wind in its wake drive a rain so hard
the pelts stung our arms. When my father yelled
from the side porch "Run," we ran like hell.

Huddled together in the dark storm cellar,
I didn't know much. I was five. But I knew now
what it meant to be so small and still alive.
Compared to weather we weren't much—

spit on the wind's long tongue. Tinier than
the tiniest milk-new kernel of corn,
and only a flimsy wire fence, and a hole he'd dug
and then doored up in the side yard to save us. 2006-07-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=678 Lindsay B. Wood Lindsay B. Wood will be a 2006 graduate of Simpson College, with a Bachelor's Degree in English. A native of Greenfield, Iowa, she has developed a recent love for both fiction writing and poetry, and hopes to write her own book one day. Book Iowa Writes The book is a monster.
It speaks complete jibberish.
The pages smell of dirt, but taste sweet.
Crinkling and crackling with each turn,
They look and feel like rough bark on an ancient oak.
Listen to the symphony of each page.

It's something by Brooklin A. Cedar,
From Chicago Illinois,
Who doesn't exist,
Who's never even been to Chicago.
I'm sure she would know many people,
If she lived there.

It's all pretty janky.
You rip a page and it vanishes into the wind.

The illegible binding of numbers
Closing each chapter
Resembles simple elements of microeconomics.

The book and the author continue
Their stimulating conversations.
The reader dislikes this, it makes her jealous.

How's life treating you?
The book would never ask this, it tells us so.

The book lands on a shelf—
Hides,
Never to be found.
The shelf consumes the cover and the pages...
It will be lost because everyone will remember it.

The book speaks to us all
Its sundry purposes reside. 2006-07-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=680 Sabit Madaliev, translated by Russell Valentino Sabit Madaliev lives in Tashkent, Uzbekistan, and participated in the 2004 International Writing Program. The Silence of the Sufi will be published in Russell Valentino's English translation by Autumn Hill Books in Fall 2006. Russell Valentino's essays and translations have been published by The Iowa Review, eXchanges, Two Lines, and 91st Meridian. He teaches at the University of Iowa. "Three Poems" was originally published in the Winter 2006 issue of eXchanges, the University of Iowa's literary e-journal devoted to translations both into and out of the English language. Three Poems Iowa Writes Fate turned with the emptiness of a screen
where white is white and all pristine.
I lost myself in sleepless nights without you,
like an oar carried far out to the sea.

*

At my soul's border, where light splinters,
on the balcony where you still sit, bundling in a blanket,
I am absent, though your things keep my gaze,
as trees keep the foreign breath of planets.

*

You were only a quiet dream in my quiet world,
appearing, disappearing, silent in the crowd.
Why then, again, in the ocean of oblivion,
does my longing for you rise up like a whale from the flood? 2006-07-19 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=682 Adrienne Ho, translating a poem by Sulpicia Adrienne Ho received an MFA in literary translation at the University of Iowa in May 2006. Her work is forthcoming in Burnside Review, Circumference, Denver Quarterly, and Ninth Letter. Adrienne Ho writes that Sulpicia's poems are "the only extant female literary text from the Augustan period (1st century BCE) of ancient Rome." Several of Ms. Ho's Sulpicia translations were published in the Winter 2006 issue of 91st Meridian, the electronic journal of the University of Iowa's International Writing Program—an electronic forum to encourage the frank exchange of ideas. Iowa Writes 3.17 Hot Flash

Heat wracks my body. No, not that kind.
If it were, you'd be here already.
But listen to me, I'm on the brink of death here, just a little.
Do you care?
If not, neither will I.
I'll just keep on these meds and menthols
until something happens. You won't even notice. 2006-07-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=687 Shimon Adaf Shimon Adaf is an Israeli poet, translator, essayist and guitarist. In 2003, he participated in the University of Iowa's International Writing Program. Becka Mara McKay was born in Clinton, Iowa. She is currently working on a PhD in comparative literature at the University of Iowa. "Icarus Remembers" first appeared in the premier issue (Fall 2003) of eXchanges, the University of Iowa's literary e-journal devoted to translations both into and out of the English language. Icarus Remembers
translated by BECKA MARA MCKAY Iowa Writes 1. In this place

Was it ever autumn here?
Seven wicked birds
gaunt as pins
stitch sky to asphalt,
gnawing on the light's last
crumb.
Inside the trees, the rising stops
like love.
Some of the heart's great silences
entered me, a terrible trembling
in this place.

2. June is becoming

Is there one hour when children are not
forced to adolescence?
One minute when the city is barred from destruction,
like stars beneath the soldier's boot of dawn?
One moment?

I have more time than I want.
A block of light gripped
through the walls
of breathing nights,
breathing days,
wonderful siege of vanishing ages.

I have more than it seems.
Sometimes, even now,
burning blindness of the streets.
June
a name I won't utter again,
June, June
the whole world rings with June,
complaining rasp of warbler wings
determined murmur, like flames, of dandelions
as in another city
the groaning sea appears,
as I've realized since I was a boy
a moment before this day
a single chance, twice missed
to drown.

3. A barrage

Have I fallen? The air's shackles
echo the chrysanthemums' journey—
quick and bitter—
to their ending, like first sex:
always awkward and hesitant
the flesh slower than a dream, more opaque
than glass. 2006-07-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=685 Jamie Richards, translating Meduse by Giacomo Papi Jamie Richards holds an MFA in literary translation from the University of Iowa and is currently pursuing a doctorate in comparative literature at the University of Oregon. Her latest translation is Giacomo Papi's Booked: The Last 150 Years Told Through Mug Shots (Seven Stories Press). This and other excerpts from Giancarlo Pastore's Meduse were first published alongside the original Italian in the Spring 2005 issue of eXchanges. Iowa Writes phase number two. nightmares, etc.

i have lived in other worlds. there are at least four available to me, to attempt a preliminary inventory. one is made of streets, houses, schools, offices, buses, sidewalks, lawns and everything else there—i would say 'people' if the bomb hadn't just exterminated every living thing.

the others open at random.

ex: there i am, walking down a sidewalk in world number one. there are the shop-windows, the mothers and the passersby, the bus stops, people working, dogs pissing, and so on. then a panther suddenly appears and jumps onto the hood of a car right next to me. it watches me walk, aims its muzzle at me and gets ready to pounce, to corner me. i see its yellow eyes, the glints on its black, shiny fur, i hear the low growl rising from its stomach. i see and hear it just like i see and hear the jerk honking at the traffic light. i know, however, that it has come from world number two. at the beginning it was almost always animals, and not only felines: eagles, wolves, hyenas, snakes, and polyps, sharks, orcas, all indifferent to the change of environment.

world number three is different. there are objects, knives mostly, or disasters: explosions, earthquakes, floods, tidal waves. objects and disasters can interact: ex. raining nails.

most frightening is the next world, that of the mutilated bodies. mine, almost always, preferably mine, mangled, chopped, hanged, buried alive, skinned, dissected, etc. it happens—rarely, but it does happen—that others are the ones to fall under the blows of the hatchet. 2006-07-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=689 Aaron McCollough Aaron McCollough's third book Little Ease is forthcoming in September from Ahsahta Press. He attended the Iowa Writers' Workshop and currently lives in Michigan. "This poem was written in the fossil gorge outside of Iowa City," he says. "It is a favorite place of mine, as is the state more generally. Having never really felt I 'belong' anywhere, it is amazing how much I feel at home in Iowa." Vernacular Poem Iowa Writes In the crackmud

Bootprint

Deertrack

Scurrying pismire

        Some sudsy stuff

My mild passion for

What rattles
            Rushes
              Bows bobs

      Nods waves

          Rises falls

Dragonfly      Gurgle          Small relief 2006-07-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=691 Cecile Goding Cecile Goding is from South Carolina, where she directed neighborhood adult literacy programs for some years. Her essay "Six Degrees of Fluency," set in Charleston, won a GAMA award in 2000 A.D. She lives and works in Iowa City. Do Not Dig Iowa Writes I am sitting in some ordinary place, waiting, arrested by a rendering in a magazine. Thorns puncture the desert sky in a hundred different places.

The Landscape of Repulsion, reads the caption, is a mile-square steel and concrete briar patch, erupting from the American desert two thousand feet above a radioactive burial cave in the future, our future. At present, the briar patch exists only on the drawing boards of The Marker Project, a team of anthropologists, linguists, architects, materials specialists, artists, and psychologists hired by the Department of Energy to devise a keep-off sign for "people." Underneath the Landscape are steel drums full of highly-radioactive tools, gloves, handrags, everything that will stay radioactive for the next ten thousand years.

Am I looking at New Mexico? Or Old Mexico? Why not ship our waste to another country? (We have shipped everything else.) Or why not to my home state of South Carolina where, like New Mexico, we cannot or will not keep any of this from happening. Maybe my old state would welcome the project. According to my map, South Carolina's landscape contains as many nuclear power plants as the state of New York.

I picture a band of people something like us, approaching this landscape ten thousand years from now, wondering what the briar patch has to offer. For some reason, I picture them out in the middle of nowhere, not where people live, but where people have not lived for generations. Yet they have forgotten why not.

Like Elizabeth Bishop in her waiting room, I am "too shy to stop," so I read the story straight through, then look at the date—1998—realizing, and this even scarier, that the cave and the project will have grown since then, and that it grows ever more interesting to me, a literacy teacher.

Other ideas on the drawing board bear similar titles, all in English—monuments called Spikes Bursting through Grids, Menacing Earthworks, Black Hole, or simply, the imperative DO NOT DIG, with its implied OR ELSE. To accomplish its goal, which is to warn three hundred future generations not to open, our hands-off sign will need to grow very old, twice as hoary as Stonehenge, and as sacrosanct as the great pyramid of Cheops, what is left of it. What kind of language will survive the years? Aramaic, once the lingua franca of the Middle East, lasted less than two thousand before it was displaced. What will writing be like then? Will people read the way we do? Will they make the same assumptions about language? For example, that ✉☠✆✉ੀ⌛⌨ in one place mean ✇✍✌☜☺☠✈ in another?

✠✡♎●ââ€Ă˘â„˘Â¦Ă˘â€”†à©€ DO ▪«✶ â—ŽĂ¥âŒ–✧ĂÂâ—‹Ă´. ❽ââ€Â˘Ă„✉✈✇ RADIO ❀❞ââ€Â Ă˘ÂťÂ¶Ă˘â€”‰â—» ✴âŒâ€Ă˘Ĺ“°âœ†âœ‰k�ââ€ÂĄ ❷ STAY ââ€Â Ă ÂĄÂ☠â¬Ââž” ⌫✰âŒâ€Ă˘Ëśâ€¦Ă‚·â¿â·ââ€ÂŁ Ă˘Ĺ’ËśĂ˘â„˘Â¦ ♓♎❽ DIG.

The latest, most popular, idea is that the Landscape of Repulsion be replaced by a kind of concrete comic strip, or several of them, a mile long and wide. No words, or hieroglyphics. Just pictures rendering consequences, the consequences of digging. Reading may require travel.

But here is another worry. It has to do with trust in the printed word, or concrete comic. Even if someone does read DO NOT DIG thousands of years from now, why believe? Why not dig right in? I think I might.

One day at school, I start to talk about The Marker Project to the first person I run into, an older man, a teacher, our custodian. I start to explain the whole story—the comic strip and the landscape and the crown of thorns—but he stops me. Waitaminute, Cile, he says. He tells me the solution is simple. Instead of making the marker and its message more eternal, it should be made extra rickety, right? It should be made out of that corrugated cardboard or that cheap plywood. That way, he explains, the warning would need to be rebuilt every few years or so.

I could imagine then such a structure, graffitied with the symbols of our slangy present. It was so simple. The problem did not have to be solved for all time after all.

When next I was in the waiting room, there were no magazines. 2006-07-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=692 Chris Harrision Chris Harrision grew up in Texas, hated it, attends the University of Iowa and loves it. Before Iowa Writes This is before.

They left water running—

Faucet-heads pulled clean, windows boarded and cracks caulked. This is beyond flood insurance, making waterfall of stairwell, making lake of living room. Of course, it only held for a moment, you know—all that water and all that wood.

This is before.

They left water running—

Our house had holes. Different sizes. Holes with jawlines and holes with nose-bridges. Eye sockets and cheek-divots and long Southern wrinkle-stretches. Holes the size of mommy and holes the size of daddy, of brother and sister. Holes that leaked.

Leaked noise. Like trucks on overpass. Like car-bass booms: through pavement, through sheetrock. Pillowcase thunderclap, kitchen below bed: stormy. Conversation-tremors. Words that can't be said.

They used these words, the men. Like spears, really. Threw them round, drew red doodles on us.

"Ow, you're hurting us," we said.

We learned to resemble fish. In that house, on that night.

The men chased upstairs, so filled with water and so filled with sound. We swam, and the men chased. Chased up attic-access. Fold-Out stairs rocking, rickety. Insulation clumping in rising water like floating pink anthills.

And we huddle, we huddle hard, mommy and daddy and sister and me.

This is before.

They left water running—

Just as sinks breached, their surfaces evened with countertop, placid. Like they'd never been carved from it at all, like none of us had ever been harmed. Never cracked from mountainside and cut to size. Never shipped, never paid for.

And the plywood skeleton, it bowed. Sure it did. And the rafters. But they held. But only for a moment, but in that moment the house seemed whole. Like we had never once been pained in all our little lives. Like the foundation was crackless. Like we were crackless.

We'd seen it set-down, the foundation. Portland cement churning. Dark workers, rake-lines, baseball caps atop bandannas. It caked-dry: a huge salt flat. We cheered: quietly though, with modest fists. It was just the beginning.

This is before.

They left water running—

They nailed-up attic-hatch just as water snaked through air vents, just as ceiling-fan blades cut into it like boat-motors, like our house was an ocean liner.

The men, these men, our men: faces pressed to ceiling, faces and hands, as if trying to move it, huffing for air. And all the windows, and all the holes, they realize: they've shut-up. And they claw—smooth ceiling texture, and it dusts their hair like dandruff, and it mats their face. And it is embarrassing.

"Help," they say. "Help!" they say.

"Sorry," we say.

Like we're talking across great lengths of pool.

And when the ceiling lifts and cracks beneath our entangled feet we know they've learned to resemble fish too.

This is before.

They left water running—

Backs-to-rafter we float stomach-down, making hungry-baby-bird mouths at the vent spinning in fresh air where roof timber crisscrosses. We're gulping. And the air—I think stupid things about it, I waste thoughts: laundry detergents smell nothing like this, I think; air fresheners smell nothing like this. Then I can't smell anything.

Daddy: face fat and funny—looking with held breath, and mommy: hair smoky, curling wet brunette. We might be in the ocean, on a cruise, docked and waiting. We might be in the neighborhood pool, playing underwater games: sharks and minnows. Brother diving for quarters daddy flicked into the deep end, bubbles slung under his eyes like zits. We might be. 2006-08-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=695 Warren Slesinger Warren Slesinger, a graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop, retired from the University of South Carolina Press where he was an editor. He lives on the coast and teaches part-time at the University of South Carolina-Beaufort. With Stephen Corey, he compiled and edited Spreading the Word: Editors on Poetry for The Bench Press which he founded twenty years ago. Never Simple or Still Iowa Writes Save for the shorebirds, the beach is empty,
the barren sandbars cold, and the sea in the offing,
the sea that shimmers in the light from a high overcast,
a wind-blown patch of foam.

The man out walking would not be on the beach
but for the blaze of memory, and the distance
of his walk is not of interest unless it reminds him
of a place like this, and it is still visible

in his consciousness: the figure of a girl
in a skin-tight suit with slipped straps; his fingers
slick with lotion; its sweet-tipped scent in the sunshine
that remains within the reach and retreat of his memory

and the interplay of wind, clouds, and light
on the sea that is never simple or still, but the way,
his way, is always the same, and she not sharply defined:
her hair a blur, her face plain, her eyes straining

to find if he meant to quit her entirely,
and yet, he remembers her bare little body chilly with sweat
at the end of sex when the swirling water forms a trough
that drains the colors from the shells as the tide ebbs

from the creeks and oyster beds that seem to shudder
in the surge, and slide forward in the lull;
the sea to withhold, and hurl itself at the shore again,
and his remorse has no resolution. 2006-08-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=733 Peter Balestrieri Peter Balestrieri is a writer and musician. He has writing in Notre Dame Review, Mandorla, and Deluxe Rubber Chicken. His visual poetry appears in local and international exhibitions. As a musician, he's toured and recorded extensively, most notably with the rock group Violent Femmes. He lives in Iowa City. Big Robbery Iowa Writes I'm pulling off a big robbery with Vincent Price and another guy. We go out a window and into an alley. The cops are there. Our arms are loaded with cash. The cops order everybody to freeze. One guy runs. The cops shoot. Vincent drops his money. Cop grabs my money and Vincent's and takes off. His partner screams and takes off after him. We take off. I'm running, running. I see some kids. I say, "Did you see a guy come through here running?" They say, "Oh yeah we saw a guy. He shoved a buncha money in a milk chute." I say, "You take me and I cut you in." They take me. I say, "Hey, you kids are gonna be rich." One kid says, "Nah, I don't want it, it's a Federal offense." I say, "Hey, what do you think this is? You think you're at home having pasta with the family?" We get the money. I can't believe it. I start grabbing big stacks of bills. I say, "How much do you want?" The talky kid says, "Oh, twenty bucks. I just want to try out some new cigarettes." I can't believe it. "No, no," I say. "Are you nuts? Take some money." "I don't want it," he says. "OK, here, take a hundred dollars." He says, "OK." I start counting it out. More cops show up at the end of the alley. They say, "What's going on?" I say, "Nothing, Officer. I'm the boys' uncle and this is play money for their club. They're just playing." 2006-08-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=739 Jamie Braxton Cooper Jamie Braxton Cooper is a 2004 graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop. He is currently a freelance writer living in Portland, OR. His poems have previously appeared in The Libertine. 10 p.m. Sharp Iowa Writes There are things I might say about the rain,
The way a dog might yelp, for instance, when the first few drops
Strike its hide
          like stray bullets,
Or how the pigeons stick their breasts out and like it,
and waddle off
In the glory of their absurd colors.

In heaven,
Where it does not rain,
Where God continues his
psychiatry of silence,

My mother has been preparing a modest little place for herself,
My mother, who
Right now

Is probably up late again,
folding everyone else's laundry,
The dryer humming along tunelessly,
            the metal still warm, still
The temperature of blood. 2006-08-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=742 Stephen Sherman Steve Sherman emigrated to Iowa from New Providence, New Jersey, in the year 2002. He is of average height, average build, and is capable of wonderful things. "Certificate" appeared originally in earthwords, the undergraduate literary review at the University of Iowa. The review's mission is to showcase the creative works of UI undergraduates in literature and the arts, while providing students with an educational experience with the production of a literary magazine. Certificates Iowa Writes i want my whole life's wealth liquidated
into mcdonalds gift certificates
before I die so I can walk into
a mcdonalds with bags of mcmillions
toss them at the cashier and urinate
on the floor and, for one time in my life,
not get stared at by undocumented
with abominable highlights when I
show a coupon, a free extra value
meal, that has no expiration date
which my grandpa on zoloft sent to me
in a mcdonalds envelope for christmas,
even though he knows I am jewish,
still half-believing in the temporal
immobility of the few sacred
tenets in holy life like fast food gift
certificates and the impending chance
of death, incest, disease, rain, and anger. 2006-08-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=746 Genevieve Kaplan Genevieve Kaplan is a graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop and edits the Toad Press International Chapbook Series. Clear enough to lead us all into daylight Iowa Writes You find the shade
of a tree to quell me. I admire
you, your stars, the hedge.
How night looks in the next
elk's eyes. A forest is
for the animals, kept up
by the plants
and the river. No matter,
the story begins: the trees
are a shield
to shoot from and mine
is a vacant thing (the turn
of the storm in winter).
The road must be kept
at a distance, put off. The birds
agree. If you mean
to shake me I'll go
flailing around again;
we have a ritual begun already. 2006-08-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=750 Chad Chmielowicz Chad Chmielowicz graduated from the Iowa Writers' Workshop in 2003 and worked at the International Writing Program for 3 years. He lives in Chicago. In the Morning of the Day Iowa Writes My little sister is at the counter
talking to the dead birds she's
brought in. Little featherless
affairs jettisoned from the nest.
She is kicking her legs on the high stool,
chin in her hands. Each is arranged
on a tidy pile of grass. I am glad
to not be her parent; one of her laces
is undone. It is not her innocence
I envy. She asks me why
they're see-through, why their heads
and bellies are oddly large. They are
very smart and very hungry. What should
we feed them? Dirt. You can't eat
dirt!? (In her alarm, dirt rhymes with cruet.) 2006-08-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=752 Vivienne Plum Vivienne Plumb writes poetry, prose, and drama, and is based in Wellington, New Zealand. She is presently writer in residence at Massey University in Palmerston North, N.Z., where she is working on a new poetry book. In November, 2006, a small N.Z. press will be publishing a small joint collection of poetry in English/Polish translation that will feature poems of Vivienne's and of Adam Wiedemann's, a Polish poet Vivienne met during the International Writing Program's Iowa residency in 2004. The Alternative Plan Iowa Writes Plan A: leave town. Plan B: stay in town but move to another part where no one knows you. Plan C: stay in the old apartment in the old part of town. Plan D: stay in the old apartment and in the old job. Plan E: look for a flatmate. Plan F: look for a new job. Plan G: change apartments, within the same building. Plan H: stay in the old apartment in the same part of town, don't change your job and refuse to look for a flatmate. Plan I: go to Cuba (this plan requires an injection of money to activate it). Plan J: think of another plan. Plan K: get facial surgery (finance dependant). Plan L: dye your hair. Plan M: go out wearing a variety of hats. Plan N: stay indoors. Plan O: become a recluse. Plan P: become a recluse and stay in the same apartment and in the same part of town and in the same job. Plan Q: never say never. Plan R: this is something to do with running. Plan S: this must be swimming. Plan T: swimming every day and long walks in the weekend. Plan U: with your hair dyed. Plan V: and wearing a variety of hats. Plan W: become a recluse in the same apartment and in the same part of town but walk every Saturday in disguise and swim once a week (not in disguise). Plan X: change nothing. Plan Y: do not walk, run, or swim, but stay in the same mankey apartment in the same scodey part of town, flogging yourself in the same boring job, and dream of Cuba. Plan Z: begin your plan for next year. 2006-08-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=755 Kurt Folch Kurt Folch, Chilean poet and translator, participated in the 2004 International Writing Program at the University of Iowa. His poetry has received many awards, such as the Pablo Neruda Creative Writing Fellowship (1997) and the Jose Donoso Creative Writing Fellowship (1998). His 2002 translation of William Shakespeare's The Merry Wives of Windsor is in circulation across the Spanish-speaking world. He is currently working on Julius Caesar and a translation of a selection of George Oppen's poems to be published this winter. The Lovers Iowa Writes The animal was sacrificed.

And clear, an air bell
sounded (moved by
the breeze)—randomly
extending its notes
(those of a ghost

town) under the vines

where summer, which comes
before the end,
was being crushed—:

Falling

blood fills the deep
basins, till they flow over.

The face

removed from the rest was washed
and afterwards taken

softly

skirting puddles of light
among lemon and medlar branches

as if a creature.

What followed was just a routine:
perform an incision, divide up, eat.

Keep the leftovers for the dogs. 2006-08-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=761 Pieta Brown Pieta Brown is an Iowa-based singer-songwriter. Her three albums are Pieta Brown (Trailer Records, 2002), I Never Told (T Records, 2003), and In the Cool (Valley Entertainment, 2005). Pieta Brown's website http://www.pietabrown.com/ switchblade Iowa Writes rain
the dirty sheets i left outside
the cornfield across the highway
a number in which i can hide
my mother gets cold at night & walks the dog
while my father, a few blocks away, steps aside
to hear god laugh
i hear god cry
& like a switchblade in my chest
i turn from what's right to what's left
i pray softly in this strange warm light of rain in the fall
i pray today i will cut away this layer of my country that doesn't sing
i pray today i will give away everything
i pray i am ready to die
the wind is raging
the wind is a beautiful view of my people
the leaves, angels in unison 2006-08-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=763 Peter Carter Wilson Peter Carter Wilson graduated from the University of Iowa in 1990 with a degree in political science. "I initially moved to Washington, DC to work in politics," he says. "In 2004 I relocated with my wife and cat to New Orleans, where I work as a paralegal and try to avoid hurricanes." Redfish Iowa Writes Jordan, why is my fridge open?

Well Thomas a fine hello to you too. How was your day?

Jordan you're a cat. Could you possibly care less about how my day actually went? You do nothing all day but sleep, eat and make baby hairballs.

Not true Thomas, not true. I got up three times to smack that annoying toy around on top of sleeping and manufacturing hair based products; it was very stressful. You're just jealous that I have the skills to work from home.

That's great Jordan, really. Thanks for filling me in on your hectic schedule, but you still haven't explained why my fridge is open?

"Our" fridge is open because I was looking for something decent to eat, not this ptomaine you left in my dish.

Look rodent, I just spent something like 27 hours cleaning out that fridge after the hurricane, I don't need your help ruining it again.

Whatever Thomas. Some chef must have worked his way up through a gulag cafeteria before sliding over to Purina. We all realize dogs will eat this crap, in fact they will eat their own crap, but we cats are a much more discerning lot. My palate demands a higher caliber cuisine.

Cuisine Garcon? Since when did Fancy Feast become cuisine?

My point exactly Thomas. The name implies this gruel is somehow haute cuisine. I can't handle it anymore. Don't you have any more of that grilled redfish from last night?

Jordan, what's left is mine, besides you made out like a bandit.

Precisely Thomas, and that's why I would like a spot more. Here's what we're going to do. You grab your keys and let's take a little ride over to the fish joint. I hear there are tons of those suckers plucked out daily.

Listen Einstein, and I use that name loosely, you wouldn't know a redfish from a bluegill if it bit you on the arse. If one of those critters just jumped out of the sea it would still be twitching, covered in scales and cold, not a particularly appetizing combination.

Thomas, you know I don't concern myself with the details; I leave that to the littles. I'm a big picture kind of gal, so don't give me a bunch of smoke, just deliver the product. And another thing, there will be no stuffing yours truly into that portable torture chamber you call a "cat carrier."

Jordan, you've never been tortured in your life, although now might be a fine time to start. How about I get Dick Cheney on the line?

Thank you warden, tell that to the boys in super-max. I want to ride up front, like a proper cat.

And how may I ask do you know about super-max?

The Discovery Channel of course! They've been running prison documentaries all month, really fascinating television!

Jordan you know you're not supposed to be watching cable unsupervised. Remember what happened last time with the hedge clippers. Mrs. Freepont still doesn't speak to us.

You need to focus on the task at hand, Thomas, my redfish. Just say no to crack.

What does crack have to do with anything?

The first step to recovery is to admit your addiction, which we don't have time for right this minute, but perhaps after my redfish craving has been satiated we can chat.

If you are referring to my cigars they are made from tobacco leaves.

You don't mean that thing growing by the window? It's a killer. I left some hints on your carpet of my dislike for its flavor. Perhaps you missed them?

You idiot, that's a cactus. Tobacco is entirely different and considerably more valuable than your furry butt.

Valuable or not Thomas, I say it kills.

Thanks C. Everett Kat, I'll take that under advisement. Get your collar so we can get this wagon train rolling I want to be home before the Iowa game starts.

Hawkeyes, smawkeyes, we'll get home once my meal is properly prepared.

Out the door Ms. Swanson, it's time for your close up.

Thomas I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

For the love of God, please get in the car. And just so you know Jordan, unsupervised television is off-limits.

That's cool Thomas. By the way, have you seen the new layout design on the Discovery Channel's web site? 2006-08-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=766 Meredith Glasson-Darling Meredith Glasson-Darling writes: "I grew up in West Branch, Iowa, out in the countryside between two cornfields and started writing to pass the time on road trips up to see my grandparents in Cherokee, Iowa. I currently am a sophmore at the University of Iowa majoring in Russian and International Studies." Once Upon a Table: The Tale of the Life of a Spoon Iowa Writes Once upon a time there lived a spoon. It is to be made sure that the reader note that this spoon did indeed live once upon a time. He lived how most spoons lived and found his life no more interesting than you and I would, for what is there possibly to live for in the life of a spoon? The other spoons were equally discontented with their life as this spoon (the spoon who lived once upon a time), and frankly for all spoons then and now life is of the dull and monotonous sort.

The spoon who lived made his home with many other spoons crammed tight in the kitchen drawer of a farm house made of old pine wood with peeling white paint. All he had ever known was the drawer, the table, a mouth or two, and the various foods or liquids with which he was dipped in. This was also all the other spoons had ever known, and the drawer too had little knowledge of anything else from the spoons themselves and a few hands which pull on it from time to time. The spoon (whom has been said to have lived once upon a time) and the drawer were friends as much as any kitchenware may be, though their friendship consisted largely of long drawn out creaks and metallic sighs. As simple as that friendship was, the drawer and the spoon were quite content with it, as there was little else for them in their drab and monotonous lives.

Now there came a day when the spoon was laid out on the table for supper and met a dish. He and the dish fell quite in love and he said to her: "I am going to run away with you, and you will be my wife, and we shall be happy." The dish agreed and they planned to flee the table at the first chance they got. Halfway through the family's evening meal that chance came when the farmers son bumped the side of the dish (upon which the spoon was resting) and sent both of them crashing to the floor. The spoon fell and was unharmed, but the dish smashed into a thousand pieces and he was left alone.

Later that night as the spoon lay weeping, smashed between his fellow spoonsÉhe asked the drawer why he would never be free to love and leave the kitchen where they were both imprisoned.

"I am sorry for your loss," replied the drawer, moaning with sympathy. "But in a life such as that of a wooden drawer or a lonely spoon, we cannot hope for more than the next glimpse of light so that even in our misery, we can insignificantly make someone else's life a little easier."

The spoon lay all night and thought of this in the cold dark interior of the drawer, in-between the rows and rows of other spoons—all dreaming of the morning sun and mushy bowls of milk-drenched cereal, and just as the sun was rising he thought to himself: "If all I may ever be is a spoon, at least I shall do that best...even if I must try to rise above it and fail one thousand times." 2006-08-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=764 Kelly Bartolotta Kelly Bartolotta writes: "I'm a 21-year-old student originally from the Chicago area, but deeply entrenched in the small-town, quiet and serene life in Mount Vernon, Iowa. The vastness of this state and the beauty of its nature have helped cultivate my work beyond what it ever was before." Her poem was inspired by a photgraph by Edmund Teske. Iowa Writes I. Davenport Iowa

laced between
Le Claire & Maquoketa
the river carved prairie crossroads
in pinstripes fell the corn rows

midwinter arbors & maywet fields
kneeled to their visitors

her city's energy channeled
on stained cathedral glass

imposing homes wear their mourning veils to sow her plains in repentance

II. Shirley Berman

she sculpted symmetries in
the skeletal garden,
    drowned daisies in hymnal verse

bay window peripheries marveled
as she dissembled vegetation

    the thickets followed, grasping

she wore a raincoat to drain
the poppies in her fingers—

awnings envious
of her well-placed brow

III. Composite with nude

haphazard lawns worship
limestone mausoleums
where asters once bloomed

earth recaptures her fleshy chest
& exposed skin
    in opal pools she fizzles incomplete 2006-08-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=760 Judy L. Buddenbaum Judy L. Buddenbaum writes: "I was encouraged by Ms. Gertrude Hilmer and Mrs. Virginia Rumble, both high school English teachers at Tipton Consolidated School. I'm retired and now a resident of Iowa again. I have attended two weekends at the Iowa Summer Writing Festival and I have taken many writers' workshops. I'm a student-at-large." The Seductions Iowa Writes Charlie was a hepcat. He wore a subtle pinstripe suit. Like a ball of cashmere, his soft blond body rolled at our feet. The cock of his head and the look in his baby blues conveyed entire messages. He was the whole package and he used that to play with us. He could lean up against us one moment and then step around us like we were last week's litter box the next. The curve of his long tail was like a come-hither question mark. Almond shaped eyes, like Sophia Loren's, the color of a '98 Simi Chardonnay saw through us. His fluffy buff of tabby fur was what fingers were made for. Bribing for his purrs was useless; he rationed them out, but nothing escaped his pert, attentive ears. Charlie could hang on our words like we were the center of his universe and then dismiss us to study a corner where the walls and ceiling met.

He owned the most comfortable chair in our house and we allowed it. He kept us rooted and unbalanced. After preening his whiskers, he would slink into the night with nary a meow, keeping us up past our bedtime. Returning from his prowls, he seemed impatient to be in. Launching his body at the screen door he jolted us awake. We jumped from our chairs into consciousness. Or he would just hang on the screen door like a live trophy until we opened the door. We knew better than to ask questions.

We were bewitched and life was good for fifteen years. When Charlie left us, he left us empty like the skin of a cicada hanging on an old tree trunk. Through our tears and grief, we vowed never again to let some feline mark our hearts.

But out of the blue, it happened. She came in through the basement window wearing red leather around her slender neck. It said "Bender Is My Name." She stepped softly, one elegant foot, and then the next. She was all in black, except for her ears, which were a delicate pink inside, like a seashell. Sleekly dressed to the nines, even spandex couldn't hug this well. The only thing missing was a string of pearls. She sized us both up with eyes the color of a cold Rolling Rock. Her purr was like Kathleen Turner in heat. She tried both our laps, but never really settled. Stretching her shapely legs and arching her back she ran a pink tongue over her shoulder. Gracefully, she folded her legs under herself. Her look said, "I'll be staying the night." She rested her chin on my leg and shut her eyes.

Our vow was off; we were smitten by this fine-looking feline. As the night gave way to dawn she stood, arched her back, straightened her whiskers and gave a restless look about. Pacing, she was looking for something but it wasn't anything we had to offer. Her restless eyes would not meet ours. The side-to-side movement of her ebony tail spoke volumes. Reluctantly, I held the door open for her. With a gentle swing of her hips she stepped down and out of our lives.

I saw her one morning as I was getting my paper. She was wearing the same little red leather around her neck. She looked well; the bohemian life and late hours never leaving a mark. She pretended not to see me. Unabashed, she was demurely seducing my neighbor with her eyes. She was clearly enjoying a new domination. My neighbor besotted by this false feline flattery was serving her sardines on her best china.

Gathering our pride, we vowed to never fancy a feline again. It's easy to be the Top Dog in a dog's world; a pat on the head and he'll wag his tail and be all over you with kisses. All he wants is to gratify and promise a lifetime of companionship. But a cat...a cat is closely linked to the nameless forces and invisible pulls of the universe; so all a cat really wants is a good domestic. I pulled out the Hoover and sucked the cat hairs from our life. 2006-08-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=754 Pierre-Damien Mvuyekure Kaguru's Muted Lament Pierre-Damien Mvuyekure is the author of Lamentations on the Rwandan Genocide (Final Thursday Press), a collection that includes this poem. A professor of English at the University of Northern Iowa, he is also the editor of World Eras Volume 10: West African Kingdoms, 500-1590. Iowa Writes A heavy sigh was heard inside the
Nyarubuye Golgotha Church that
Easter Sunday at the twilight.
Listening to an inside voice,
Kaguru (the withered-leg man) stretched his leg
out,

Silently asking, seeking,
(Ask and you will receive;
Seek and you will find.)
desperately imploring the Son of God to
lay a hand on him,
humbly knocking on His door.

(Knock and the door will be open.)
Several Sundays he had heard his Kirchepfeiler
Father White Missionary the biblical story tell.
Cioavverra-Certo, Cela arrivera-certainement.
Kaguru grabbed his stretcher and left the pew with the
withered leg,

a muted lament welling up within him—
Mana yanjye, Mana yanjye,
Kuki wantereranye?
Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani.
Father, Father, Why Have You
Forsaken Me? 2006-08-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=749 Nicole Zdeb Nicole A. Zdeb is a poet and translator. Nicole spent four happy years living and working in Iowa City, where she met her fiancé, fellow-poet Jamie Cooper. She, Jamie, and their two spoiled cats now live in Portland, Oregon. Weightless Boxes Iowa Writes My wife's hands are small.
They fit inside
the eeeooolaaay
of a wood thrush
and I am young
again, the gates
of heaven
not shut
against me, walking
in the woods
behind
the ferry landing.
"No,"
she says
with her hand,
"that is a
Brown Thrasher.
See
the length of
its tail."
Her hand becomes
a length
of feathers.
"It is more
often heard than
seen and can
be heard in
the way light
appears
to sing."
Her hand is
common, spotted
with rust, in fear
of extinction.
It can hold
eight eggs if
the eggs are very small. 2006-08-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=747 Steven Moore Steven Moore is a senior at Washington High School in Washington, Iowa, and will be attending the University of Iowa this fall to major in English while continuing to serve in the Iowa Army National Guard. Excerpt from We Sing the Days in Falsetto Iowa Writes She wakes up from a dream within a dream within the nightmare she calls her life. A man stands near her holding a magnifying glass and kneeling close to the snowy surface of her bedroom floor. He wears a suit and overcoat, along with a scarf. Pinned on his coat is a once-glimmering badge that is now scratched, worn, and faded. He points to the ground and asks her, "Is this yours?"

The bedroom has no walls, no ceiling, and no home to accompany it. It consists simply of furnishings arranged on top of an eternal expanse of icy tundra. No people, no roads, no cars, and no animals exist in this place, only this girl and her bedroom, and the detective rummaging through it.

Her eyes are still groggy and confused, but she manages to respond, saying, "No, officer. No, sir, I don't know what that is." He nods and kneels closer to the ice, closer to a frozen pool of scarlet on the ground. She can see her own breath in the air when she says, "Oh, you meant the blood? Yeah. Yeah, that's mine." And with that, she turns away from him, rolling onto her side, and back to sleep.

When she awakens again, she finds the detective dead. His body temperature fell so sharply that his heart stopped beating. His body lies next to her bed. Crimson runs from his nose, iced over on top of the pool he had been examining, his blood frozen to her blood.

She rises from the bed and steps over him. He died trying to solve her secrets, and she decides this is only fitting, because she is tired of dying in attempts to figure them out for herself.

The girl walks to her desk, where maps and atlases are spread about. All of the edges are charred, and the highways appear to lead in circles, stretching on quickly into nowhere and ending up where they began and vice versa. The edges of these maps become a little more blackened every time she awakens. Another few centimeters burnt away every time the sun rises. Eventually they will incinerate completely. Not that it matters. They didn't lead anywhere. She should know. She drew them herself.

Sitting down on a simple wooden chair, she picks up a pen and stares out across the tundra, projecting her vision through time and space as if she could defy physics if she only had the will to. The unknown that lies beyond is unsettling. She never ventures past the boundaries of the furniture that make up the confines of her bedroom. All that can stop her from doing so is herself, but it's more than enough. She doesn't know what exists past the horizon, where the tundra plummets away from her reality.

The girl wonders if that is where the past rests, if all of the things that used to be still exist, but in a different place now, in a world just out of reach. She wonders if maybe she could have it all, could reacquire the life that slipped between her fingers. This sparks her curiosity, but does not propel her to discover anything. This interests her, but does not inspire her, which has become the central theme in her life.

She remembers the days before the fade, when people still drove the cars that still traveled the streets that still existed like they were supposed to. She remembers the hopeful, blonde-haired boys and the panoramas in their eyes. There were spectacular parties during the evening glow on the beach, parties that would stretch on as long as they had to. There were walks through the midnight-darkened city with friends, talking of dreams and turning streetlights into spotlights and highways into stages.

The girl remembers her life before the fade, when they called her Sweet-Eyes Cincinnati while she slowly became a California girl. While she slowly could have had any boy on the entire coast. She remembers this life, this place that now she can only see in her dreams and her nightmares, and she wonders to herself why it faded, why it disappeared, and she wonders, is it just over the horizon? Is the past still resting there, awaiting her? Are all of the people and cars stuck and frozen in place? Are they waiting just for her? 2006-08-31 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=743 Joy Goswami Joy Goswami is regarded as one of the finest poets in the "post-Jibananda Das era" of Bengali poetry. He is the author of twenty-five collections of poetry, ten novels (one of which is in verse), and a book of critical essays. In 2001 he participated in the International Writing Program at the University of Iowa.

Prasenjit Gupta, a graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop, is the author of A Brown Man and Other Stories (Rupa, 2002). He lived in Iowa City and worked at the UI Press for twelve years, then joined the Foreign Service and is currently serving in Chennai, India. Things Recalled at Night
Translated from Bengali by Prasenjit Gupta The original poem appeared in the collection of poems paataar poshhaak, first published in 1997. The translation was first published on Parabaas.com, the leading web site devoted to Bengali literature in Bengali and translation. Iowa Writes All that rainfall
Laid out in the rainfall, all those dead bodies
Beating at the dead bodies, all that wind
Trembling with the wind but not billowing out, all those
                    encompassing shrouds
Thrusting their muzzles in, tugging at the cloth, all those night-time dogs
Shouting, driving the dogs away, all those attendants
Half-naked, squatting attendants
Laid down beside the attendants, all those wooden staves
Those clay pipes not burning, in the rain
Those not-burning pyres
Spaced apart, all those not-burning pyres

Behind the pyres, the ragged river-bank
And on all those ragged edges, risen from the water,
All their mothers sit
Their heads covered with uncolored cloth
Risen up from the water after long years, climbed down from the rain,
All their mothers sit like small white bundles
So that at burning time
They can be close to their sons—
At burning time when the dead will remember
                    a wife left behind
An only daughter who ran away with her lover
Unresolved property and a friend's treachery
The dead man will remember the first day at school and
Unseen for so long,
                    unresisted, the cause of his own death
When he tries, flustered, to sit up on the pyre
                    one last time
And the attendant's stave strikes hard,
                    breaking him, laying him out—
Then she can touch that fire-burnt skull
With her age-old kitchen-weary pot-scrubbing shriveled hand
And, spreading the end of her sari over those molten eyes,
                    the widow can say
Don't fret, baba, my son, here I am, here, I'm your mother,
                    here, right at your side! 2006-09-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=736 Viktoria Fomina Viktoria Fomina, an award-winning fiction writer, represents a new Russian generation in whose literary work the memory of the Soviet era is layered with images of a rapidly changing post-socialist urban scene. Fomina attended the 2000 International Writing Program and returned to Iowa City in 2004 as the Writer-in-Residence at the UI International Programs.

Anna Barker is Visiting Assistant Professor at the University of Iowa's English Department. Her translations have appeared in 91st Meridian and in International Accents magazine. The School of Presentation: Opus #2 (A comedy)
Translated by Anna Barker "The School of Presentation" refers to an acting method developed by Stanislavsky and Nemirovich-Danchenko, founders of the Moscow Art Theater. The author studied at the Moscow Art Theater School. "Opus #2" is the second of three pieces comprising "The School of Presentation." Iowa Writes X. Where are you going?
Y. You needn't worry. It's only a short walk.
X. Do you have your boots on?
Y. Yes, and a coat.
X. What are you looking for?
Y. It should be here somewhere...
X. Did you lose something?
Y. Oh, yes! Here it is—my suitcase.
X. It's very attractive! Give it to me.
Y. What will you ask for next? Let me go.
X. I want to tell you...
Y. Well?
X. I want to tell you...a little tale.
Y. All right. I'm listening.
X. Once...
Y. It sounds commonplace.
X. No matter. Once there lived a bear.
Y. H-m.
X. One time he went for a walk. From his lair.
Y. So?
X. And met a she-bear. Polar.
Y. Ha-ha-ha!
X. She was quite fluffy. Yes. They had cubs. Eight of them, I believe. One cub...
Y. None of this interests me.
X. Wait. You don't yet know the main thing!
Y. No, and I don't need to know.
X. One of the eight cubs died very young.
Y. Died?
X. Yes, he got scarlet fever. But then the rest lived a long and happy life.
Y. Where?
X. In their lair, of course. But the time came when the she-bear...
Y. What happened?
X. She got sick as well. But with her it was heartache. From worries and old age.
Y. I hope nothing happened to her?
X. Actually, she died as well.
Y. Really? And the he-bear?
X. Oh, I completely forgot! He died even earlier. He was captured by hunters who skinned him.
Y. And what happened to the seven siblings?
X. They were sent to an orphanage. They all grew up, of course. And lost each other. I know that two of them became bandits. Two—drivers. Two more—cosmonauts. And one—hanged himself. Because of unhappy love. Or out of political considerations. I don't quite remember. Well, will you stay?
Y. Let me go.
X. I'm begging you! I know another tale.
Y. Let go!
X. But I'm begging you!
Y. No-no-no.
X. But it's worth the effort?
Y. Leave me alone!
X. I beseech you!
Y. Keep your hands to yourself!
X. I beseech you! Don't abandon me! Don't abandon me!
Y. Take your hands off of me!
X. (Sobs) Don't abandon me.
Y. (With force pushes X away) What a lunatic! (Leaves).
THE END 2006-09-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=27 Joe Blair Joe Blair graduated with an MFA from the nonfiction department at the U of I. He runs his own HVAC business in Iowa City. He has a wife and four kids. Monday, July 18, 2005 Iowa Writes It's hot. It's been hot for a long time. Mid-nineties every day for the past month. No rain. No clouds. Just heat.

I pick up a hitchhiker on the way up to Cedar Rapids. Seven in the morning, and he's already sweating like crazy. He's a short, thick-set guy with a hook nose. He says he broke his ribs. That's the first thing he says to me. "Broke my ribs. Yeah. That's why I'm here. Had to see a doctor. Get some meds for the pain."

"How'd you break your ribs?" I say.

"Wrong hooker," he says. "Wrong alley. This guy come after me. I ran. I was stupid. All I had was twenty bucks. That's what he got. I shouldn't have ran."

I turn off the radio so I can hear him better.

"Yeah," he says, "I travel all over. Work with the carnivals."

"What do you do there?"

"Two things. Mainly, I do the basket. Where you throw the balls? And then I do the balloons. With the darts?"

"Everyone's a winner," I say.

He smiles. "Yep. Everyone's a winner with that one. Yeah. They pay me more than I could get anywhere else. I make my nut in the summer, and then I just do temp stuff in the winter."

"That's not bad," I say.

"Yeah. You make a lot of money. The basket's about eighty-five percent. The balloons are a little bit lower. But not much. I worked the weekend of the fourth. Walked away with nine hundred. Yeah. It's a thing. But...but you see these young girls all day. And then you've got nine hundred. And you say, 'I'm going to get me some of that,' so you go buy some. That's what gets you in trouble."

"So you travel all over," I say.

"Yeah. I might be up Monticello this weekend."

"They've got a good fair," I say.

"Yeah," he says. "Monticello's always busy. It's either that or Hiawatha. I'm just getting so I can work again. With the ribs."

"Where do you want me to drop you off?" I say.

"Just at a downtown exit. That'll be good. I got to get inside. Out of this heat. All the places are full in Iowa City. They got places up in Cedar Rapids."

"You live in Cedar Rapids?"

"No. I'll just go to a shelter. I got to call some guys I know. I got to get up to Monticello. Yeah, it sucks without a license. I used to have a license. I was like, 'yeah.' Had my camper. My truck. Then you lose it, and it's like, 'this sucks!' You know? It's like, 'I'm screwed. No license. I'm broke. I'm alone.'"

He says this with perfectly good nature. He's quiet for a moment. I know there are days and days and days for this man.

"You get used to it," he says.

I drop him off at the downtown exit. He opens the truck door. It's hot outside. He throws his bags out onto the street. He thanks me for the ride. I tell him maybe I'll see him up in Monticello. He says yeah. He slams the truck door, picks up his bags, throws them over the Jersey barriers, climbs over, picks up his bags again, looks around, and starts walking. 2006-09-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=28 Susan McCarty Susan McCarty was born and raised in Iowa City and now works in New York City as a book editor. Her writing has appeared in Hunger Mountain, Northwest Review, and Boston's Weekly Dig. She was nominated for a Pushcart Prize in 2005. Magic Trick Iowa Writes That isn't my wife, is what he says. It's her angular nose, and the side of one fleshy cheek that had made her father call her Chipmunk, even into her thirties. It's her large hand and her bent ring finger, broken playing high school basketball and never set. It's her foot, now paled to some color he's never seen before, and her ribs and her lovely hip. One of two hips that had made him growl, when they were falling in love, that he wanted to fill her with babies. But her parts do not add up, not even at this forgiving angle, where the gunshot wound that must be disfiguring her other cheek and the top of her head faces politely away from him, toward the wall.

This is not his wife, who said to him four days ago, before she left, that she found him selfish and distracted and hopeful to a fault. As if hope itself were a fault. His wife, for instance, did not have a tattoo. And this one, crawling across the inside of the forearm like an insect, just above the elbow, reads, "breathe," a command that the corpse in front of him unabashedly ignores. He sits down hard on the folding chair behind him. The pathologist pulls the sheet back over the body.

"I know this is hard for you. I'm sorry." It's the policewoman talking now. Lieutenant something. She wears a suit. Mitchell can't tell if there is a gun underneath it. He remembers from the movies that you're supposed to be able to tell about the gun.

"My wife hates tattoos."

The pathologist speaks quietly to the lieutenant. "The scabbing around the tattoo indicates that it's a new one. Probably less than a week old."

"When was the last time you saw your wife, Mr. Mitchell?"

"She thinks they're trashy."

"Mr. Mitchell? Do you know where she got the gun?"

He can't look away from the draped sheet, hanging like a magic trick waiting for a magician. Or maybe he could conduct a symphony over that sheet, ?the waving of wands, the rising of things.

"She loves the symphony though," he says, and is vaguely embarrassed for himself, but is not sure why.

"Okay, Mr. Mitchell? I'm going to take you back upstairs."

It's her car he gets into and backs out of the parking space at the hospital. Her blue hair tie hangs off the clutch and is caught in the shifter when he moves into first gear. Her half-empty water bottle is stuck in the console between the front seats. His car is impounded, her head emptied onto the leather interior. He wonders vaguely who will pick it up and clean it and is shocked to realize that he will.

This is why he almost hits the kid in the crosswalk. It's been years since he's had to slam on the brakes and the act sends a nauseating pulse to his extremities. The kid, ?a skinny teenager with a lip ring and a baseball cap, smacks the hood of the car and swears. Mitchell can tell, even with the cap, that the kid is bald. No eyebrows or lashes, no hair on the arms. As he gestures and moves to walk around the car, Mitchell sees the blue-black tip of something tribal and jagged inching up the skin of the neck, from the collar. The thought flashes through him that he hopes the boy will die and just as swiftly it's gone and there is something heavy and painful pushing up from inside him. He coughs twice and draws a breath. Holds it as he pulls into traffic. Holds it as long as he can, until he is very close to home. 2006-09-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=30 Alecia Magner Alecia Magner writes: "I am twelve years old and have lived in Iowa most of my life. I like to dance, write, sing, read Shel Silverstein's poetry, and dream that I am in my own little world." Poem After a Sarawak Poem Iowa Writes To dream that she was being beaten by her father.
To dream of her mother's death.
To dream of being shot by a cruel person.
To dream of being hurt deep deep deep down inside.
To dream of being somewhere she does not want to be.
To dream of herself happy forever.
To dream of living in a peaceful world.
To dream of her being lovely.
To dream of her shooting among the stars.
To dream of her being released into the wild. 2006-09-10 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=34 Dan Rowray Dan Rowray was a 29-0 State Champion wrestler in high school, attended the University of Iowa on a wrestling scholarship, and studied art. He has lived in Iowa City for 14 years. Untitled After a Sarawak Poem Iowa Writes To dream that poverty touched my feet.
To dream that puddles of rainwater touched me.
To dream that I was given a gift of incredible value.
To dream that my gift left me and the memory of the dream didn't.
To dream that I was recognized and touched.
To dream that a tree was my brother.
To dream that I was safe. 2006-09-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=33 Sherry Gordon Sherry Gordon is originally from Cleveland Heights, Ohio, and is a Christian, feminist, liberal, progressive woman. She attended the University of Michigan at Ann Arbor in the early 1980s; in September 1990, she relocated to Iowa on a Greyhound bus. She transferred to the University of Iowa, where she is currently a Women's Studies and Sexuality Studies major. The Birds Iowa Writes The myna bird pair was quite a dynamic duo. They spoke very well, as fine imitators of our family's human voices. The birds' intelligence and the crisp, clean-cut quality of their voices were remarkable to behold.

My mother, father, older brothers, and I over sixteen years grew in love and attachment to these marvelous birds. Eventually, they grew old and died within six months of each other. My heart broke. Mother, Joe, and I held a funeral for our feathered friends. We made a cross out of tree limbs for a tombstone.

I am forty-three now. Once a month, I still dream of the midnight black colored myna birds. My heart yearns to see them in heaven. I will always love them.

It is amazing to see intelligence in all of god's creatures. We as human beings have a more sophisticated mental process; as my family and I saw in those beautiful birds, it is uncanny to witness the instinctual brilliance of simple animals. Animals can provide lessons for humankind. 2006-09-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=36 Karen Pace Karen Pace was born in Ottumwa, Iowa, and ended up in Iowa City twelve years ago. She attends Nazarene Church. She has been writing song lyrics since high school and started writing poetry in July 2005, thanks to the Patient Voice Project. "Poem" is also published as a letterpress broadside by Spout Graphic Press and is available for purchase at Prairie Lights bookstore. Poem Iowa Writes My brain reminds me
of a traffic light
red means stop so I won't
get hurt and know
whatever tells me no
for my own good
yellow means caution
to look at what's going
on before going on
green means go ahead
with what's ahead of me

My brain reminds me
of an ocean the waves go
back and forth when I am
sleeping waking and sleeping

But most of all my brain
reminds me of a caterpillar
in a cocoon resting for awhile
until it is ready to take off
its wings creating
a kaleidoscope
of golds in my brain
like a mirror on the wall
seeing my self in it
or an eel going on and off
inside me 2006-09-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=39 Kathy Kapitan Kathy Kapitan's hometown is Yankton, SD, and she currently gardens in Storm Lake, IA. She teaches composition courses at Buena Vista University. An avid reader, undisciplined writer, and enthusiastic gardener, Kapitan loves the Midwest, all four seasons, and the horizon as well as her family, friends, dogs, ducks, and cats. Thankful Iowa Writes Thankful for sweet peppers
Barbara called last night

      Sweet Italian red peppers
      Smooth thin skinned
      Long red curved
              Little lipstick peppers
              Sun-kissed
              Bold scarlet
                    Corno Di Toro
                    "Horn of the Bull"
                    Gorgeous red cones
                          Chinese Giants
                          Ripening from green to yellow
                          To orange to brilliant cherry-red

Arranging peppers
Seeing sweet red peppers again
And again

Spilling scarlet red over the blue crock bowl
      Onto the kitchen counter

                              Five pepper pyramid
                          Perfect golden balance
                                Table centerpiece

Luscious blood-red cones lined up straight across the pink Depression glass plate

A prairie sunset of sweet peppers spanning the bookshelves

Her sweetheart joined her play
Then they got just plain silly

Topping the TV with a trio of lipstick peppers
Tumbling pepper cartwheels along the windowsill

Resting across the teacup, a long Italian red
Hanging from a curtain sash, ?a twisted c-shaped fruit
Trimming the brim of a proper black hat
Filling a Christmas stocking with bells
Balancing on a picture frame
      Then replacing the bright abstract
        With Uncle Ralph's portrait
          Dust and all from the attic
Some peppers wearing lace doilies like shawls

Surprising each other
Seeing sweet red peppers again
And again

Tomorrow afternoon
                      Barbara and her sweetheart will try eating
                                                                Beloved sweet red peppers

                              Barbara called last night
                          Thankful for sweet peppers
                                      Thankful 2006-09-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=40 LeeAnn McCoy LeeAnn McCoy is a graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop, where she was an Iowa Arts Fellow. She lives in Iowa City with her husband and is working on her first novel. Graffiti Iowa Writes This is not the nice side of town. This is a place to pass through, and each day I do, safe in my subway bubble. After we leave one manicured, sturdy brick world and before we enter the next, we speed through this wasteland: broken cinder blocks, rusted barbed wire fences sprung from their posts, a potpourri of dirty leaves and garbage, plastic bags, styrofoam cups, wadded up tissues, a crushed Dunkin' Donuts munchkin box. But no matter how the light hits, all I see is gray gray gray. Then the T turns on its track and graffiti claims everything.

Over the backs of squat brick buildings, across cement pilings, up the arch of a little tunnel, graffiti swells and blooms with the same unwanted, bright beauty as dandelions. There are letters made puffy and soft, angled and edgy, 3-D and coming toward you. There are abstract designs outlined heavily in black: arcs and waves and shapes like clouds. The usual array of declarations are scribbled beneath and sometimes over: phone numbers, initials, "the bees Forever!," "Nemo Sucks!" But these words ride a great plume of red crested by rust and crash into a blue and green swirl, a shower of yellow sparks.

All this chaos of color builds up to the tunnel and the T slows as we approach it. A heart the height of a man and three times as wide billows up, crooked, cartoonish, blatantly red. At its center, in black letters each as long as my arm, "I LOVE YOU, PK!" It is not new, this heart, and it shows no sign of fading. Oh, PK, where are you? Are you ashamed when you see this, are you regretful, does your heart buoy up and your stomach drop to the crotch of your jeans? This heart cannot blend in, PK, it reduces the declarations around it to nothing.

Maybe you're riding on the T, PK, baby on your hip. You hold the metal bar to keep from swaying. You're wondering when her next booster shot is and if your sister will be on time and then it hits, "I LOVE YOU, PK!" and your baby is patting your mouth and the name of the graffiti artist is singing in your brain, rising to your lips, then the train whirs into blackness and you absentmindedly kiss the baby's fingers and your husband touches your shoulder and gestures to a seat made available and can he tell something's come over you? He doesn't even know you as PK, for you've taken his last name in place of your own, and this old identity hangs outside you, beyond the windows. You have made your life into a round thing, yet the past tags along or ambushes you in all its embarrassing, misplaced glory. How unformed life was then, how limitless in possibility.

True, one explanation does not erase the possibility of others: you never liked him, PK, or you loved him terribly but he was insincere, or he was a she and now she's married, like you, and you wonder, what did it mean? Or you're a man. Or you wish you'd loved him back. Or you wish you hadn't. You were a thirteen-year-old girl, a sixteen-year-old boy, the woman who took the tickets at the roller rink. You were enthralled, you were appalled, you were the laughing stock of your seventh grade class.

Yes, it's true: people seldom love us enough, or in the right way.

So let's say this: you are fifteen, PK, and awkward and wear your jeans too tight and your sweatshirts too big and spray your bangs into a perfect arc, like a wave. Desire is percolating up inside you, the smoothness of his hand on your thigh, the smell of his jean jacket, Brut aftershave and Juicy Fruit and smoke. And this moment of declaration, too tenuous to be re-enacted, is rushing by. And in this moment, oh if only you could see it, that last nearly white shaft of light from a gray November sky, the way the trash is singing in the wind, if only you'd stop and pay attention, you have everything, the whole, perfect weight of love. And the cold of the tunnel is making your back damp and the wind is whipping through your hair and the passing train is shaking your bodies together and however far I've strayed, know this: in the midst of all these broken, used up things, in this place which is a place to pass through, the graffiti artist loves you. 2006-09-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=42 Marvin Bell Marvin Bell is the former Poet Laureate of Iowa. Typesetting The Odyssey Iowa Writes Norton is smoking a pipe as he slots the letters
into a type stick, the California job case
thinning out as he uses up the m's and n's
and the e's despite their number. It's a case of
how many individual acts can a man get right
in one hand, yes it's one more revision of thought
sweating into labor and a philosophy of acts
vis-ŕ-vis the whole tenor of a life. That is,
shall a man be stoned to death by his neighbors,
or is it sufficient to have one representative
of all who are without sin take the rap. How
on this bumpy earth can a typesetter make all
the right draws in perfect order, not even one
upside-down italic x? He can't. The classics
are the place for the gods, aglitter in the ether,
flaming the sea with their haute-supreme
perfection, and sacrosanct on their home turf:
ageless luminaries of an age when the voyage
knocked you off your pins and Troy fell.

Reprinted from Rampant, Copper Canyon Press, 2004. © Marvin Bell, 2004. 2006-09-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=45 Joanna Klink Joanna Klink was born in Iowa City, Iowa. After leaving the state to attend college and graduate school, she returned to study poetry at the Iowa Writers' Workshop. The author of They Are Sleeping and Circadian (forthcoming from Penguin in 2007), she teaches at the University of Montana, Missoula. The Eventides Iowa Writes You find yourself in complaint in a field of
lodestone      This is the human way
Shut of day and its soft-colored float-glass
you too are shutting      a slow river of stones
underfoot in the grass      The green way the gray way
vesper as the eyelids snow over in dusk
And the field in which you stand      a plinth
to the wavering night      unwitnessed      fathomless
full blind then full dark      Are you never
enough as you are      knowing the night drops and coils
where you speak should you say anything
Your complaint that you were there at all
Anything is less than this      where eventide
and its vacant grasses make a lustrous vacancy
in you      make you remember you were there
you lived      were helped and loved


Who knows what you are      Headlands islands
needles stacked in star-shapes guided by the gem's
crystal structure      Dark-in-rain      a water
unlike any other water      you walk across lands
spread with bones and dust because of you
Because of you the world is warmer      the lake-winds warmer
drafts of dry air that wind over corundum
Because this is all you are offered and it dries out
withdraws      In inches and degrees
you draw into your ownmost ghostliness
shaped into rain and rain-quiet and the quiet
of each seed in each seed-pod      Feldspar
morganite      your islands stars in the soil of what was
possible      This then was a shape a life
a moment given to the world during the world's
brief passing      You are all that you are


You are dayborn      abalone      open to the stars
You find silence in you      Within you
the stars are strange      blurs of shell skeined
with the sliding tides      A horizon always in your eyes
dayborn      born of quiet into quiet      a boat to bear you
piecemeal over unclear water      An immense
emptiness      dropped      a sack of dust in dust-gold
cast and scattered      asterial      a salt born in all quiet
through waves of quiet drawn to shore
Nightborn      you are part of everything you want
no part of      Solar      aster      swimmer
you find piecemeal the world within you      and move
shore-drawn day-drawn      as if nothing were
asked of you      To approach this shore is to know
you are borne      you are asked      the earth waits for you 2006-09-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=48 William Elliot Whitmore William Elliott Whitmore is an Iowa-based singer and songwriter. His latest album is Song of the Blackbird. Black Iowa Dirt Iowa Writes I'll put that black Iowa dirt on a biscuit
I'll put that black Iowa dirt in my tea
I'll put that black Iowa dirt in a big ol' bucket
and carry it around with me

I took a walk in the corn row this mornin',
last night it rained an inch or two
it was gettin' hard to walk so I looked down at my feet,
I got that black Iowa dirt on my shoes

I got that dirt underneath my fingernails,
I got that dirt runnin' through my veins
That black Iowa dirt turns my blood to mud
every time it rains

In the east field I got a little rye patch,
in the north field I got my corn
up on high ground is where I'll be found,
in the house where I was born

I've seen black Iowa dirt help a family
get by on a wing and a prayer
I've seen black Iowa dirt explode out the ground
and go a thousand feet in the air

I got that dirt underneath my fingernails
I got that dirt runnin' through my veins
that black Iowa dirt turns my blood to mud
every time it rains

I got me a big ol' patch of 'taters,
I got me a big ol' patch of beans
I got that black Iowa dirt on my new white shirt,
I got that black Iowa dirt on my jeans

I'll put that black Iowa dirt on a biscuit,
I'll put that black Iowa dirt in my tea
When they go to fill my grave on the hill
They'll put that black Iowa dirt over me

I got that dirt underneath my fingernails,
I got that dirt runnin' through my veins
that black Iowa dirt turns my blood to mud
every time it rains 2006-09-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=49 Marcia A. Murphy Marcia A. Murphy is a writer and hospital volunteer. She has written extensively and published work on mental illness and recovery. She lives in Iowa City, IA. Dawn Iowa Writes Once one has survived a near-death experience, everyday life is seen with a new perspective. My near-death experience occurred when I barely survived a suicide attempt back in my late thirties. Afterward, buried in a fog of doubt and confusion, I clawed my way into the light of life. Still, over a decade later, I experience rebirth in numerous ways on various occasions.

Recently, my friend advised: "Go outside in the early morning. Listen to the birds. What are they saying to you?"

So I went out. The morning, still dark from the cover of night, came alive with the delicate, yet mighty chorus of birdsong. I walked about. A cardinal in a tree, one on a TV antenna. All around, there were different kinds of birds merging notes and melodies, seemingly joyous, yet with a hint of melancholy. It then occurred to me that birds were not only singing in my neighborhood, but they were doing so all over the city, the countryside, the state, and the region. In fact, they sang anywhere the sun was rising, as it did all over the world. Such a thought captivated me in wonder and awe.

A neighbor opened her door, coffee in hand.

"Good morning," I called out.

"Good morning," she said.

When one has had a close encounter with death, afterwards all that makes life worthwhile becomes more apparent. Now, I don't take the singing of birds for granted. And I'll never forget one particular spring morning when the heavens poured down showers. I still heard one solitary bird somewhere out there in the rain. It sang, giving praise to its Maker. Undaunted. Loyal. So I thought to myself: let this be a lesson for me. Even while in the midst of life's storms. Sing. 2006-09-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=263 Don E. Perkins Don E. Perkins has lived in Iowa all his life except for his time in the Navy during World War II. He earned a Masters in Education degree at the U of Iowa. Don is married, has three adult children, and two adult grandchildren. He lives in Des Moines. My Aunt Maggie Iowa Writes If my Aunt Maggie is out in the chicken coop gathering eggs, when we stop for a visit, I might see her sprint for the house. Or if she is in her garden picking green beans, I see her briefly when she hurries to get out of sight. And that's usually all I ever see of her. 

It's different if Aunt Maggie sees us coming. I'm sure she scrambles for hiding the moment she spots our car's dust trail on the rock road. Those times I don't see her at all.
Uncle Johnny usually tells us, “Oh, Maggie just washed her hair and thinks it looks a mess." Or he says, “She's been cleaning out the chicken coop and she's all dirty." My parents appear to accept his excuses. 

During our visit Aunt Maggie stays in the bedroom, but I'm sure she listens at the door so she won't miss anything. Later Mom tells me, “Maggie hides because she's just a shy country girl. What's more, she doesn't have decent clothes and Johnny refuses to buy her anything nice. When we leave Mom gives him a pair of light blue slacks, two pair of knee high stockings, and two sweaters.

“These might fit Maggie and I don't need them. Maybe she can use them."

The next time we stop at the farm Maggie must have seen us coming. I see nothing of her. We sit and talk in the living room, but just before we leave Mom faces the bedroom door and says, “ I notice Maggie's vegetable garden looks especially nice this year. Not a weed anywhere. And her kitchen is so clean I wouldn't hesitate to eat right off the floor. A weed-free garden and a spotless kitchen are two things Aunt Maggie cherishes most.

On the way home Mom says, “All Maggie needs is for people to appreciate what she does. Her parents never praised her for anything and I've seen her own brothers make fun of her."

When Maggie gains some self-confidence Mom thinks she'll stop hiding. She intends to have a serious talk with Uncle Johnny. She thinks he should praise her every chance he gets. 

On our next visit Mom says to her brother, “Johnny, I'd like to see the garden." When they are outside Mom begins. “Now listen here. You've got to stop taking Maggie for granted. You must start complimenting her for all the good things she does around here. You know very well you couldn't run this farm without her."

She goes at him for about ten minutes. Before they go inside she says, “I mean it, you get busy doing what I told you." He walks with his head down looking like a youngster whose mother has reprimanded him. 

On our next visit Uncle Johnny takes Dad and me out to the barn to show us the calf born that morning. Mom stays in the house, so I figure she has something in mind. The Holstein calf is eagerly taking his dinner. Momma Cow looks at us as though saying, "Well, what do you think? Did I do good or what?"

Dad and Uncle Johnny discuss the weather and corn prices. Now they drift into politics. Dad's a solid Republican and Uncle Johnny is a fiery Democrat and they're close to an argument when Dad decides, “We all better go in now."

Mom is drinking a cup of tea. She laughs at something someone next to her just said. The other lady also holds a teacup. She looks at me and says, “Well Donnie, what do you think of our new calf?" I realize this lady wearing the pale blue slacks is my Aunt Maggie and she's not hiding.

During the drive home Dad shakes his head in amazement and asks Mom, “How in the world did you do that?"

“Oh, it was simple. I just stood in front of her bedroom door and said 'Maggie, you'd better get out here and make me a cup of tea or else I'll do it myself and probably dirty up your kitchen so badly it'll take you a month to get it clean.'" 2006-10-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=264 Millie Frese Millie Frese lives in Marshalltown, Iowa. from "Stitching in Time" Iowa Writes “Gather up the fragments left over, so that nothing may be lost" (John 6:12). I move through life like a scavenger, gathering scraps of fabric, bits of memory, fragments of dreams, and pieces of lives as women have done throughout years, across worlds, spanning generations. The best quilts, I think, are the ones where the fragments are gathered from clothing that has been outgrown or worn out, or from cutting scraps left from garment construction. The whole becomes something that transcends pattern, color, and composition. It becomes something many may look at but few will see. Who but the quilter might recognize fragments of her son's pajamas, the ones with the knees worn through? They were faded and soft, but portions could be saved and stitched into a quilt. Her son will one day see the quilt and the fragments of his life it contains; he will know that he is treasured; that he is not lost. A quilt is warm because of where it takes you. It offers a sense of place. A sense of peace. A sense of belonging to something greater than oneself. Like the other quilters at my table, my hands gather and my heart holds the fragments. I hoard bits and pieces of things to write about or sew into a quilt, working to create something whole out of many parts; I am the thread.

I remember finishing a quilt for my oldest child. I cut out the pieces, mostly triangles and squares, when Sarah was in middle school. She helped me pick out the 1930s reproduction fabrics at a quilt shop to go with yards of creamy muslin I'd been saving for years. There was a note pinned to the muslin, written on a flap that had been torn from a yellowed envelope: “Threads of Gold. 7 yards."? A friend had given it to me because she knew I would use it. My friend was in her eighties and made beautiful quilts but didn't think she'd ever use all of the fabric she had collected. She had inherited the Threads of Gold muslin along with other sewing supplies when her mother died, decades ago. Her mother probably acquired the fabric in the late 1920s and early 1930s.

You can travel forward in time, or back, depending on how you look at the quilt. Sarah monitored my progress, watching as squares and triangles became individual blocks and as individual blocks came together. Even before it was finished, the quilt became hers because she loved it. Soon she would graduate from high school and she wanted the quilt to go with her into the next phase of her life. And she hoped I would finish the quilt in time to get acquainted with it before she left home. She wanted the quilt that had matured and grown with her over several years to feel familiar so that when, in her dorm room, she crawled into her bunk beneath the quilt she would know--no matter what had happened throughout the day--?that all is well. 2006-10-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=265 Patricia Ballard Coffie Patricia Ballard Coffie writes and tells stories from home. Her family is Iowan for six generations, back to the 1840s. She has served as president of the Iowa Library Association and the Northlands Storytelling Network, a five-state organization. She has served on the Board of the National Storytelling Network. Insistence Iowa Writes White house, green grass, small heart-shaped leaves on the lilacs, smaller spring green leaves on the maples.  Homemade white swingset with porch swing and a child's wooden swing, under one maple.

Shades of brown in the wet branches and tree trunks.  Shades of black in the soft wet earth smooth around the tree trunks and scuffed into velvet under the swings.  Wet not of rain but of heavy dew.

Grass not yet mowed even once swishing against shoes as she walks to the car.  Silver dew drops at the tip of heart-shaped lilac leaves; at the sharp points on the maple leaves; all along every bar of the swingset and at the tips of blades of grass.  A silver sparkle in each drop from the pale light of the early sun.

The car door handle smooth and cool and wet--opened softly; slammed shut.  Tears running down her face. 

"Life is crap.  What is this morning doing here?"  Her voice and the engine breaking the silence at the same time.

The dog not outside yet.  No walkers, no runners.  No wind.  No birds.  No sound but her voice and the racing engine.  Anger.  Anger.

A look back at the swingset white against the rich browns and blacks and greens and all sparkling with silver drops.  Stark pure beauty.  Undeniable and painful.

No answer.  No one to answer.  No thing to answer.  Alone and hurting.  Alone and more alone.

Brown and black and gray of the gravel.  Angry shift and out the driveway.  Glass and glasses fogged by the moisture of the morning, including the tears.

No answer for months but no escaping that question; that morning.

Answers came.  They flowed and changed then settled gradually until she knew.  That morning was spring and beauty, hope and renewal, insistent upon recognition. 2006-10-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=266 Samuel Stewart Samuel Stewart writes: "I am fourteen years old and homeschooled. My parents graduated from the University of Iowa, and my grandmother lives in Sioux City. My inspiration for this essay came from my grandmother's backyard." A View of Home Iowa Writes It has been in my family for nearly a century. My grandfather was born there, and now both my grandmother and great-aunt live there. It is a part of the Loess Hills of Iowa, which were created from the eolian dust that the glaciers left behind. It is a place of both majesty and fear. It will be my parent's home, and, one day, my home. It is one of the most beautiful places in the Midwest. 

On this ridge where my ancestors lived, you can view the Missouri River, see across the paper-flat lands of Nebraska and South Dakota, and with a good telescope, one might see the Rocky Mountains. It was this way when Louis and Clark made their expedition to the Pacific. Perhaps the Sioux Indians used it as a lookout point. It has been this way since the Ice Age, when the glaciers made their trip down towards the south, crushing anything that got in their way, and created the Great Plains. The dust from the crushed rocks scattered to the four winds, and settled, creating these majestic hills. And, as the land is too steep to develop, mankind will not be able to destroy it. 

Every hour, a bell tolls, ringing throughout the hills. It originates from a Catholic monastery, where the cloistered nuns ring the bell to recognize the passing of the hours. Though time passes for humans, it does not pass for the hills. Every blade of grass in the pasture is verdant, reminiscent of the past, when nature ruled the land. The pee-wee's call is carried by the summer breeze, and wrens furiously scold those foolish enough to enter into their domains. When my mother was still a child, there were chicken barns, with roofs that stretched almost to the ground. She used to lie on the red, sun-warmed roof. Those buildings are gone now, torn down shortly after I was born. Though some things might not last, the sun, the hills and the good memories do.

But on some hot, sticky, summer days the forces of nature arise; the sky gradually turns from blue to grey, then to black. The clouds begin to swirl as the wind picks up. Rain deluges the once-peaceful hill, and spears of lightning hit their targets on earth. A dark, jagged ring rotates, stalks, above Nebraska, threatening to descend, and destroy all that it meets. In the center of this ring, a column descends to earth. However, it is not the menacing gray of the clouds surrounding it, but a fiery, transparent orange. It is hail, illuminated by the sunset.  Golf ball-sized hail falls from the sky, seeking something to break or dent. On the edges, small offshoots of the cloud work their way towards earth. This is nature at its most powerful, its most wrathful, its worst moment. It is a moment that people record on camera, then flee from, to take refuge in some dark, deserted corner of the cellar.     
               
It has been in my family for nearly a century, and things have changed in the past decades. My grandmother installed an automatic sprinkler system, one that I used to run through on hot summer days. There are several stepping stones, made from cool grey concrete, and imprinted with the hands and feet of my relatives. The dates that they recorded in these stones have eroded to the point of illegibility. The milk box that was used to keep milk cool is now used as a doorstop. The barns are gone, and an ornamental hedge has been planted around the yard. The view is the same, but the world around it is not.

One of the most historic and majestic views in the Midwest, it represents transience and permanence, security and fear. It is the home of my ancestors, and, someday, it will be my home. 2006-10-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=353 Linda Hime Newberry Linda Hime Newberry writes: "I am a 1986 graduate of the University of Iowa and an Iowa City native.  I earned my master's degree from the Harvard Extension School in 2002.  I travel widely lecturing and teaching quilting.  My husband and I live halfway between Boston and Cape Cod." Darrell Iowa Writes Darrell was heavy-set and at seventeen towered over most of our friends. His thick, black hair was straight and gleamed a bluish hue when hit by the sun. A swath of hair always fell across his eyes, causing him to toss his head back constantly.
           
Today Darrell's family might be called dysfunctional, as his divorced and remarried parents were constantly swapping custody of their assortment of children. When we sometimes walked home from school together, he never seemed in any particular hurry to get home.

Darrell and I dated once, on the night of our senior prom. I borrowed a formal dress from a friend and his rented tux resembled something discarded from one of Elvis's Las Vegas acts. He bought me a wrist corsage of peach-colored baby roses. Dinner was uncomfortable at first, as we were really only casual friends, but we laughed throughout the meal. We decided to order "grown-up" food; it was the only time I've ever had duck ŕ l'orange. Realizing we didn't actually want to go to the prom itself, we met up with friends for the party after. We never danced together.

After graduation I attended a small college in northwestern Iowa. Darrell enlisted in the Air Force. I couldn't believe it. During dinner every night of my adolescence, I watched footage of the Vietnam War on the evening news. I had skipped classes in high school to join anti-war protests on the University of Iowa campus and campaigned for McGovern. Now it seemed the war was almost over. I thought no one in his right mind would enlist! All of the guys we knew were doing everything they could to avoid getting drafted or fleeing to Canada. One friend of my sister's tobogganed downhill into a tree on purpose, dislocating a shoulder so he failed his physical.

Many of our friends who had no interest in higher education were scrambling to get accepted to college somewhere. But Darrell didn't have an academic inclination. High school had been fun, but it was over. His home life was not welcoming. Maybe Darrell didn't have anywhere else to go. Perhaps he felt going into the military was his best alternative. I never asked him about his reasons. Instead, I yelled at him and told him I thought he was making a stupid mistake.

One fall weekend when I was home from school Darrell was also home on leave. I was on my way to go somewhere when he called out to me from across the street. Watching him stride across the yard, head up and shoulders back, I realized he had been transformed. He didn't hang his head like he sometimes had. The beautiful, jet-black hair was cropped close, revealing stunning grey eyes I somehow had never noticed before. His trimmed physique took my breath away.

Standing there in my elaborately embroidered bib overalls and earth shoes, I was too immature to appreciate the choices he had made, the dedication, direction, and discipline he had needed and found. Instead, I was furious with him. He told me he was heading to Southeast Asia. I urged him to do something to delay going, even suggested he go north. To his great credit he didn't get angry, but was clearly saddened I couldn't show support or wish him well. He stood his ground and told me he knew what he was doing.

One morning in May 1975, I stopped in the lobby of the dorm to read the Des Moines Register, a daily habit. In the bottom right-hand corner a small headline read, "Iowa City Man, 19, Killed in Helicopter Crash in Thailand." I thought, "Hmmm, I'll read this and see if I know this person." I now know what the expression "the world tilted on its axis" means.

I must have made some kind of sound because people were suddenly rushing towards me. I had to get away. I couldn't let anyone see the horror I felt, the shame.  I couldn't speak. I couldn't breathe. I didn't want to be near anyone. I ran upstairs and into one of the dormitory bathrooms. I hid in a shower stall in the farthest corner, sank to the floor, and sobbed. I cried not only for Darrell's too-short life but also because I am selfish. I knew I would have to live the rest of my life regretting the way I treated him the last time I saw him.

I didn't go home for Darrell's funeral. For many reasons, but primarily because I knew he wouldn't be there, I've never gone back for any of the class reunions. Over the last 30 years, I've wished countless times he had waited just a few more weeks to enlist. By then, the war would have been over and he could have spent his years of service in some relatively peaceful place. Instead, he was one of the last casualties of the Vietnam War. I mourned the loss of his potential and learned to live with my regret.

I think of Darrell often now that we are at war again. I think of him every time I see another flag-draped coffin. I think of the families and friends who will be missing that person. I believe what they say about history repeating itself. I am angry all over again.

About fifteen years ago I was in Washington, D.C., and forced myself to go to the Vietnam War Memorial. As I traced my fingers over Darrell's name engraved on the Wall, I was struck by a couple of things. First, the stone is so shiny my image was mirrored back to me. Not only does the Wall honor those named on it, it reminds those of us who come there we are part of that history. Second, the stone is jet-black, and has an almost bluish tint to it when the sun shines on it...just like Darrell's hair. 2006-10-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=354 Amelia Colwell Amelia Colwell was raised in Waterloo, Iowa.  She studied  psychology and social work at the University of Iowa.  She now lives  and works in Minneapolis. The Award Iowa Writes God won an award—
A navy blue ribbon—
for being awesome

God took his ribbon home,
Hung it on the fridge,
And left it there two months.
He liked the way the letters sparkled

God lost his award
One day when he was reading
A book about dreams
He checked out from the library

The water boiling for the manicotti
Spilled over to the stove
So God marked his spot—
Dreams about spiders—
With his blue ribbon

God had laundry to do that day
so he asked his neighbor
to drop his dream
book in the return slot
on his way downtown.

His neighbor felt obligated,
since the dog had chewed
a hole in God’s tire swing,
and God watched the kids
last May
when the baby was jaundiced
in the natal unit
under a buzzing light. 2006-10-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=355 Etgar Keret Etgar Keret was born in Tel-Aviv, Israel in 1967. His latest book, The Nimrod Flipout, was published in spring 2006 by Farrar, Straus and Giroux. He participated in the 2001 International Writing Program at the University of Iowa.

"600 Words" appeared originally in 91st Meridian, the electronic journal of the University of Iowa's International Writing Program: ťan electronic forum to encourage the frank exchange of ideas. Etgar Keret's website http://www.etgarkeret.com 600 Words Iowa Writes My mother says I'll never be able to understand what it's like for a nation to be without a country. Now, my mom, she really knows what she's talking about. After all, she went through the Holocaust, saw her home destroyed in Poland, lost her mom and dad and little brother, and finally ended up here, in the land of Israel, her country, the land she swore she would never leave.

Ghassan says I'll never be able to understand what it's like for a nation to live under occupation. No, he didn't go through the Holocaust, and his whole family is alive, thank God, at least for the time being. But he's had it up to here with the Israeli soldiers at the border checkpoint. "Sometimes you make it through the roadblock in a second or two, but sometimes, when they're bored, they can make you feel like life isn't worth living. They force you to wait for hours in the sun for no reason, to humiliate you. Just last week, they confiscated two packs of Kent Longs from me, simply because they felt like it. An eighteen-year old kid with a rifle in his hand and a face full of zits just came and took them."

Adina, the neighbor from downstairs, says I'll never be able to understand what it's like to lose a loved one in a suicide bombing. "No death can be more meaningless than that," she says. "He died for two reasons: ?because he was Israeli and because he felt like having an espresso in the middle of the night. If you can think of any dumber reasons for dying, let me know. And there isn't even anyone to get mad at. After all, the guy that killed my brother is already dead himself, blown to pieces."

My mother says that we have no other place to go, that no matter where we go, we'll always be strangers, hated, Jews. Ghassan says that my country, the State of Israel, is an alien and strange entity and that there is nothing like it anywhere else in the world. There it is in the middle of the Middle East pretending to be in the heart of Europe, participating in the Eurovision song contest every year, making sure to send a soccer team to the European cup games, and it just doesn't get that it's located in the heart of the desert, surrounded by a Middle Eastern mentality which it refuses to acknowledge. Adina says we're living on borrowed time, that every time she sees the Palestinian children going wild with joy and handing out candy after every terror attack, she thinks about how these children are going to grow up. So I should stop all that nonsense about peace.

And if there is one thing that my mother, Ghassan, and Adina have in common, it's that they are all certain, absolutely certain, that I simply can't understand what's going on in their heads.

But I'm actually pretty good at figuring out what's going on in other people's heads, sometimes, especially when times are bad, I even manage to make a living at it. All kinds of foreign publications call me and ask me to explain, if possible in 600 words or less, what people in Israel are thinking. It's just a shame that I can't invent new thoughts for them too‚ ones that are a little less afraid, a little less hateful. Thoughts more positive, optimistic, compact, no more than 600 words.

Translated from the Hebrew by Ruchie Avital 2006-10-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=356 Alice Davison Alice Davison has lived in Iowa City and other parts of the Midwest for many years, after graduate study in linguistics at the University of Chicago. She currently teaches linguistics at the University of Iowa. In 2004-5 she underwent medical treatment at the Mayo Clinic and the University of Iowa Hospital and Clinics.

The Patient Voice Project offers free creative writing classes for the chronically and mentally ill in the Iowa City community, taught by Master of Fine Arts students in the Writers' Workshop. The ambition of the program is to explore the therapeutic benefits of writing for those struggling with chronic, mental, and physical pain, to address what medical sociologist Arthur Frank calls the "narrative wreckage" caused by serious injury or illness. Night and Some Narcotics Iowa Writes Last August I made it a point to stay up in the evening, though I was tired and not able to concentrate on either reading or the television. As soon as it was ten I filled the big syringe with water for flushing the feeding tube, and two of the little syringes with the red narcotic painkiller which was only part codeine, the rest was Tylenol. I took the syringes and two cans of food upstairs with me and I went to bed, lying on my stiff pillow to stay propped up while asleep. The feeding tube pump was my constant companion and incubus, purring away if all went well; if not, it tormented me with alarms set off by a kinked plastic tube.

The best part of the evening was when I put the first painkiller dose into the feeding tube. Lying down set off the extreme pain in my shoulder where the surgeon had gone in through my ribs. I could lie, floating on the narcotic until the pain subsided. I read for a while, always an espionage novel. I read John LeCarr's Tinker Tailor. I now understand the plot of it after many re-readings. My surgical wound was large and shaped like a sickle, and had a discharge just like what happened to Jim Prideaux, the betrayed spy in the book. He was shot up in Czecho, shot in the back in an ambush and later returned to England with no job and an aching wound. It was comforting to re-read this book because I knew how it ended. All was finally clear, though not well, when the mole was unmasked and his tangle of betrayal was revealed‚ diagnosis and an explanation of a sort for why things were wrong.

After I finished that book, my favorite reading was in several very noir spy novels set during or just before World War II, in which terrible things happen. Actually what happens in the books is much worse than what was actually reported by the BBC at 8 every morning when I woke up. In the books, the hero might be a French movie director, or a Polish officer, or a Hungarian aristocrat, or a poor boy from Bulgaria. It didn't matter; ?the hero is always good and alive at the end of the story.  Surrounded by war, the hero keeps his humanity; he continues his love affairs, keeps writing articles for his newspaper, makes a film and runs his travel bureau, while taking on a secret purpose in defiance of the enemy.  The book often takes place in Paris, with careful descriptions of specific metro stations and cheap hotels as they were in 1940. Or perhaps the story is in Warsaw, or on the Danube or in Portugal or Berlin, with everyone spying on everyone. There were descriptions of lavish black market dinners, which I ate vicariously, not being able to eat anything real.  I liked it all: ?a literary narcotic.

Then I would sleep until the feeding tube pump started to make a racket, beeping to signal that it was empty. I would then pour more of this gray-brown stuff into the reservoir and gratefully take the second dose of painkiller, assuming it was time‚ ?two or three in the morning, four hours past the first dose. Then I would sleep some more until the feeding tube reservoir was emptied of liquid food and I could turn the pump off.  I would sleep until it was very light, as nothing bad could happen in such sun.

I worried about whether I liked the red stuff too much, especially combined with the dark violence of World War II.  One of the nurses who came to check on me said that the antidote to narcotics is pain. The pain in my back subsided just as the bottle of red stuff ran out. 2006-10-16 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=357 Louis Prokop Louis Prokop graduated from the University of Iowa in Spring 2006. He is originally from Saint Paul, Minnesota. "I find that growing up in the frozen North has influenced the tones and landscapes of my poems on the subconscious and physical levels." To date he has been published in online magazines such as Double Dare Press and the non-online independent Unarmed Journal.

"Fossil Hunting"ť appeared originally in earthwords, the undergraduate literary review at the University of Iowa.  The review's mission is to showcase the creative works of UI undergraduates in literature and the arts, while providing students with an educational experience with the production of a literary magazine. Fossil Hunting Iowa Writes digging through the dry crusty shell of the earth
searching for fossils at age seven.
the youngest to ever cross this particular rock quarry
I carry tiny silver tools in my blue raincoat pocket
bouncing alone they jingle with mirth.
I imagine that this place was once a tropical smudge
and an ocean bottom
that died and was renamed a part of the state.
like out of print stamps
there are lost addresses buried here.
for me to find
for dad to identify
for us to capture in a murky orange jar in my room. 2006-10-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=358 Chris Offutt Iowa City resident and frequent visiting professor at the Iowa Writers' Workshop, Chris Offutt is the author of two books of stories, Kentucky Straight and Out of the Woods; one novel, The Good Brother; and two memoirs, The Same River Twice, and No Heroes. "Lucy's People"ť originally appeared in the Summer 2005 issue of Fence. Excerpts from Lucy's People Iowa Writes Jackie Jackson

I don't know if I was good for her or not. Maybe we helped each other through a bad patch in our lives. I was just out of prison and she was just out of Utah. She was a beautiful woman, a nice armful. She could make a freight train take a dirt road. I hoped we'd be together forever but knew we'd be doing good to last six months. She softened me up. But she could go away inside herself like nobody I'd ever seen. It was like an iron gate dropped and a concrete wall went up. You couldn't shoot your way in.

She had a great laugh, but never used it. Things weren't funny to her like they were for everyone else. Comedy movies, jokes, cartoons. She said knowing it was supposed to be funny ruined it. The hardest I ever saw her laugh was drunk. She was the first woman I trusted in a long time. If I asked her to meet me at the bus station with a bag of money and a pistol, I knew she'd be there.

The night she left, I robbed a liquor store. They never caught me and I never stole again. I'm living on the square now. I believe I owe that to her.

Allie Houston

Lucy waited tables with me at a diner in Casper. She was a good twenty years older and showed me how to smile enough to get a tip but not so much it give the men ideas. She was like a Mom to me. Eat before you drink, she said. Don't get mixed up with married men. Don't answer every question just because somebody asks.

That time in my life was bad. I felt like my insides were dissolving, and I decided to get it over with. I took sleeping pills, then I got scared and called Lucy. She took me to the hospital and came to visit every day. She told me that living was the best thing there was in life, and didn't even think that was funny when I laughed. She gave me little presents, just cheap stuff, but nice. I still have the stuffed dog. I call it Lucy. Not because it looks like her or anything, but so I can say her name sometimes. 2006-10-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=729 Roman Antopolsky Román Antopolsky, from Buenos Aires, Argentina, is a ground-breaking translator and an increasingly prominent figure in South American avant-garde poetry. He is participating in the 2006 International Writing Program at the University of Iowa.

Michelle Gil-Montero graduated from Brown University in 2002 and is now an MFA candidate in Poetry at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. She received an Academy of American Poets' Prize in 2006. Hombre del arroyo (Man from the Arroyo) Iowa Writes Si llueve—llúvia. żQuién no podrá oír ahí el verbo? Lluviar. El no personal llueve ya hace tiempo no acude a nada otro que no sea la acción definida. Lluviar; llúvia.—Es bello. Llúvia en la ciudad, y llúvia en los parques. La secreta palabra que acompasa (desmarańa) al mar,—es su orilla. Y si llueve en el mar—las gotas, si llúvia, arredran la costa. El vapor la acorrala; la nieve la exuda. Mar. Si llúvia—el asfalto esplandece; el verde en las plazas se hace al fin pleno, no neutro; el agua en las veredas, sudor ya compacto, líquido casi, se abalanza por fin;—lava la acera, refleja luces, acaba en el goce de la vertiente en la vertical alcantarilla. Acequia, si llúvia, desplaza el mojón del intelecto y liga los sentidos al ruido, en orillas de lo audible. Agua—si oída—costa en la oreja (costa al concepto)—consta testigo en la humedad en la calle, en la tierra, en el fruto. Agua—arrojo; quien recoge su humedad, recorre los sentidos,—paladín de sus reflejos.
Agua.
—en arroyos.


Man from the Arroyo  (A translation of “Hombre del arroyo” by Michelle Gil-Montero)

If it rains—it rainfalls. Who wouldn’t hear the verb in that? To rainfall. Too long has the dispassionate it rains landed on nothing more definite than being an indefinite act. To rainfall; rainfall. It’s beautiful. It rainfalls in the city and rainfalls in the parks. The secret word orchestrates (unravels) the sea,—is its shore. And if it rains into the sea—the drops, if it rainfalls, scare away the coast. The steam corners it; the snow exudes it. Sea. If it rainfalls—the asphalt refulges; in the plazas, the green is at last replete, not neutral; the water on the sidewalks, sweat just condensed, almost liquid, finally rushes on—it washes the pavement, reflects the lights, and ends in glee with the slope of a vertical drain. The drain ditch, if it rainfalls, dislodges the boundary stone of the intellect and links senses to sounds, along the shores of the audible. Water—if heard—a coastline in the ear (a concept’s coastline)—bears witness to the dampness in the street, in the earth, in the fruit. Water—arrogating; whoever recovers its humanity, covers the ground of the senses—champion of its reflections.
Water.
—in arroyos. 2006-10-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=730 Rafael Courtoisie Poet, fiction writer, essayist, and screenwriter, Rafael Courtoisie is one of Uruguay’s leading writers. He is participating in the 2006 International Writing Program this fall. Insecticide (Chapter VII of Caras extrańas) Iowa Writes “According to Charles Darwin, a wise Englishman, ants are communists,” a scientific advisor confidentially informed General Pesano, Commander in Chief of the Army.

“Destroy the anthills,” ordered the general.

Goodbye ants.

*

They killed all the ants; not an ant could be found in the entire country.

“If I see an ant, I’ll have you shot, understand me, Fagúndez?”

Fagúndez, Minister of the Interior, snapped to attention: “Understood, General: not one ant.”

*

They made students write:
Traitor ants
Death to the ants
Be patriotic: kill an ant.
The only good ant is a dead ant.

*

They imported four thousand ant-eating bears from all parts of the world, of various species. An army brigade adopted the ant-eating bear as the insignia for its shield and the protective patron of its squadrons.

ANTS ARE THE ENEMIES OF PUBLIC WELFARE...said the billboards.

For their part, the insurgents created the “Ant” column, “our principal pride.”

*

Support commandos painted enormous ants of tar on the city walls of Salvo and also in the capital, Montenegro.

“Victory ant” was a slogan and an emblem of war. 2006-10-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=731 Laksmi Pamuntjak Laksmi Pamuntjak is a columnist, translator, bookstore owner, and award-winning poet from Jakarta, Indonesia. She is participating in the 2006 International Writing Program. from Lives Iowa Writes 5.

She is the one who crunches numbers and traces the arc of company progress till her eyes give way at midnight and there is nothing in the fridge. She is unabashed about being a right-winger, about her two-minute attention span, about her preference for airport bestsellers. She is skittish, demanding, terrifies both men and women, but what earns her our respect is that she is not scared of being hated.

This is because in a lot of ways we want to be her. Hers has been the sort of post-college release into the world most people dream of—an effortless unspooling, as it were, into the best in the best of possible worlds: a seven-digit salary, upward mobility, and a doting but relaxed family. OK, so that was the 90s, when the word “manager” was one’s ticket to anything from hotel discounts and round trips around the world to house mortgages and marriage proposals, but we’re always around twenty years behind anyway.

The thing is: most people are also so wrong about her. The only thing that she has going for her really is the doting but relaxed family bit. The rest is not so much all the best in the best of possible worlds as a simple, alienating, dogged single-mindedness. In that she is like Singapore, that peculiar island state whose trees, so methodical, so in place, are almost a put-on, whose sky is so formal that its structures of light and dark might well have been concocted indoors: the loneliest set-up on the planet. And now we’re five years into the millennium and people are cheating the system right left and centre, collecting a paycheck while staying at home, the true rent of life being the one that lies between job and children. Yet she has chosen her mold and keeps at farthest bay any illusion that the fire will not burn her. Having your cake and eating it too may be the currency of the day, but not hers.

Like yesterday: it was only four days into the New Year, and while all of us were sipping G and Ts in some island resort, she was talking about having five episodes in the can, shouting down all four corners to winnow down the long list of topics. “’Stay on message!’ I told them,” she told us, failing as usual to see the irony. But it’s all there: television, PR, marketing, all those 90s buzzwords. She talks in terms of what is appropriate and what is not while batting nary an eyelash at spending nine million rupiahs on a Manolo. And the tube is not even her field—it’s just a spinoff of the core business.

But sometime just around midnight the voice that called out from the other end of the line was stricken. She told me, as anyone who appreciates fruit knows when handed a mango by the moon, she has always known what to expect. The age difference. What people think. But it’s not as if she’s known how to keep them as most women who have been kept seem to be adept at—demanding as she pleases both their erections and their nurturing warmth. She has no cunning to keep them in sweet suspense, or to rout another female, no children to sell off as she was once sold. She has nothing else to call green, not pea, not olive, not viridian.

The next morning when I called her, though, she was at the gym. “All they want, these boys, is your body.” she said with no trace of last night’s vulnerability. “Like black soldier flies, you know. In Week 28, after they have had enough of you, they leave their pupa casings and disappear. So I have 19 weeks left in which to recuperate my losses, which is really not so bad—three weeks to whip myself into shape, give and take a week for the imponderables, and another sixteen to even out the balance sheet.” 2006-10-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=732 Partaw Naderi Partaw Naderi has published five poetry collections and several prose books on modern Afghan literature. He heads the media division of the Afghan Civil Society Forum in Kabul. He is participating in the 2006 International Writing Program. Lucky Men Iowa Writes When your star is unseen in this desolate sky,
your despair itself becomes a star.

My twin, the steadfast sun, and I
both grasp its far-flung brilliance.

* * * *

In a land where water is locked up
in the very depths of desiccated rocks,
the trees are ashamed of their wizened fruits.

The honest orchard is laid waste—
such a bloodied carpet
is spread before the future.

* * * *

Yesterday, leaning on my cane,
I returned from the trees’ cremation.

Today, I search the ashes
for my lost, homeless phoenix.

Perhaps it was you who shadowed me,
perhaps it was only my shadow.

Even though the lucky men in my land
lack stars in the heavens, lack shadows on the earth

they welcome any stars
that grace their devastated sky.

O, my friend, my only friend,
turn your anguish into constellations!


Peshawar City
November, 2002

Translated from the Dari by Sarah Maguire and Yama Yari 2006-10-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=777 Jose Eugenio Sanchez José Eugenio Sánchez, an award-winning poet from Monterrey, Mexico, is participating in the 2006 International Writing Program at the University of Iowa. MY LANDLADIES Iowa Writes although the three are unmarried,
the youngest is 62,

they requested no references:
one told me I looked
like christ.

I hope the day does not come
when they ask me to fix the door
the flyswatter the shower

I can already imagine myself
with a wrench going into the bathroom
witness to a sad and painful tragedy:

a woman with dust rag skin
and soapy hair saying:
come here little boy,
or if you're afraid of the water
let's go to the bedroom,
just pass me the walking stick,
you can hit me with it.


Translation from the Spanish by Indran Amirthanayagam 2006-10-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=776 Elias Simpson Elias Simpson grew up in Ames, Iowa, and recently finished his first year at the University of Iowa: "I hope to continue writing, although there is a great possibility of distraction." His majors are English and French. Processions Iowa Writes The ocean comprehends sea turtles,
its gnawing waves accept them.
I would turn out my velvet pockets,
but turtles only bawl for water.

Climbing gray grass mountains
spider ears reflect a streetlight glare,
scrambling in eight directions as my fingers ladle one,
I clasp it in my hands, and push air in whisper—

Window men click sharply into line,
hidden in stained suspenders and masked by squeegees.
Black tires splash in mud-tinted potholes;
birds mutter mob-like ploys behind an empty park.

A ripple leaps from dented trash lids onto drainpipes,
my head rotates and heels angle pivots the same.
The trees are forging a path, moonless and fortified.
There is a smell of water: a long walk home. 2006-10-31 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=778 Kodi Scheer Kodi Scheer, an Iowa native, received her B.A. in Literature, Science, and the Arts from the University of Iowa. She is currently a Colby fellow in the M.F.A. program at the University of Michigan. "Three Minutes" is based on her experiences as a research assistant in neurology at the University of Iowa Hospitals and Clinics. Three Minutes Iowa Writes A light dusting of snow covers the playground adjacent to the emergency room. In the six months I've worked here, I've never seen children playing—just an old man smoking a Marlboro on the blue swingset. Maybe the cancer kids are too weak to run around and play.

I begin my day on the second floor in Neurology. Since I work in research, I test subjects who've experienced some kind of brain injury: stroke, head trauma, encephalitis. Today I'll be seeing Elizabeth J., a forty-two-year old woman with severe amnesia. She was normal for the first three decades of her life, until she developed herpes simplex encephalitis, a rare type of brain infection. Her file says she has a working memory of approximately three minutes.

When I greet her geriatric parents in the waiting room, they want to take a picture of Elizabeth and me, so maybe she'll remember me when they come back next year. Elizabeth smiles, the Polaroid camera clicks, and Mrs. J. shakes the photograph. If Liz has to go to the bathroom, Mrs. J. says, go with her and stand outside the door because she won't remember where she is.

I lead Elizabeth to a testing room, my office really, a plain room with two desks, two chairs, and two fluorescent lights. Thick neuroscience books line the overhead shelves. There's a shaded window with a view of more windows and a small courtyard below. I begin with some preliminary questions.

"What year is it, Elizabeth?"

"1991? I have to warn you, my memory is very bad." Elizabeth fidgets with the buttons on her pale green cardigan. Her champagne blond hair is bobbed. I wonder if her mother takes her to the salon and specifies the haircut.

"Where are we?"

"A hospital?"

"Can you be more specific about city and state?"

"Illinois somewhere? This hospital looks nice, so maybe Chicago." Her parents live in central Illinois, and they drive here for her annual research visits. To Elizabeth, it doesn't matter—she could be in any hospital. It happens to be the largest teaching hospital in the world, with excellent patient care and groundbreaking research. But there's nothing we can do for her.

"Who's the president?" I say.

"George Bush, I think," Elizabeth says. She studies my white coat. "Doctor, your hair is very pretty."

"Thank you," I blush, "but I'm not a doctor. Please, call me Kodi."

"Okay," she says. Her memory problems point to a damaged hippocampus, a small part of the brain shaped like a seahorse. Scientists believe the hippocampus helps us learn new information and make permanent records of it. There's no clinical treatment for Elizabeth's condition.

"How have you been feeling?" I ask.

"I'm well. Sometimes I get anxious because I can't remember anything. I won't even remember this conversation. Ask me questions faster."

"What have you been up to? Any hobbies?"

"Oh, I don't know. Next question." Elizabeth glances out the window. The snow falls in heavy flakes, drifting to the ground.

"Can you think of anything you like to do in your free time?"

"Oh, yes," she straightens in her chair, "I like to play the piano. I play in recitals sometimes." She hums a tune I'm not familiar with and plays an imaginary piano. Her fingers are agile.

I realize I've forgotten a data sheet in another testing room. Since I can't continue without it, I have to leave. Three minutes, I remind myself.

"I'll be right back, Elizabeth," I say. "One minute."

"Be quick," she says.

When I return with the paperwork, she doesn't recognize me. I'd taken too long—the file cabinet had been locked and I had to track down the key. I've failed her. I wonder where she is now, in any hospital, any doctor's office. The place you go to get better.

"Hello, Doctor," she says. "I'm Elizabeth."

"Hi. I'm Kodi."

"Nice to meet you. I have to warn you, my memory is very bad." She begins to hum the same melody, the song I couldn't place, but that I now recognize.

We finish testing about two hours later. For Elizabeth, that's one hundred twenty minutes, forty new beginnings, or maybe forty lifetimes. We return to the waiting room and I tell Elizabeth's parents about the grand piano in the lobby. They're thrilled.

I stand near the railing on the second floor to watch. Elizabeth sits down to the piano and plays the song with gusto, never faltering. She remembers every note. 2006-11-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=781 Toby Dimmitt Toby Dimmitt, who graduated from the University of Iowa in May 2006, writes, "Soy de Fairfield, IA . . . Soy muy curioso y me gusta encontrar y aprender nuevas cosas que me hacen crecer intelectual y espiritualmente.  Especialmente me gusta hacer ejercicio, leer, pasar tiempo con mi familia, los amigos y estar al aire libre.  Quiero en el futuro viajar y siempre estar contento conmigo mismo."

"El cisne negro" appeared originally in second volume of NOSOTROS, a chapbook of creative work in Spanish produced each semester by Roberto Ampuero's class Taller de Escritura Creativa (35:108).  Roberto Ampuero is a lecturer in the UI Department of Spanish and Portugeuse and the internationally published author of nine novels.
El cisne negro Iowa Writes En un pueblo pequeńo y pobre hay un chico que lucha contra todo en su vida.  Él es bajo, y huesudo con ojos curiosos, pero solemnes.  No tiene amigos tampoco.  No importa la fuerza con que el chico trata de hacer las cosas,  parece que él siempre falla.
        -  ˇSi quieres ser un estudiante bueno, estudia!
        -  Seńora, yo estudié tres horas.
      Suena la campana del receso y todos los estudiantes corren delante del chico y por la puerta una nube de polvo a través del piso viejo de madera.  Él se arrastra lentamente detrás del grupo.  En el patio de recreo, el viento sopla por los árboles y crea un gemido a lo lejos. Se puede probar el sabor terroso del polvo en la boca.  No ha llovido por un mes.
      -  Tal vez me permitirán jugar con ellos - piensa el chico.
      -  ˇżPuedo jugar?! - grita al grupo que juega fútbol.
      - żSi quieres la bola en tu cara, otra vez?…si, está bien - responde el mejor y más popular de los jugadores.
      Él es el jugador más vigoroso pero no logra nada, como es usual.  Cae tres veces y queda con la nariz sangrienta.  Por el rabillo de su ojo él ve algo en el cielo.
      - ˇMira, mira! - grita el chico apuntando al cielo.
      - ˇEs el cisne negro!
      Todos paran inmediatamente y miran hacia el cielo.  Reina la tranquilidad sobre todo, salvo el sonido del aleteo de las alas del mítico cisne negro mientras él vuela encima de las cabezas de los chicos.
      La leyenda del pueblo dice que el primero que toca la pluma del cisne negro siempre tendrá madera para el fuego y ropas para cubrir su espalda.
      Mientras el cisne negro desaparece en la distancia, una pluma cae lentamente por el cielo encima de los jugadores.  Todavía no hay viento.  Todos miran asombrados.  El mejor y más popular jugador empieza a correr primero, y el resto lo sigue con furia.  El chico corre también, pero inmediatamente cae en el grupo cerrado, luchando por coger la pluma.
      La pluma se acerca y los brazos se alzan para cogerla.  Pero la pluma con su densidad liviana se balancea con la circulación del aire de la tormenta de todos los brazos que sacuden el aire.  Pasa por los brazos del grupo, por las piernas y aterriza en la cara del chico que está inconsciente.  Todos se calman y miran la pluma en la cara del chico huesudo. 2006-11-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=783 Grace Van Voorhis Grace Van Voorhis writes, "Soy un estudiante de Washington University en St. Louis, donde estudio relaciones internacionales.  Tomé la clase Taller de escritura creativa con el maravilloso Profesor Ampuero durante mi cuarto ano del colegio porque quería explorar mi imaginación escribiendo en espańol, una lengua que me ama mucho."

"Las palabras vacías" appeared originally in second volume of NOSOTROS, a chapbook of creative work in Spanish produced each semester by Roberto Ampuero's class Taller de Escritura Creativa (35:108).  Roberto Ampuero is a lecturer in the UI Department of Spanish and Portuguese and the internationally published author of nine novels. Las palabras vacías Iowa Writes Esta mańana, el sacerdote leyó unos versos familiares de la Biblia,y, por primera vez en mis diecisiete ańos, no sentí nada. Absolutamente nada.  Antes de hoy, el sacerdote siempre me había parecido fuerte y sabio, pero hoy me pareció débil e inseguro.  Sus palabras sonaron quebradizas, huecas, metálicas, pero mi madre estaba asintiendo con la cabeza después de cada verso, e hizo la seńal de la cruz esporádicamente.  Ella estaba al lado de la tumba nueva de mi hermano menor, cogiendo mi mano.  Miré fijamente la tumba y después a mi madre, y derramé solamente dos lágrimas debajo de mi velo negro: una por la pérdida de mi hermano, y otra por la pérdida de la fe que tuve durante mi nińez.
      Cada noche de mi vida desde que aprendí a leer, había leído unas páginas de mi Biblia usada.  Y cuando era demasiado joven para leer, mi madre me había leído a mi cuentos como "David y Goliat,"  "Jonás y la ballena," y "El arca de Noé."  Ella siempre dijo:
        - Las palabras de Dios nutren el espíritu para que nunca tengas hambre.
        Mi familia no tenía mucho, pero tenía la protección de Dios. Pero . . . żLa protección?  Mi hermano está muerto.  Solamente tenía once ańos, era apenas un bebé, y ya está muerto.  żCómo puedo creer en este impostor?  żCómo, cómo?  Se dice que las personas de fe no tienen preguntas, que son los sujetos del rey y nada más.  Pero ahora yo sé que la fe es una fabricación  para obstruir la realidad cruel: que no hay "un plan divino," que nuestras vidas son simplemente casualidades.
      Pero hice la seńal de la cruz con mis manos entumecidas.  Tuve que fingir para mi madre, porque nunca me entendería si le dijera la verdad.  Ella siempre dijo:
    - No le di mucho a mis hijos, pero les di la fe impenetrable.
    Pero la vida brutal la había penetrado.  Con cada pala llena de tierra, el sacerdote enterró no solamente a mi hermanito sino también, mi fe.  Y ahora, żqué tengo yo? 2006-11-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=784 Douglas Trevor Douglas Trevor is an Associate Professor of English at the University of Iowa. His fiction has been anthologized in The Best American Nonrequired Reading 2005 and The O. Henry Prize Stories 2006. "Fellowship of the Bereaved" is the final story in The Thin Tear of the Fabric of Space (University of Iowa Press, 2005).

Established in 1969 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a range of titles for general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated in part to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region. From "Fellowship of the Bereaved" Iowa Writes Jared drove home cautiously, through the familiar streets of his childhood. He didn't have a car in Boston and figured he hadn't driven in the snow since high school. He checked his watch. It was barely eleven o'clock.
      Having someone in your family die prematurely ushered you into the fellowship of the bereaved, Jared thought. People who had not similarly suffered stayed away from this fellowship as best they could because they didn't know what to say to a person grieving. But in fact, the horrible truth was that the people within this fellowship didn't know what to say to one another either; each mourner was consumed by his or her own grief, so the group of sufferers that wandered through the social world like emotional lepers wasn't a group at all; it was just made up of crippled people, none of whom could help anyone else.
      After Ann died, Jared filled his apartment in Boston with plants: ficuses, ferns, hoyas, bromeliads, and other houseplants that he couldn't even identify. He bought the plants at Bread and Circus, the upscale grocery store two blocks from his apartment, and carried them back one at a time. He didn't know how to care for plants and systematically over-watered every one of them but that didn't stop him; he kept on buying them, stubbornly waiting for the little greenery they provided to make him feel better.
      After Ann died, Jared also began to stockpile nonperishables: detergent, trash bags, canned foods. He had never cared for beans but he bought dozens of different kinds. He filled the once empty cupboards of his kitchen with boxes of coffee filters, family sized packs of paper towels, liters of olive oil. He didn't know what he was doing. He wasn't aware that he was afraid to go outside, where people died.
      He became accident phobic. He worried about slipping in the shower, or electrocuting himself somehow—by mishandling the coffee maker, for example, or the toaster. At the same time he felt so cautious and paranoid, he also wanted to die, or at least he thought he did, so he came up with complicated suicide plans, like the one involving his laundry bag and a first edition of Biathanatos that he had mentioned to Dave earlier in the evening.
        Stopped at a light, Jared watched a man carefully cross in front of him, balancing a pie tin in his arms. Living, breathing, keeping our hearts beating, our fingernails growing: we'll do anything to stay alive, Jared thought. We'll say goodbye to our favorite people and go on with our mundane routines because we want so fiercely to fill our lungs with air. In the face of death, we become greedy for life: selfish and hoarding. When he considered how tightly he had held on since Ann died he was filled with self-disgust and considered for a moment steering his father's car sharply to the right, into a storefront on Downing Street. But I'll never do that, he said to himself, and that's pathetic. To hold onto life like this . . . it isn't right. I should be dead. I want to be dead, but I'm too weak to do anything about it.
      His eyes filled with tears. At the corner of Seventh Avenue, just a few blocks from home, he thought of the time—during a snowstorm—when Ann had taken him out in the old Buick and they had done donuts in the Safeway parking lot. It was unlike her to be so reckless, but it was like her too, to be silly and fun. I'll never be able to describe her to people who didn't know her, he realized. To them, she will never seem real. To them, she will always be my dead sister. 2006-11-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=785 Kerry Egan Kerry Egan grew up in Long Island, New York, and received her B.A. from Washington and Lee University and her master's of divinity from Harvard University Divinity School. A year after her father died, she walked through northern Spain on a medieval pilgrimage road called the Camino de Santiago. Fumbling is the journal of her experiences.
from Chapter 23 of Fumbling Iowa Writes In a small town on the end of the meseta after León but before the mountains separating the plains from Galicia, an ATM machine ate Alex's bank card. It would not give him any cash, but neither would it give him a receipt explaining what was going on, or most upsetting, his card. The screen simply flashed an error warning and then went blank.
        "Huh. Lumpy, you'll have to go in there and tell them their machine ate my card."
        "Why do I have to go in there?"
        "Because you're a girl, and people always pay more attention to girls. And you're much more charming than me. People always like you better."
        "I don't want to go in there. Besides, it's your card and your account so you have to talk to them."
        "I don't speak Spanish. Come on Lumpy . . ." Alex started wheedling.
        "Uggh. Fine."
        When I approached the teller, hunched over a ledger printout, he said there was nothing he could do to help me. I went back outside into the bank lobby, where Alex waited in front of the machine, and told him the bad news.
        "That's ridiculous. We need the card if we want to eat for the rest of the trip. It's not like it fell down a volcano. They just have to open the machine and get it. Go back in there and ask to speak to the manager."
        Why couldn't Alex just do this himself? Why do I always have to be the one to deal with strangers? Why do I always have to be the one to pay the pizza delivery guy or tell the cabbie where to go? Why do I have to be the one to talk to the bank manager? But I went in and asked to speak with him. He politely listened to the problem, and then said he was too busy to do anything about it, and shooed me away with the back of his hand, as though wiping crumbs from a table. He went back to his reading. Back in the lobby, I told Alex.
        "What's he doing?"
        "Umm, it looked like he was reading."
        "Oh, but he can't come out here for thirty seconds and give me back my card, a card that his machine swallowed with no provocation or reason? Tell him we're not leaving till I get my damned card."
        I sighed and walked back into the bank. Before I could even get the manager's attention, though, a ruckus erupted from the lobby. Alex was bludgeoning the ATM machine with his fists.
        "What! What is going on?" The manager jumped from his desk and, with clenched fists and arms straight down by his sides, strode out. I followed.
        "What are you doing? What is he doing?" The manager yelled at me and pointed at Alex as if Alex was my dog.
        "Alex, what are you doing?" I asked.
Alex started kicking the machine with his heavy boots like an unruly but determined toddler. "I'm getting my card," he said.
        "He's trying to get his card," I reported to the manager.
        "Tell him to stop this!" the manager said, jabbing his finger at Alex so I would relay the message as quickly as possible.
        "Alex, stop this!" I said to Alex.
        "Not till I get my card. Tell him I'll stop when I get my card.  Gimme my card!" Alex kicked and smacked the console even harder. I could see by the tightly repressed smile breaking out in the corners of his lips that he was enjoying this completely. All of the tellers stood up to watch him, apparently afraid a robbery was in progress.
        "He just wants his card back," I said to the manager.
        The manager started yelling at Alex in Spanish. Alex started yelling back in English. As far as I could tell, their entire conversation consisted mostly of curse words, but they seemed to understand each other. I backed away and stood in the doorway between the bank and the lobby. Everyone inside was now staring and pointing at me, though I wasn't doing anything. I smiled meekly. After a final flurry of yelling and banging, the manager threw up his hands, pulled a key from his pocket, and handed Alex his ATM card. It took him less than five seconds. Then the manager stormed back into the bank, shooting me a dirty look as he passed.
      "Alex, I can't believe you did that," I said, waving at the people in the bank as if this would somehow calm everyone down.
      Alex was wearing the little smirk he gets when he is particularly pleased with himself. He said, "I was just getting their attention. I knew they'd pay attention to us if they thought we would cost them money." I stared at him. He kept talking, sort of a corollary to my calming wave. "That's basically what I did all day as a lawyer, only on paper."

Copyright (c) 2004 by Kerry Egan.  From the book Fumbling by Kerry Egan, published by Doubleday, a division of Random House, Inc. Reprinted with permission. 2006-11-10 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=786 Margalea Warner Margalea Warner is a writer of poetry and essays.  She has lived with mental illness since its onset in her early twenties, and themes of suffering, loss, recovery, faith, and joy run through her writings. She has had poems and essays published in small magazines.

The Patient Voice Project offers free creative writing classes for the chronically and mentally ill in the Iowa City community, taught by Master of Fine Arts students in the Writers' Workshop. The ambition of the program is to explore the therapeutic benefits of writing for those struggling with chronic, mental, and physical pain, to address what medical sociologist Arthur Frank calls the "narrative wreckage" caused by serious injury or illness. She is Still Red Iowa Writes My mom was red.
She had pale skin, wore red lipstick.
I have a snapshot of her wearing a red hooded coat
In the snow.
She smoked Camel cigarettes
Lit them with a flash of red fire.
I remember the red smell
When she would smoke after supper
and she would tell me stories
about when she was little
and her aunts sent her to the store to buy their cigs
(they were flappers in the 20s—they probably wore red).

Once at the table she said,
At work today I had to fire a girl.
I gasped, No!
Before she could explain it
I pictured the girl's hair catching fire
And then her clothes…
There were times Mom was angry enough
You'd figure she could do it—
Slamming cupboard doors,
Throwing a perfume bottle at a bat
(it killed him)
Leaving my father when I was 13
Saying, "Get off my back!"

She was warm red too.
Between me and my brother and her
We have a code word
"Rhooger!" which means
I want to hold you in a warm red hug.
I still have her furry red bathrobe
I bury my face in it when I miss her.

I have her crystal hanging in my window
Casting rainbows on the wall
She is still red. 2006-11-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=790 Isaac Sullivan Isaac Sullivan is a recent graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop. His poems have appeared in GutCult, POOL: A Journal of Poetry, Georgetown Review, Mustachioed, Kulture Vulture, and elsewhere. music inhibits by order Iowa Writes focus argues
that the eyes themselves
protect their discretion,
attention a governance
of force & rest.
the relationship
between employer & employee
could be seen as
paternalistic or even
feudal. though force was able
to center the power of service,
still as union, many
corporations heat entry
as form is perceived—
music inhibits by order.
accordingly this crease
rests in its wake,
a successor of the hand's
inevitable violation,
a concentration of voice.
this prone action
can become a forum
of extended negotiation.
we do & are dealt
well beyond spread
a number a voice
I close in a way to hold
and held I may unify
and project to one side
of the spectrum, a part
in the face of a word. 2006-11-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=794 Zack Gauck Zack Gauck is a southerner with no accent, from Cary, North Carolina. In high school he enrolled in Chinese for his foreign language and came to the conclusion that Chinese should be his major in college. He is 21 years old, still watches cartoons, and wishes that he knew ninjitsu.  Most of his furniture was found on the curbside.

"Never Closed" appeared originally in earthwords, the undergraduate literary review at the University of Iowa.  The review's mission is to showcase the creative works of UI undergraduates in literature and the arts, while providing students with an educational experience with the production of a literary magazine. Never Closed Iowa Writes Coffee rings on countertop, shuffle of waitresses’ hips;
Late night workers and cancelled flights—layovers until dawn.
Strange town, stranger diner.
Always open—always serving.

Breakfast here is unaffected by time,
        Eggs, bacon, side of distress.

Waitress one:
Her husband is drunk again, she has that glazed look.
She is surprised you notice—her pen shakes.

Across the room.        Workers
        Flannel-clad, soot blackened palms, they talk nonsense,
                                                    and forget to tip.

A family sits—corner booth.
Cerulean in hand, coloring the sky.
Father: eyes to the table, hair between fingertips, muttering, meditating, feet on luggage ottoman.
Mother: holding daughter close, pigtails lay motionless.

Juke box plays decades. The cook hums along.
He once worked in a factory just outside of town inspecting undergarments.
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His wife left him for a musician, took refuge in a blue-green Volkswagen—Dead Head sticker proudly attached.

The vespertine lights flicker. Out of the grit, Venus sparkles.
Folded newspaper, crimson ‘O’
Wanted: loyal, hardworking individual for third-shift stocking job.

Waitress-two sits curbside, cancer in hand.
Her arms rest on knees—she lets out a smoke infested sigh.
No one to go home to, no one to call.
She took this job so that she might one day leave this place,
The embers glow.
An ash dance.
Puff.

A few dollars tossed near syrup,
Soiled napkin, knife and fork spoon on platter.
The bell jingles,
Continue on. 2006-11-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=793 Matt Austin Matt Austin is a undergraduate at the University of Iowa. Of his process he says, "it is highly ritualistic, usually involving some sort of sacrifice similar to the one in the movie Dragnet with Tom Hanks and that other guy."  He currently lives in Iowa City.

"The So-Called Nazi at the Last Supper" appeared originally in earthwords, the undergraduate literary review at the University of Iowa.  The review's mission is to showcase the creative works of UI undergraduates in literature and the arts, while providing students with an educational experience with the production of a literary magazine. The So-Called Nazi at the Last Supper Iowa Writes I regret the fact that you said
I look like a child molester
with my round face and my fly away hair.
But that’s what a Führer would be
without an umlaut.

We finished our stale beer
and tried to not think about the future.
Not about the war, not about the inoculations.
You asked about growing CFC emissions
and I replied the insurgents would be happy
to find you dead. 2006-11-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=796 Julie Claus Julie Claus had a vagabond childhood. The simple question, "Where are you from?" created panic in her soul because she attended eleven different elementary schools in seven states. Now the answer is clear. She's lived in Coralville, Iowa for twenty-two years. She wrote this poem at the Coralville pool. Divers Iowa Writes Waiting in line for the low
board with arms crossed
across cold chests and chain link
shadows crisscrossing sunburned backs,
a school of boys marvels at the bravado of the high
diver.

My son stands on the edge
watching a chain link of light
blue light tread water. He holds
his hands in a pyramid above his head.
High above him Icarus starts a suicide
dive. He rolls onto the balls of his toes
runs the full length at full
speed hits the end and

he’s an X in the air

arms and legs splayed open until he draws
knees and elbows to his chest, clenches
his fists in front of his face
and sinks like a little boy’s stomach.

My son turns and flops belly down
beside me on the concrete. He slaps
his palms in hot puddles
mimicking the rhythm of the resounding
board. Then he rests one cheek flat
against the back of a suntanned hand and falls
asleep. Light catches the pale down
feathering up his spine and melting across his shoulder
blades. High above us
a white line wakes the watery sky. 2006-11-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=799 Kelsey Huston Kelsey Huston is 12 years old and is a seventh grader at Wilson Middle School in Cedar Rapids, Iowa. She is involved in volleyball, basketball, and tennis throughout the year. She also plays alto saxophone in band. She spends her free time writing poems or stories in her room. That Girl Iowa Writes "She has a perfect life"
Everyone says
She does great in school
She is talented
But that is all people see
Because that is all she wants to show
She gets talked about
Even her friends talk rude
She doesn't know who to trust
In fear of getting broken
Her hobbies?
Music, Sports, Friends
That is what people think
Really, her favorite thing
Is to sit in the dark just thinking
How wrong people are
Spreading things they don't know
Did you hear that girl is going out with her best friend?
WRONG!
Did you hear that girl cuts herself?!
WRONG!
One day "that girl" is going to be pushed too far
And the next thing they'll say is
Did you hear that girl killed herself?
They said there was a note saying
She could no longer take it
That would be the only thing
True ever said about her 2006-11-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=800 Tad Richards Tad Richards has an MA from the Iowa Workshop (1963) and remains spiritually connected to those roots. His poem about Donald Justice was included in The Iowa Review's tribute issue. Tad Richards's website www.opus40.org The Dead Iowa Writes The dead may not be as dead as you think they are.
Or perhaps you don’t think that at all, or 
have never thought about it. In any case,
it doesn’t matter to the dead. They’re not ruled
by how you think, though you may be ruled by them, in ways
you may not have thought possible. Or maybe
it’s your dog who rules you, won’t let you go on
with your poem until you’ve scratched her head, and
behind her ears. Now which is preferable, as a 
sovereign, that is, your dog, or the dead? Either way,
you’re not going to get the poem done, and at least the dead
may know things you can use once you get back to it,
but so may your dog, who may in fact be the dead,
reincarnated, if only the soul of your last dog. 2006-11-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=801 Gerald Wickham Gerald Wickham writes, “I am an adoptee of the state of Iowa from Ireland, and I believe in Iowa wholeheartedly.” He is associate director of internships at the Pomerantz Career Center at the University of Iowa. Ode to Irish Cows Iowa Writes It’s not the salt in the butter,
The heat of the currant scone
Or even the melted and the melting.
It’s not the strawberries or sugar
Garbled in cream,
Nor rolling new potatoes --
Translucent skin, lathered and steamy.
Not whiskey in the coffee
With protestant collar.
Crumble of cheddar,
Autumn moon with bite
Isn’t it either.
Not dimpled peas sinking a knob,
Nah, not knots of blackberries folded in yogurt.
 
It’s the cows, 
Their sober, shock-eyed trundling
And genius use of Atlantic rain,
Irish grass. 2006-11-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=802 Claudine Harris Claudine Harris has a lifelong interest in creative expression through language  and the arts. A retired technical writer from University of Iowa Hospitals and past president of NAMI-Iowa, she works in poetry, personal essays, and photography. Her work often reflects her early training in physics and love of nature. This piece was written following attendance at Armando Duarte's "Ten" a few years ago. SPACE TIME DANCE Iowa Writes Steaming evening
of an Iowa July, dancers
fill the stage at North Hall,
legs, arms, and torsos
forming architectural shapes,
space in motion,
a city made of bodies
like glass towers lit by the sun,
buildings jumping to the sky.

Brazilian music breathes
through flowing limbs
reaching away to and from
each other making a human
three-dimensional mosaic—suddenly
dissolving the precise harmony
of their pose, disordered now
in the disharmony of arms and legs
and the disharmony of sound.

Space is defined in front of us
in the hot night, always evolving
like the fields of Iowa
along the Interstate,
unchanging space—and yet
in time dissimilar—
brown fields and stubble,
frozen whiteness unmoving, waiting
for the faintest green blush
of young corn glowing
between fence rows, where
the land rises imperceptibly,
and black calves dot the hillsides
catching light on their backs.

The fields of Iowa
do a slow motion dance. 2006-11-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=805 Katherine McLeod Searle Katherine McLeod Searle received a BA in English in 1973 from the University of Iowa. She has been teaching Language Arts at JB Young Intermediate in Davenport for the past 24 years. Generational Decay: Three Women Iowa Writes She liked
to spread it around
the neighborhood.
She didn’t dislike sex—
just having it with her husband.

In addition to her compunction
to take off her clothes,
she drank.

Saturday afternoons
he’d take his daughter
for long rides, the scenery
punctuated by his bilious remarks
about her mother.

She listened well
to the Saturday sermons—
and felt his contempt.
She bought her father’s clumsy
rationalizations.

She didn’t think it odd
that her father promised
to pay for her pre-med education—
then refused to cough up a dime.
Being the dutiful daughter, she simply
changed her major
to home ec. and bitterness.

She didn’t blink an eye
when one of her twin brothers
hanged himself.

Her daughter didn’t think it odd
when she gassed herself
in the attached garage. 2006-11-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=806 Katherine West Katherine West is a native of Creston, Iowa and received her B.A. from University of Northern Iowa (’69). After moving to California with her husband Robert (University of Iowa, ’70), she earned M.A. degrees from California State - San Bernardino and California Lutheran University while teaching secondary English. Let the Sun Shine In Iowa Writes Many of the winters I recall growing up in Creston, Iowa, in the 1950s were brutally cold and resulted in little social interaction between children outside of the classroom. One notable exception was Wednesdays when we donned green Girl Scout uniforms and looked forward to after-school Scout meetings. 

In my third-grade year, it looked as though we would have no leader, but at the eleventh hour Mary Mahoney stepped forward and said she would take the troop. The Mahoney home was well known in the small town for its rather shabby appearance. Broken toys, old lawn mower parts as well as old tires made up the outside décor. The preceding year a goat had appeared fettered to a tree in an apparent attempt to trim the grass.

It soon became apparent that Mary Mahoney had no more idea what to do with us than we ourselves did. She greeted us every meeting day as if she were a little surprised to see us. As unprepared as Mary always seemed to be on our arrival, she nevertheless exceeded our expectations. When we expressed a desire to earn a cooking badge, Mary turned us loose in her kitchen to make “Girl Scout Soup with Dumplings.” We managed to coat ourselves and everything else with flour, scorch several pans, and turn out a rather lumpy tomato soup with doughy blobs. We pulled taffy one day in the fall and managed to attach it to every wall in the house; we threw popcorn at each other instead of making the popcorn balls we were supposed to create. Mary joined in, laughing with us and then turned the two spotted hounds loose in the house to clean up the mess. Another time she handed us all nails and hammers and told us to practice hammering on some boards she had dragged up from the basement. She said we might need to know how to drive a nail someday. Then she had us remove all the nails with the claw end of the hammer. Her husband Mick wandered in and asked for the boards. He had been thinking about building a lean-to for that goat. When he saw what we were doing, he just grinned and told Mary to let him know when we were done. 

The best day at Mary’s house, however, was one January afternoon when Mary greeted us with a surprised little, “Oh…hi girls!” as if we had just spontaneously dropped by. When we entered the tiny living room we were shocked to find the carpet rolled up and the room empty of furniture. She explained she was just getting ready to paint and added, “Why don’t you girls do some painting first?” She pulled out several brushes and from somewhere located several small cans of various colors of paint. One by one we began to shyly dab a bit of blue, yellow, green and orange on the wall. After all, we had been taught all our lives NOT to paint or color on the walls. “Oh NO!” she yelled and we all cowered. “I mean, PAINT! Wide sweeps! Come on now, BIG rainbows!” We quickly got into the mood and, to the tune of KSIB’s Rocking Radio Hour, painted that living room a bright collage of colors. Huge arcs of orange and greens spanned the walls with trees and a bright yellow sun peeking out of the corner. All the Scout uniforms sported flecks of paint from that meeting on, and we wore them proudly, almost as if they were another badge we had earned. 

Mary taught us a lot that year about enjoying life when you have very little to work with. She taught us to stretch our boundaries and that good memories outlive concerns about mundane matters. 

When we sat in Mary’s house during subsequent meetings, I sometimes noticed a splotch of yellow bleeding through the neutral color of the walls, as if the sun were smiling through at us. These days, when I feel restricted by constraints and expectations, I think of Mary urging thirteen third-grade girls to paint huge rainbows across her walls, and I think about that sun bleeding through and smile. 2006-12-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=812 Sarah Shey Sarah Shey writes, “A native of Algona, Iowa, I now live in Brooklyn, NY. I travel back often, though, especially because I want my three-year-old son to know the rural way of life. I have written two Iowa-based children's books, Sky All Around and Blue Lake Days.” The Only Thing Constant Iowa Writes A line of pickup trucks, second-hand cars, and a motorcycle headed west on Highway 18, a two-lane road that sliced through field after field, simmering in the summer’s heat. We met only one town ten miles into the journey. It was passed by, as was a Catholic cemetery, a farmhouse here, a farmhouse there, a singular grove of trees popped up like a preacher without a congregation. We did not notice what we had always seen. 

It was July 1989. My friends and I were farmer-tanned, farmer-freckled, and farmer-burnt. We could drive, we could spend the evening the way we wanted and, soon, we would leave for the great beyond. We were the same in our blank, hopeful states, enjoying the togetherness that came with our upgraded status as high school graduates. At that moment, in that summer, we had perspective for our age: we already knew we were someone. We didn’t need a college degree to tell us that.

Into a modest farmyard we turned. Engines were cut off. Doors opened and closed. A basketball thudded against the side of the barn. A pig snorted. A few shouted hello. Someone giggled. The air smelled fertile: perspiring pigs, baking dirt, staid manure. No one had worried about being fashionably late, whatever that meant. We were eager to be with each other. We had no reason to hide the anticipation we felt. There were no strangers here. Our faces tilted upward, open and unmasked. 

A keg had been placed on the patio outside, along with plastic cups; Mark Elbert’s parents were out of town. People huddled around the keg like it was a fire and they hoped to keep warm. The sun flushed the sky with fruit colors and then everything went black. Only house lamps and a yardlight dented the darkness of the countryside. No one thought to look up, to see stars that people in cities traveled to see. No one thought to consider that the evening would not be repeated, for we would all be changed in a year’s time, wouldn't we? It was the only thing constant. Or so my father always said. 2006-12-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=815 Andy Douglas Andy Douglas is a graduate of the Nonfiction Writing Program at the University of Iowa. He lives in Iowa City. Articles of Faith Iowa Writes Big-boned women in flower print dresses and pill-box hats rise spontaneously from their pews. Great urns of magnolia and iris radiate splashes of color across the dais. A dark-suited man booms music from somewhere deep in his chest.
      The speaker is on a roll, wiping evangelical sweat from his brow. He’s praising the Lord. He’s telling stories.
      “Thomas had tremendous gifts. He had a generosity of spirit.”

      Most African-Americans in this insular Iowa town are descendants of those who came to work in the meat-packing plant. Many of them live beneath a railroad trestle in a section of town known as “the flats.” There are racial fights at the high school.
      Thomas lived uptown. He directed his church music program, mentored youth, and did community organizing, gliding effortlessly through his days in his wingtip shoes, crisply ironed denim pants and cashmere sweaters.

      “Thomas had a special quality,” the speaker says. “Let’s not forget what happened with Sister Oates...”
      Cries of “Amen” ricochet through the sanctuary.
      I lean forward in my pew. Thomas told that story to me himself only weeks before he died.

      The hospital room resembled a florist’s shop, flooded with get-well cards and shiny Mylar balloons. Thomas lay propped on his bed, looking out of place in the frumpy hospital gown.
      Seeing how thin he had become worried me. But Thomas was upbeat about his chances.
      “I know I’m going to beat this thing,” he told me. “Listen. A few years back, at a revival, there was a woman who was lame. We were feeling the spirit, you know, and something just came over me.”
      “I decided to wash her feet. So I did, and then I laid my hands on her,” he said quietly. “And believe it or not, that woman rose up and walked.”
      I stared at him, at a loss for words. The story was not easy to come to terms with. But I trusted Thomas, and so, after the initial shock, I believed. Besides, here was evidence of a relationship with God that might see him through this illness. That was something worth believing in.

      The eulogist continues: “Thomas loved people. He knew that love was what kept things going.”
      The mention of love raises an unvoiced question. For all the recognition of Thomas’s spirituality, his character, there is a part of him not being acknowledged here today.

      One evening months earlier Thomas and I sat in his antique-furnished drawing room. A fringed lamp cast a soft glow over the room. We had recently become friends, and as he was always happy to talk about clothes, I had asked for advice.
      He flipped carelessly through the pages of slick men’s magazines, pointing out styles he appreciated.
      “You can go a long way with a good pair of jeans, a long way,” he said.
      Then, coming upon a particular article, he let the page fall open on the floor. A young man in uniform stared unashamedly into the camera’s eye, next to an article entitled “The Gay Marine.”
      Lingering over this page, he looked pointedly at me for a moment. I was a little slow on the uptake, but then it dawned that he was trying to tell me something.



      Being black in a conservative town had to be difficult. To come out as gay would have complicated things immeasurably.
      Traditionally the African-American church had come down hard on homosexuality, portraying it as a particularly odious sin. I suspect that Thomas’s church would not have supported this side of him, despite his position of leadership there. Perhaps his life had been one long tango between the poles of self-assured expression and guarded restraint.
      Thomas was not coming on to me that evening. He was simply using a chance juxtaposition of images and text to tell me something critical about himself. He was showing faith in me.

      The congregants break into song: “There is power, power, wonder-working power....”     

      A month after he told me about Sister Oates, Thomas died.
      I was left with grief, and vague misgivings. How much strength does it take, I wondered, to keep a secret? 2006-12-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=817 Ashley Capps Ashley Capps received her MFA from the University of Iowa. Her first book, Mistaking the Sea for Green Fields, is forthcoming in October 2006. “Hymn for Two Choirs” first appeared in the Fall 2006 issue of The Iowa Review. Hymn for Two Choirs Iowa Writes Best apple I ever had was three o’clock
in the morning, somewhere outside
San Francisco, beach camping, stars holding
the sky together like sutures. I was thinking
how I was going to get old and ask myself
why did I only live for one thing;
at the same time I didn’t know how to change.
I thought I felt like my neighbor’s huge dog—
every day stuffed into a small man’s green T-shirt
and chained to a stake in a yard of incongruous
white tulips. Here and there a red bird, a train.
Way down the beach other tents glowed orange.
I heard a stranger call my name
and another stranger, laughing, answered. 2006-12-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=820 Juan Ramon Jimenez Spanish poet Juan Ramón Jiménez (1881–1958) received the Nobel Prize for Literature in 1956. Michael Carey farms in southwest Iowa near the town of Farragut. He is the author of a teaching manual and five books of poetry. “The Little Green Girl” first appeared in the Fall 2006 issue of The Iowa Review. The Little Green Girl translated by Michael Carey Iowa Writes The little girl is green.
She has green eyes, green hair.

She comes through the green air
(and the earth turns green).

Her tiny wild rose
isn’t pink or white. It’s green.

Her sheer shining slip
isn’t blue or white. It’s green.

She comes over the green sea
(and the sky turns green).

My life will always open
a little green door for her. 2006-12-10 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=821 Julie Hanson Julie Hanson moved to Cedar Rapids in 1978, earned an M.A. and M.F.A. at the University of Iowa, and never moved away. She has poems in recent issues of Meridian and Great River Review, new work coming in Fulcrum and 32 Poems. Flow Iowa Writes I like the bare feet, the cotton knit crop pants and simple
        sleeveless tee,
I like unrolling the mat with a snap of the wrists, whipping it out on the
      floor
      like a frog hurling out its tongue down on the pond in the mist.
I like the dimmed down lighting of the room.
I like the balancing poses like tree and eagle and warrior three
and being reminded of where we fold in half
and the symmetry of every action taken
being taken once again on the other side. And the ujjayi breathing
which enters and exits only through the nose, but does so
audibly, the wave of breath rolling out until all that’s left is the last
uneven edge of it and then how it has to come back.
I like the way I don’t think once about civil litigation
until long after we’ve come out of corpse pose and said namaste.
I like thinking of my hip as a melting block of ice
as I slip deeper into pigeon. I like all these animal names
and the stretch in the back of the legs, and the twists
and the nearly indistinguishable versions of the sun salutation,
and the bridge, the plow, and the face of the cow. I like the mild
          complaints
from the rear of the room, the pleadings for an extra long
        savasana
at the end of the hour. I like feeling that my torso has actually
        lengthened
when I’ve been reminded once again to lengthen it.
I like rolling up my mat and exiting through the revolving door,
surprised by a blast of heat or by the rain, and by the perfect fit
of my shoes and the ease of my gait, and how I slip in and fold
behind the wheel into the driver’s seat like a thin young thing:
My organs are surely glistening. This car was made for me. 2006-12-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=823 Adrienne Lamberti Dr. Adrienne Lamberti is a former farm kid and now the Professional and Technical Writing Program Coordinator at the University of Northern Iowa. Dr. Farm Kid Iowa Writes I didn't realize that I was a "farm kid" until I became an academic.

Now, if I said such a thing to an academic scholar, s/he might respond, "Of course not! You couldn't recognize your unique locatedness among oppositional identities until you were equipped with the proper analytical discourse to articulate the boundaries between 'farm kid' and 'academic.'"

A farmer would probably respond, "You don't have much sense, do you?"

But it's true. I didn't realize how much of my family's farm was under my fingernails, until I was a graduate student mewed up in an apartment in the middle of a city.  That's when I learned the most important lesson of my academic career.

Having grown up on one of Iowa's Century Farms, having entered a doctoral program at a university renowned for agriculture scholarship, it made sense that my dissertation would follow suit: A case study about farming. Still, it had been a long stretch between my previous life on our dairy operation and my current student life, and during that time I'd evidently suffered a mild bout of amnesia. Passing muster with classmates from Manhattan, justifying my existence to demanding professors, I forgot where I'd put myself. My chore boots somehow managed to disappear. My colloquialism-peppered chattiness evaporated.

It wasn't until four years into my doctoral work that I came across myself in a cornfield. My dissertation research required criss-crossing Iowa to conduct interviews with farmers, and during one trip I overshot my destination and ended up in Clear Lake—a town so far north that they keep snow gates on their interstate on-ramps. Frustrated, I began to back-track, and it took a while for me to appreciate the journey. As I drove, I passed prosperous farmsteads with buildings painted in the traditional barn red. Posted on many barns were signs in support of Tom Latham, a Republican congressional candidate, a notable difference from the Democratic leanings of the southern Iowa farmers I'd interviewed. By the end of the trip, I realized that getting lost in the familiar world of farming had been good for me. I'd been reconnected with the fields, the crops, the people.

Fields, crops, and folks: these were the hearts that beat during my research interviews—not the methodology, the surveys, the data validation techniques that were common entities in my academic life. Try as I might to be the Serious Scholar, whenever I sat down with a farmer we'd end up discussing the rainfall and the efficacy of Roundup Ready beans. He'd tell me the story of how his neighbor wrecked a tractor. I'd tell him the story of how my uncle lost a finger to the haybaler. It was gratifying to watch as my tales about bad weather and barn cats worked their magic, and an initially reserved farmer would relax, less suspicious of the academic with her notepad and tape recorder and Human Subject Release forms.

One farmer, particularly unsettled during our interview, kept nervously petting his dog. Finally, I stopped asking my research questions and instead asked about Guinness. "Is he a lab?" I inquired. "We have a lab mix at our place, but he keeps running off.  How do you keep Guinness at home?" Immediately, the farmer began listing detailed instructions on the care and training of a wandering canine.  He then proceeded to discuss the rest of his farm's animal population for almost an hour. I left the interview with pages full of notes and a list of other potential interviewees.

In my academic myopia, I'd entered this man's house, sat at his table, and tried to call the shots. I'd fired interview questions at him in a desperate (and failed) attempt to gather evidence. But the moment I code-switched and became a farm kid again, telling stories and asking for advice, the walls fell and the evidence materialized.

And so I learned the most important lesson of my academic career, miles from any classroom. Rather than schizophrenically compartmentalize the farm kid and role-play a scholar, I quit fighting what came naturally to me and instead allowed my farm background lead me to the data. I let myself talk about the fields, the crops, and the people, and the interviews became more revelatory.

On many levels. 2006-12-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=825 Jerry Harp Jerry Harp's books of poems are Creature (Salt Publishing, 2003), Gatherings (Ashland Poetry Press, 2004), and Urban Flowers, Concrete Plains (Salt Publishing, 2006).  With Jan Weissmiller he co-edited A Poetry Criticism Reader (University of Iowa Press, 2006).  He received his PhD in Renaissance Literature from the University of Iowa in 2002. What Year Iowa Writes Once was a red-ribboned babe.
Once was a tire in the grass.
Once became nightfall and gears melting down.
Lights went back and forth across the river.

Outcroppings turned red in morning light,
And breezes spoke a language of lichen on rock.
Once were freshets churning mud,
A hint of dead fish in the morning air,

Sirens going off, footsteps on gravel and glass,
Dirt falling away like crumbled bread.
An infusion of coffee. Cries in the trees.
Stains like a face on the wine-colored rug.

A voice calls from a back room
About time running down, clicks and ticks
And plastic vials. Bring me back a forgotten
Verse tapping time against windows. 2006-12-16 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=828 Philip MondragŇn Philip Mondragón is a graduate of Cornell College in Mount Vernon and has attended the University of Iowa summer writing program. He has lived in Japan, traveled through Spain extensively, and now resides in Mexico City. In his writing Philip seeks to weave together the geographies, cultures, and concerns of all people. Winter Iowa Writes I miss the golden leaves of fall
And my African older brother
Thomas Lucius Berkley
He was a Man
As men ought to be
And seldom are
I do not miss the pain of life
Replaced in time
With humility and patience and love
And a semblance of wisdom
Across generations
And cultures
From the song of the zentzontle
And the color of jade
And the enervating perfume of flowers
To Oshima and tradition
And the land of Rashomon
To La Dama de Elche
And endless migrations
Across time and space
The Arabs and Jews of Spain
The towers and tears of Granada
Orange blossoms and scents
Andalusia
Tauromaquia
Jerez de la Frontera
The soul and pride of the South
Unamuno from the North
Demanding immortality
Erroneous focus on the self
Resting in the dreams and madness
Of Don Quijote
And now
The virtual world
Of bits and bytes and quantifications
Secularizations and polarizations
Of populations and civilizations
Science and the coming anarchy
Asgard and the runes of knowledge
The Ice Giant comes tomorrow
Who will be here to slay him? 2006-12-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=831 Marilyn Abildskov Marilyn Abildskov has an MFA from the University of Iowa, lives in Berkeley, California, and teaches at Saint Mary’s College in Moraga. The Men in My Country was published by the University of Iowa Press in 2004.

Established in 1938 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a wide variety of titles that will appeal to general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region. from The Men in My Country Iowa Writes It starts as a name, a place, a squiggle on a map. Japan. A country as far away from familiar as familiar can be. I try to imagine the country, what its streets look like, how its air smells. I touch the country on a map, fingering the page of a weathered atlas, spine broken, yellowed pages flying apart. As big as a thumbprint, as small as a canoe. Japan. I like the sound of it.

When my best friend called to say there was a job in Japan, when she asked, did I want to go, I knew I would. I would say yes, I would sign a contract to take me to Japan for the year. The job? To teach at three different junior highs. The town? A medium-sized city in the mountains, someplace called Matsumoto. I had just turned thirty, a watershed year. I would start over that year. I knew I would. I wanted to, I needed to. I didn’t know the difference then between want and need. All I knew is that I had to get away and when I stared at my name on the Japanese contract, the squiggles of katakana, my name typed in English sturdily beneath, I liked how it looked. As if it—as if I—were translated, transformed, emerging now as someone new.

And within a month, I had arrived. Sleeping on tatami mats. Eating rice. Washing blue-and-white bowls. Hanging laundry out on the balcony to dry. I loved the smell of sun-dried shirts and cotton sweaters that carried a hint of wind and earth. A new wind. A new earth. 2006-12-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=833 Carl Klaus Carl Klaus, founding director of the University of Iowa’s Nonfiction Writing Program and professor emeritus of English at the University of Iowa, wrote  Letters to Kate: Life After Life (Iowa, 2006) during the first year after the death of his wife, Kate Franks Klaus.

Established in 1938 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a wide variety of titles that will appeal to general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region. from Letters to Kate: Life After Life Iowa Writes Wednesday, December 18

Dear Kate,

Ever since you died, I’ve been getting more and more uneasy about the things of yours that have come into my hands. Please notice that I’ve deliberately avoided the word “possession,” for though I’ve inherited all your stuff—clothes, jewelry, paintings, quilts, stocks, books, bookcases, and so on—I don’t feel as if they’re mine, don’t feel anything like ownership. How could I possibly own things so distinctively yours, like your shell collection, things you acquired over a lifetime of being who you are. Worse still, how can I lay claim to stuff you inherited from your parents and grandparents. I felt that quite keenly this afternoon when I went to the corner cupboard to get a wine glass for dinner, and there on the top shelf right above our clear glass goblets were the amber goblets, cups, fruit cups, saucers, and dessert plates from your grandmother Orlie—she of the Victorian migraines and morals, whose faded world of white gloves and drawn curtains was so distant from mine it seems outlandish that her goblets should be cohabiting with mine. And I’m sure she would feel the same way, thank you. But it’s not just a matter of profound cultural and personal difference that makes me uneasy. No, there’s also something deeply existential that’s at stake. And the only way I can suggest the problem is to say that I don’t even feel as if I own the things that are purportedly mine. I imagine you looking quizzically at me right now, as if to ask what could possibly account for such a kooky feeling. And I don’t know how to explain it except to say that the survival of all your things in the wake of your death—you gone, they still here, vividly here—has led me to realize that our so-called possessions have an independence of sorts, a life of their own, a durability greater than ours that makes it preposterous to think we could ever own them. At most, I’m now inclined to believe that we coexist for awhile, that they pass through our hands, or we through theirs in the case of things like the house, which might outlast us both for hundreds of years. That being the case, it seems more accurate to think of myself as a steward rather than an owner, just looking after things, taking care of them awhile as best I can, hoping I might find them a good home before I shuffle off this mortal coil. Possession, after all, is only nine-tenths of the law. 2006-12-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=834 Cole Swensen Cole Swensen is on the faculty of the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. Her books of poetry include Goest, Such Rich Hour, and Try. “Of an Alphabet of Steppes” is from The Book of a Hundred Hands (University of Iowa Press, 2005).

Established in 1938 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a wide variety of titles that will appeal to general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region. Of an Alphabet of Steppes
after the finger alphabet of George Dalgarno, 1680 Iowa Writes But after he was gone, I began to consider

that the “I” floats above the middle finger

                                          and the deaf with their kites

and the “O” above the next

                                        who touched

the “E” above the index—note

it’s the vowels that live in air

and the continents distributed

rationally across extremity.

                                      Readiness

                                      is distillation

                                      among strangers. 2006-12-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=837 Angela M. Balcita Angela M. Balcita received her MFA from the University of Iowa’s Nonfiction Writing Program. She lives in Baltimore. “Moonface and Charlie” first appeared in the Winter 2005/06 issue of The Iowa Review. from “Moonface and Charlie” Iowa Writes I tell Charlie we should at least get ourselves some costumes. A fake mustache, a cane, a boa. Maybe some matching tuxedos. Something, I tell him.

“Don’t get crazy, Moonface,” he says. He looks at me and winks. His scruffy voice matches the stubble on his chin, and I’m in love with his eyes that sparkle like diamonds even when his eyebrows get in the way. 

I always tell him that I think the story could be better, that we could add fireworks, go to parties with roman candles in our pockets and light them up when the questions start flying. Or wear tap shoes and do a little kick-ball-change after every punch line.

“Are you kidding me? What we’ve got is gold, baby. Gold!” He grabs my face. He kisses me hard on my cheek. Charlie is the showman. He’s got the wit and the delivery. He can play to a crowd without the props or the fancy sets. If we really did have an act, I mean, one that we actually made money off of, he’d be the manager, the one calling the shots. And I’d let him. He has a way of telling a story and running with it. 

“So, show us the scar you got from the surgery, man,” someone from the audience will ask. Right now, the audience is usually our families and our friends. Sometimes strangers at parties.

Charlie lifts his shirt and says, “Surgery? What are you talking about? I got this baby from a shark bite when we were swimming off the deep seas of Palau. See the teeth marks?” He points to the little dots where the doctors had him in staples.

“Nawww!” the crowd calls. Some of them gasp in horror.

“Come on, Charlie, tell ’em the truth,” I interrupt. I furrow my brow, puff out my lips. Me? I’m all facial expressions. Charlie says I can change the mood of a room with just the look on my face. That and I follow cues really well. “We got shipwrecked on that island and we tried to kill each other for food. See, I’ve got one, too. He tried to get me first, but I went straight for that white meat, if you know what I mean. ”

Then, I lift up my shirt to show the crowd my scar, also on my left side. And then, we demonstrate what that stabbing might have looked like had we really done it. We take turns pretending to jab a knife into each other’s stomach, over and over again.

“Aaawww!” one of us yells. 

“Aaawww!” the other one yells.

It has our families and friends rolling on their sofa cushions for hours.

At first, we tried to tell everyone our story, all serious and sweet, how I have this disease, how he gave me his kidney, how I was in bad shape. The sacrifice, the pain, yadda, yadda, yadda. But even when we talk to our audience honestly about the transplant, we can’t help but crack the jokes because, as Charlie says, “How else are you supposed to look at life? Seriously?” 2006-12-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=838 April Newman April Newman is a MFA Writing candidate at Columbia College and was the 2006-07 Graduate Opportunity Award recipient. She was a featured student reader at Creative Nonfiction Week 2006. A graduate of The University of Iowa, this Dubuque native now lives in Chicago with her puppy, Kona. The Bedroom Iowa Writes The bedroom had dark plank floors with one rug poking out in the center. The walls were yellow behind a painting of wild mustangs galloping through a mountain range, their muscles statuesque. Grandma kept quarters in turquoise beaded purses from South Dakota on her dresser, the brown-edged photos of her children jammed into the sides of her mirror. In the corner was a black rolltop writing desk. She placed a photo of her father, Donald, there.
 
Grandma died in that bed. The same one where her children were conceived. She died skeletal thin and skin faded the color of a sliced pear, almost translucent, her shoulder bones and clavicle pronounced; eyes pinched and sunken. A delta of wrinkles fanned softly toward her ears and her lips were flat and nearly purple. My Persian cat, Walter, folded himself into her side as she lay dying. In her morphine delirium, she called out names of school mates, strangers to us.
 
“When I die you have to play Beulah’s Boogie. And dance. And I mean it,” she had told everyone on different occasions; she may have been dangling a cigarette. Of course I promised. But when it actually happened, I wasn’t nearly ready to dance.
 
She waited until all of her children and grandchildren were in the house, blown in from the road or down the street—all tattered like wet newspapers. She passed exactly two hours after I stepped off the plane from Florida. I don't know how she realized I was finally home, her eyes like clamps in that yellow room, the light now custard around us.
 
When it happened, the cat jumped up and out of her arms, running with his body crouched close to floor, his hair raised high up like a ridge on his back. Half a dozen people crowded her bed, sitting on the edge or standing near the window sill. They checked her pulse; they felt her lips for signs of life with their trembling fingers. They murmured and cried out, but everyone was still touching her as she melted away.
 
One of my aunts turned on Beulah’s Boogie almost immediately. It sounded loud enough to fill a football stadium, the jazz horns blazing as they zipped her up in a black bag and rolled her out of the bedroom for the last time—this time on a gurney. Dance! But my legs were a zombie’s, arms made of rope, and the whole scene felt filtered through a lens smeared with butter. Dance! Time had turned on its ears. Dance! We have to dance! And even though my wrists weighed a thousand pounds, for her I raised my hands. 2006-12-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=840 Dick Stahl Dick Stahl, of Davenport, Iowa, enjoys writing about the lore of the Mississippi River. His three books of poetry are After the Milk Route (1988), Under the Green Tree Hotel (1996), and Mr. Farnam's Guests (2004). He served as Quad City Arts Poet Laureate from September 2001 to September 2003. Rhubarb Iowa Writes My wife's out there again, planting
another row closer
to my rhubarb, sprinkling
her radish seeds like ashes
into long, shallow graves. I don't want
the roots of my rhubarb
disturbed, the tender stalks
cracked, leaves
trampled. She knows my rhubarb wine's
the sweetest vintage
in Scott County. Now she's weeding around
my patch, her hoe raising plumes
of earth. I can't wait any longer!
Soon she'll be pulling up
her swollen red devils, exploding
grenades of dirt, stepping on
my leafstalks and smashing everything.
Suddenly, she hands me her bouquet
of underground hearts, ready
to wash and eat. 2006-12-30 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=841 Patrick Irelan Patrick Irelan’s short stories and essays have been widely published in magazines, anthologies, and literary journals. His latest memoir, A Firefly in the Night: A Son of the Middle West, was published by Ice Cube Press in 2007. He lives in Iowa.

The Ice Cube Press, based in North Liberty, Iowa, began publishing in 1993 to focus on how to best live with the natural world. Since then it has published a number of well known authors, including Mary Swander, Jim Heynen, Stephanie Mills, Bill McKibben, and Paul Gruchow. from A Firefly in the Night Iowa Writes One day a few years after my father died, I was driving my mother a hundred miles back to her house and farm in Davis County. She had come to visit my family in Iowa City during a mild week early in June, but now insisted that she had many important tasks to perform at home.

After leaving town, we followed Highway 1 south through Washington, Brighton, and Fairfield. Nine miles south of Fairfield, as we approached the village of Birmingham, my mother casually said, “This is the town where you were conceived.”

I turned and looked at her in disbelief, not that I doubted what she’d said, but disbelief that she’d said it at all. She continued to stare straight ahead. Her mouth had formed that slight smile it always did when she said something she knew would surprise somebody. Mother had learned a code of speech and behavior from Grandma Austa Fleming Hunter, and that code did not permit use of the word “conceived,” except when spoken in a medical context. Grandma Austa had served as a midwife and didn’t use words like conceived for humorous effect. That was the last word I expected to hear from my mother in the village of Birmingham on that lovely spring day. Mother knew how much she’d surprised me, and she enjoyed every symptom of it. “Better keep your eyes on the road, Patrick,” she said. 2007-01-01 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=843 Wilson Diehl Wilson Diehl is a writer, artist, and filmmaker living in an old elementary school in Seattle. She grew up in Iowa City and has an MFA in Creative Nonfiction from the University of Iowa. Remembering Debi Thomas1 Iowa Writes As far as I know
there are no polar bears
in Iowa. But this does not

mean that I do not
understand
when you say ice or

seal or hibernation
or claw. This does not
mean that I cannot see

your dirty white coat
through the bars of your cage
at the San Diego Zoo

where you watch the
former Olympic bronze medalist
skate on a tiny melting rink

in the middle of August
for the entertainment of
Midwestern tourists.

This does not mean
I cannot see your grimace
as you watch her push and jump

and spin and spin and spin
and land ice-perfect smooth
to the sound of polite applause

as you sweat in your cage
and pace back and forth and
search for a mirror so that

you might ask yourself
what you are doing
in San Diego.

1 After Debi Thomas's third-place ice-skating finish, she went on to get an engineering degree from Stanford and an MD in orthopedic surgery from Northwestern. 2007-01-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=844 Carol Westberg Carol Westberg grew up on a farm near Essex, Iowa, and received a BA from Duke and an MFA in poetry from Vermont College. Her poems have appeared in journals such as Prairie Schooner, Hunger Mountain, Granite Review, and Tiferet. She now lives in Norwich, Vermont. At the Speed of Sight Iowa Writes Believe me, a line can take years to find
its place in the poem, to rise through the layers
of earnestness like a stone working its way
to the surface. What I wanted

blinded me to what was—how the broken
cornstalks gleamed in our fields
after the harvest, after the ravages of ice.
I see how I walked like a stranger among them.

Today my child holds out a bouquet
of wet leaves for her friend, trophies salvaged
from our pond—chestnut, bronze, near translucent.
She sees how they shine. 2007-01-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=845 Joan Mitchell Joan Mitchell was born in Iowa City in 1940 and graduated from Iowa City High School. She has lived in San Antonio, Texas, for twenty-seven years but travels back to Iowa every summer. Her work has appeared in Quirk, The Key, Palo Alto Review, and The San Antonio Express-News. “I enjoy raising the Iowa-consciousness of my Texas friends,” she says. Iowa Woman Speaks as Goddess of Meteorology Iowa Writes Henceforth: Spring,
that sweet green reward,
will be available
only to those who know
the raw humble cold
of wet overshoes
and have shoveled
bottomless snow from
sloping driveways,
or glided a car sideways into
the middle of a large silver bus
while steering meaninglessly
in the opposite direction.

Individuals who know
the search, the urgency
of a lost mitten
at the last minute
will be first in line.

I hereby proclaim that
daffodils will no longer sprout
or sway yellowy
in the April gardens of
flabby southerners
who stroll strip malls
in mid-January,
straw-sucking fruit smoothies,
wearing what could be described as
shower clogs
on their soft, tan, sweaty feet. 2007-01-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=846 Jay Johnson Jay Johnson publishes in literary reviews, anthologies, and magazines, including The North American Review, Tampa Review, and Voices on the Landscape. She has read for NPR and conducts workshops in the schools. She has been a board member of The Des Moines National Poetry Festival since its inception. The Lisbon Café Iowa Writes At the Lisbon Café I look God
in the eye of every farmer.
I praise them for my eggs over easy
and whole wheat toast.
They come from their wives, their beans
to do some honest swearing,
wearing baseball caps with PRIDE SEED.
More corn has been planted at the Lisbon Café
than in all of Lisbon.
Weathermen, they are the last
of their kind, diagramming the grid
of their fields in air.
Knuckles scrubbed rough as potatoes
they plant hands around mugs,
chinked like faces the sun
stays on all seasons.

Interwoven, all elbows, hogs are steady 
and someone wins in Vegas.
A large farmer nudges the thick
sprawled woman wearing triplets
of diamonds beneath the cuff
of her red windbreaker.
“Don’t tell me no gossip,
just tell me who’s sick or died!”
My ear falls into the deep meadow
of his voice. He digs his shirt,
plaid like his fields, faded with love
of sun and washing;
drags on a Chesterfield,
sounds like the uphill pull
of tractor.

I go to the Lisbon to see the honest
hand that turns the calf and reinvents the earth.
I praise these men who plant their wives
and raise their sons, while their tan
bright boys, ready, undone,
pull on Levis, shit-kickin’ Fryes,
and back out while sun
sours the feedlot and the dog
circles his shadow
until he lies down.

I walk in a slow rain past Chevy Impalas
and Oldsmobiles, past the dome light that stays
on in the old Dodge, into a field of lambs
carved in headstones. I step
over generations of farmers, their love
for luck and money and prayers
for rain and no wind.
Where they’re planted in rows,
under bone-hard earth no rain can save.
I come to a stone fallen sideways
with age. A chiseled hand with finger
that used to point the way toward God,
now points toward the Lisbon Café. 2007-01-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=847 Steve Pudenz Steve Pudenz is a professional actor, author and licensed tour guide in New York City. He graduated from the University of Northern Iowa (B.A. 1969), taught in Des Moines at Hoover High School, and received his MFA in Theater Arts from the University of Iowa in 1975. He's been a New Yorker ever since. Steve Pudenz's website http://www.GuidedBySteve.com For Raoul Wallenberg Iowa Writes I had just finished saying,
"...there you see the lonely briefcase
waiting
for the hero who never came back,"
when a guy jumped out of his van.
He tried to pick it up,
tugged at it, and looked at it
and slunk back into his truck.
We had a fine laugh
as the traffic light changed
and the van roared off up the street.
I thought of the sculptor
who faked the man out,
and the hero
who never came back,
of the lives he had saved
at the cost of his own,
and I thought how he lives
a century on
in a briefcase set into stone. 2007-01-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=848 Bonnie J. Rough Bonnie J. Rough received her MFA in nonfiction writing from the University of Iowa. She lives in Minneapolis. Her essay “The Birdmen” was published in the Winter 2006-07 issue of The Iowa Review. from “The Birdmen” Iowa Writes The dream that repeated the most for me was very simple. The landscape was always the same: a long, hot, blue sky, with a red-brown cliff superimposed. Sometimes a huge brown bird screamed in the sky, distant. I saw myself standing on the edge of the cliff. Small me, a person I recognized from the mirror. A little kid in pink corduroy pants and a purple zip-up sweatshirt. And my arms spread open, as if I expected to glide. Slowly, tilting forward, with a strange grace coupled with enormous, silent terror, my toes tipped down, and I felt myself plunging through the thin blue. Like most kids, I always woke up mid-plummet. And I felt some distance from the girl, even though I knew she was me. My consciousness was mostly outside of her; I watched her fall.

When I was an older child, I dreamed that I flew in a golden hot-air balloon. The balloon was just large enough to carry me. It floated me around my parents’ kitchen, out onto the back deck where I could see in the sunlight my balloon’s metallic richness, its depth and promise, its mythic power. I believed I was leaving the back yard, leaving the neighborhood, to rise up and away, over the poplar-tree spears and the peacock farms and into the northern hills. But suddenly, I was in my parents’ garage, where the big doors were down, the lights were off, and only a little dusty sun came through dirty windows. My gold balloon bumped against the rafters....

In my late twenties I dreamed of a library full of lions, ancient maps, fantasy and myths. Thick red velvet curtains flanked tall, cathedral windows, and amber light illuminated endless mahogany bookshelves. Though the library seemed to have a ceiling, it was impossibly high. There creaked and flapped all of the old flying machines: ghastly kites and child’s-toy airscrews from ancient China; Foolish King Kavus with eagles tied to his throne; the Machine novae, Fausto Veranzio’s 17th-century cone-shaped parachute; Léonardo DaVinci’s ornithopter with a pedaling man beneath its propeller; Francesco Lana’s flying galleon, equipped with oars and sails; Samuel Langley’s goliath aerodrome; and, drifting tranquilly, my gold balloon. 2007-01-13 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=849 Paula Melton Paula Melton lives in Vermont with her husband and their three children. She received her MFA from the Iowa Writers' Workshop in 1997. Renal Calculus Iowa Writes I wonder can my sleeping palm
Upon your sleeping back
Detect somehow the tiny crystals
(Jagged, smooth or staghorn)
Growing in the chambers of your kidneys.
Physics perhaps will someday express
What passes between one body and another.
How during our births your palm
Could rove my back, planchette
Upon a ouija board, and find each
Knotted Yes that burned for your touch.
Our bodies felt together the truth of
Contraction, dilation, transition. Words
We'd learned by heart and now forgot.
And now it is you who lies groaning in bed
And I who puts my lips to your cool, pallid head.
Your sweat glands exude a multitude
Of little clear pearls. My body
Tries to balance the equation
By making a lump in my throat. 2007-01-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=850 Brandi Homan Brandi Homan grew up in Marshalltown, Iowa, and received her BA from the University of Northern Iowa. Currently, she’s working toward her MFA in Poetry at Columbia College Chicago. Her chapbook, Two Kinds of Arson, will be available January 2007, and she is editor-in-chief of Switchback Books. “Nostalgie de la Boue” was first published in Salt Hill. Nostalgie de la Boue Iowa Writes Bassists strive for the low end, prefer E-string
to D, unafraid of the floor. Sending down

roots, they evangelize for distortion, squeeze
sevenths from the stompbox, walk the bass line

between roadblocks. Ghost notes, dead notes,
overtones necessary but hard to hear—timbre of blood

over pulse, that ticking watch which cinctures
our wrists. Not the practical backbeat of kettledrums

or doorbells. Not the dripping faucet. No, this tremolo
underlies every circadian rhythm that stretches

through tightrope, stridulation like a tickle
at the back of the throat. Murmur of water

under seaplane. Bottom, excrement, foundation—
the living vibrato over which cement is poured. 2007-01-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=852 Ameena Hussein Ameena Hussein, a Sri Lankan writer, has published two short-story collections, Zillij and Fifteen. She participated in the University of Iowa’s International Writing Program in 2005. “An Ordinary Death” first appeared in The Iowa Review’s Fall 2006 issue.
from “An Ordinary Death” Iowa Writes Sunil died in the bomb blast.

He was my fruiterer.

Which bomb blast you ask?

Does it matter?

He had gone for the election rally at the Town Hall. The bomb went off. Sunil died. That's all. When I got home two days later that was what I was told.

Sunil died on a Monday. I met him the Saturday before at the Colpetty market.

"Baby," he said. That was what he called me. Baby, even though I was 20 years old. He called my mother Mummy to me, and nothing to her face.

When he wanted to sell her fruits, he would say, "Baby likes this," and when he wanted to sell me fruits, he would say, "Mummy always bought this," holding up an apple like Eve, or an orange—imported not local, as the local ones were prohibitively expensive, which brought home another anomaly of the age we lived in.

Anyway, that Saturday, Sunil asked me, "Baby, do you want oranges?"

I told him, "Let me ask Mummy. Mummy!” I said moving towards her, “Sunil wants to know if you want oranges?"

My mother turned from her vegetable man from whom she was buying keera, brinjals, pathola and thalana batu, and came towards Sunil and me.

"Not oranges, but anyway how much are they?" My mother likes doing these things. She likes saying she doesn’t want something but still asking the price. The price determines whether she wants it or not. Sunil must have quoted a good price. Six oranges were put in the bag.

"Papaw?" Sunil looked hopefully at my mother. She shook her head and took out her wallet to pay for the six oranges. Sunil's response to that was to simply say, "Papaw for juice." My mother asked, "How much?" The papaw was put in the bag. Sunil smiled at me who had been standing all the while beside the two of them. I smiled back and my mother and I went down to the car. That was on Saturday. Sunil died on Monday 2007-01-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=853 Marjan Strojan Marjan Strojan, a Slovenian writer, participated in the University of Iowa’s International Writing Program in 2005. He is the author of four poetry collections. “In Our Small Room, Imperceptibly” first appeared in The Iowa Review’s Fall 2006 issue. In Our Small Room, Imperceptibly Iowa Writes Swedenborg reports that, in a way of speaking,
the act of passage is a matter of detail.
When he is no more, man is not conscious
of his moment. He walks the streets and
the riverbanks, his friends come to pay him
a visit, they drink tea, banks and churches go
on with their business, cats keep themselves
warm in the sun, the army is in a state of alert.
Tea tastes like tea, friends discuss football,
the radio is on, parents complain what all this
is leading up to. We imagine that the time

of the passage is shrouded in mist, because
our senses die off, etc. Then there is also
the possibility of death making them sharper. 
But it is not so. Imperceptibly, in our small
room things take up a different shape. We see
there is more colour to the world than we were
used to take notice of. Turning the high street
the late night tram utters an indescribable
sound; the language of humans and animals
is transformed into unintelligible music;
a muted conversation in the café is full of light. 

Still we carry on as if nothing had happened.
We keep up with our dates, with our musical
recitals, with our Sunday outings to the lake;
every so often we would go to the movies
or to the theatre. But we don’t pick up phones,
since the contents of the calls are known to us
in advance; we read books in languages we
never learned to speak; we notice the florist
whom we have last seen in our childhood
giving us a nod of recognition. There would be
unposted letters and complete strangers arriving

at our doorstep, we would speak to them under
the passageways, on the roof tops and terraces,
in the suburbs, where, had it been otherwise,
we would never have cared to venture. All this
may go on for weeks, months, even years.
By then one is made aware of who the callers
were and what he himself has become; he
makes ready for his moving away, takes leave
of his friends and relatives, who seem strangely
unbaffled by his decision. Then comes the day
when he takes off in one of the Charon buses

and riding with a strange taste of copper in his
mouth comes into a high valley of fens and gorges
with big cities and towns, many of them devastated
and charred as if consumed by fires. The sky
is dark and deep with no stars and no sun. Soon,
without realising how, he starts coming into
an office, finds himself a job, recognising in his
superiors the visitors of his unlikely conversations.
His is a world of conspiring and hatred, fast
decisions and summary injustice, where everybody
gets promoted and nobody seems excessively

unhappy. A place of blooming opportunities
and uninterrupted promotion. On one occasion
he takes part in a secret meal where they are
shown the world of the sun and the celestial
bodies, which he rejects. Then, on another, they
visit the park opposite the music school where
he used to teach and where he now watches
the undergraduates, entangled in the network
of time, sitting on the grass, resonating like an
old piano concerto he remembers from a long
time ago. He declines any suggestion of return. 2007-01-23 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=854 Uriel Quesada Uriel Quesada, a Costa Rican writer, participated in the University of Iowa’s International Writing Program in 2005. He is an assistant professor of Spanish at Loyola University in New Orleans. “Spoken Portrait” first appeared in The Iowa Review’s Fall 2006 issue. from “Spoken Portrait,"
translated from the Spanish by Nadia Reiman Iowa Writes I didn’t spot him until the moment he took hostage the only empty table at the café. I had just sat down as well, but in a pretty lousy spot: right in the middle of the hall with my back to the door. Every time it opened a current of air pummeled me while I gripped my cappuccino and cursed under my breath. Outside, New York remained dirty after the most recent snowfalls. Great chunks of coldness lay everywhere unmelted. Hard, darkened gray slush resisted futilely the incessant footsteps. I had been wanting the whole afternoon to write a poem about this city that always managed to horrify me yet beckoned me to return. I had walked around in search of a magical place, one of those unknown spaces that suddenly stay with you forever. After a few hours, what I had were chapped lips, a deadened nose, and an anvil of clothing that my body wasn’t made to hold up. I was dreaming in Latin American that a good cup of coffee would cure all of my ailments and would allow me to open up a parenthetical space amidst the havoc of all that is material and souls, a havoc that could not sit still even when the temperatures had plummeted and the evening news was forecasting another winter advisory.

I had entered the café in the wake of a streaming crowd. Almost all of them approached the counter, ordered their drinks to go, and disappeared. When it came my turn to order, I hadn’t made up my mind yet and thus, in a way, had exposed myself: only a true foreigner could take the luxury of wasting the employees’ time (probably political science, philosophy, or film students), the great names of tomorrow who needed patience today because the stranger required a few extra seconds to think even though behind him the line as a consequence grew, and the waiting customers went out of their minds. I think I mentioned before that I sat in a bad spot. More than a table, it was a round chessboard held up by one central leg. Someone had taken one of the chairs. Without it, the board looked huge, desolate, like I could never be entertaining a guest across of it. 2007-01-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=855 Wanita Zumbrunnen Wanita Zumbrunnen was born, raised, and educated in Iowa. She has a Ph.D in English from the University of Iowa. At present, she is teaching English, speech, and communication classes to military members at the Incirlik Air Base near Adana, Turkey. A Piece of a Rainbow Iowa Writes I choose to say it was a good omen
when flying from Istanbul to Adana
I saw a piece of a rainbow
in between clouds off to the left
not in an arch but a horizontal column.

This ribbon of rainbow hung amidst
huge puffy clouds was a surprise like
a jeweled bracelet found lying in snow
or that bit of varicolored coral
suddenly discovered in the blue of the sea.

The rainbow piece floated parallel to us,
pacing the plane, like a parrot fish
swimming out of sight, darting back again,
or that instantaneous gleam in the eye
when you realize that someone loves you. 2007-01-27 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=867 Debora Kuan Debora Kuan earned an MFA from the Iowa Writers' Workshop. Her writing has appeared in American Letters & Commentary, Boston Review, Conduit, Fence, Indiana Review, and elsewhere. She lives in Princeton, NJ, again after a seven-year hiatus. Pastoral Iowa Writes A hobby-horse appeal—
This is our wooden meadow, nest-stolen calves,
and our painter Chao, painting from winter, gets her red
cap bitten off. Ahead,
a color monthed. Ahead, the start of storing.
My one dumb eye is a hungry eye,
it pushes sheep through it.
Needle and bundle and the start of
flowered dresses. Lin has potted smooth stones in white soil,
and now they have sprouted selves.

Is this anything to paint with?
I have magnetized pearl buttons to other pearl buttons.
I have waited for any bird to call on me.

And for any constellation. And for any flayed forest.

When I return, even the foxes are white.
They have grass on their backs, which is also
snowed. No one remarks.
I have to lie still until
some life kisses me. Until some animal rotates
himself and settles down in ache.
In surrendered awe and curios.

This is a cut glass collection.
And a cabinet of grass.
A statue made of milk and laid on its side.
Chao says pony. Lin offers cervix,
matrix, wire
. But we have landed on silo.
We are thinking of shapes for ourselves.

And ahead, we can see it,
an x-ray and a child. One tremendous head
and a body in bone.
I cannot help thinking,
A hood pulled over our horse's head to keep it asleep.
And we wait, we wait,
chewing wool to perfection—

To shepherd. To pause. Where things begin grazing.
This is some silo for storing. This is some green. 2007-01-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=868 Marilynne Robinson Marilynne Robinson, a professor at the Iowa Writers' Workshop, is the author of the novels Housekeeping and Gilead (which won the Pulitzer Prize in 2005), and the nonfiction works The Death of Adam and Mother Country. from Gilead Iowa Writes I told you last night that I might be gone sometime, and you said, Where, and I said, To be with the Good Lord, and you said, Why, and I said, Because I'm old, and you said, I don't think you're old. And you put your hand in my hand and you said, You aren't very old, as if that settled it. I told you you might have a very different life from mine, and from the life you've had with me, and that would be a wonderful thing, there are many ways to live a good life. And you said, Mama already told me that. And then you said, Don't laugh! because you thought I was laughing at you. You reached up and put your fingers on my lips and gave me that look I never in my life saw on any other face besides your mother's. It's a kind of furious pride, very passionate and stern. I'm always a little surprised to find my eyebrows unsinged after I've suffered one of those looks. I will miss them.

It seems ridiculous to suppose the dead miss anything. If you're a grown man when you read this—it is my intention for this letter that you will read it then—I'll have been gone a long time. I'll know most of what there is to know about being dead, but I'll probably keep it to myself. That seems to be the way of things. 2007-01-30 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=869 Patricia Straub Patricia Straub grew up in Whittemore, Iowa with her parents and thirteen siblings. She currently lives in St. Paul, MN, with her husband Joshua and two cats. On Being Human Iowa Writes I. 

In the corner today
a large spider rests frozen
in a web of spider history,

pink tile walls
and base of my tub
the expanse of two oak branches.

It's possible these spiders
have spent their entire lives
in my bathroom

accustomed only to
tropical rainforests
of steamy showers,

the tornadic debris
left behind
my broom. 

A broad sweep
trailing
spider complications. 

No matter, spiders
are forward thinkers,
own no spider sentimentality.

Today commences the cocoon
of a frozen spider
but only two back legs.

A large task for one.
Is spider history prevailing?
Perhaps.

II.
As I climb, dripping,
out of the tub
I am thinking

of that dainty pitcher
for hot cocoa
my great grandfather purchased

one winter in town,
bundled under his coat
through that famous Iowa blizzard,

a gift for a wife
because it was delicate, and yellow
and would seduce her, and

because he loved hot cocoa
and now she would serve it
more often. 

III.
As I imagine times
when people were stronger, and kinder,
I stretch for a towel to dry and

catch the web
of this spider who does not try
daily to be a better spider,

a kinder spider.
I destroy what
spider history has bestowed.

No matter,
I, in love with a story
of an old pitcher

(a love no spider could understand)
bundle this delicate china in paper,
on hold for my great granddaughter.

She will tell the story of this day,
and the spider will
not be part of it. 2007-02-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=876 Ann Struthers Ann Struthers grew up on an Iowa farm but she has always been afflicted with wanderlust and that most pernicious disease, writing. Some strange genie has called her to the Middle East and to Sri Lanka, two of the world's hot spots. While on a Fulbright Fellowship in the Middle East she began "The End of the Day."  She publishes in numerous journals and has two collections and two chapbooks. "The End of the Day" first appeared in the Fall 2005 issue of The Iowa Review. The End of the Day Iowa Writes To watch the sun set at Wadi Rum
we ride across the desert on benches
in the back of the 1950s pickup,
past the petroglyphs on the red rocks
to the outcroppings sanded smooth by eons
of time with sand in their teeth.
The princes in their sheepskin cloaks
breast the January wind from their new jeep.
Sun diffuses from marigold to pale peach,
Persimmon, coral, cerise, sheen of crimson.
Clouds’ edges lit with gold
Like Bible pages, finally suffusing
Into cool mist, fine as silk.

Lawrence and the Arab army
camped here, exhausted but exhilarated
because the Turks at Aqaba thought
no one could cross the fierce wilderness
behind them. Camels ridden hard,
men ridden harder by their fantastic hopes,
tomorrow their triumph. I can still feel
it here where Lawrence sat, knowing the sun
that evening set on an age, and he must have shivered
as I do, as he thought of what was to come. 2007-02-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=877 Kurt Vonnegut Writer and artist Kurt Vonnegut is a former teacher in the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. Algren Meets Donoso "Algren Meets Donoso" first appeared in the Winter 2005/06 issue of The Iowa Review. Iowa Writes True story, Word of Honor:
Back in 1966, with the Vietnam War going on,
in September, the start of a new academic year
at the legendary Writers’ Workshop
out at the University of Iowa,
I introduced the world-class novelist Nelson Algren,
onetime lover of Simone de Beauvoir,
wife of Nobel Laureate Jean-Paul Sartre,
to the world-class novelist José Donoso,
nickname “Pepe,”
both of them now in Heaven.

We three had all gone bust,
and so had come to work as teachers
of Creative Writing.
I explained to Nelson
that José, that Pepe, was from Chile.
Nelson thought a moment,
possibly about Simone de Beauvoir.
And then he said to José, to Pepe,
“It must be nice to come
from a country
that long and narrow.” 2007-02-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=878 Millie Mae Wicklund Millie Mae Wicklund attended the University of Iowa and has published eleven books of poetry. "Freak!" first appeared in the Winter 2005/06 issue of The Iowa Review. FREAK! Iowa Writes Writing is endless and why not?
The perfect metaphor moves in the poem(page) wants
To be found. Freak! At work, the ultimate geek.
(Circus of deserted animals) I swallow the poem whole.
Flaming fire doesn’t burn. The precise meaning
Isn’t that devious. (Yet, I long for you.)

It isn’t hard to discover the East has an ocean in the Mid-West.
That’s right! That friend writing me that a kid under your care
At that summer camp had been struck dead by lightning during
The night.

He was an only child. I, youngest of six children, sent you a
Letter about insoluble losses and Snodgrass’s Heart’s
Needle
. I couldn’t write you a decent poem.
That perfect metaphor moves in this poem(page) now.
It’s full of longing for you.

Rain, wind pounding the canvas sides of those cabins
Kept me awake the next year. You’d invited me there by then.
You’ve never written to me, lain in the same bed with me, but
You would be the only one I would with. I worried that
Lightning would come again as you ran from cabin to cabin,
Slapping canvas siding down on the sides of those cabins
    I saw your face when you came back!

The Mid-West farmer knew Rimbaud.
I said, “The smell of the ocean in the desert
Brought him back to France and he said,
“No, his poisoned leg.”
Why have I come home and How? 2007-02-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=879 Robert Mezey Robert Mezey earned his undergraduate degree at the University of Iowa. His Collected Poems 1952-1999 was published by University of Arkansas Press. Dedication “Dedication” appeared in the Winter 2004-05 issue of The Iowa Review as part of a tribute to poet Donald Justice, who died in August 2004. Iowa Writes                                           —after Catullus

To whom shall I give this skillful little volume,
Rewritten a hundred times, and mulled, and polished?
To you, old friend (and my teacher),
Who have always made too much of my modest talent,
You who, yourself the cynosure of our circle,
Have always been ready with praise for friends and students,
The while that you surprised and surpassed us all—
This book, for whatever it's worth. May it live for a while,
May it live to do you honor a hundred years hence. 2007-02-10 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=880 Marilyn Chin Marilyn Chin received an MFA from the University of Iowa and has published several books of poetry. “Summer Sleep” appeared in the Winter 2004-05 issue of The Iowa Review as part of a tribute to poet Donald Justice, who died in August 2004. Summer Sleep Iowa Writes Summer sleep    I missed the dawn
My tired eyes      too heavy to open

Far off birds argue      freeways hiss
Car alarms trill          false emergencies

In dream I am ten      napping in the Master's house
My single bed                a one-girl coffin

Too tight! I cry          my feet can't fit!
He scowls and sighs      scorns my mediocrity

Rain dances        death coins on the roof
Time devours us      imperceptibly

Empty womb        pupils beg for entry
Unfinished poems          don't know how many 2007-02-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=881 Michael Culross Michael Culross, a graduate of the Iowa Writers’ Workshop, lives in Gig Harbor, Washington. “The Poet-Teacher” appeared in the Winter 2004-05 issue of The Iowa Review as part of a tribute to poet Donald Justice, who died in August 2004. The Poet-Teacher Iowa Writes 1.
Outside these walls
one sees him rarely,

at dusk, perhaps,
walking to his car

or slowly
driving by,

about to disappear
while the silly students

unaware, consider
only each other.

2.
Where does he go?
Will he, once

outside of town
follow a winding road

through a secret wood
and then, reaching

an almost Gothic
house at last,

be seen
from a lad's window

or met by
his faithful dogs?

3.
Imagine him, then
after a quiet dinner

of some small hen
and a glass

or two of wine,
slipping off

to his room, where
for one long moment

he sits
at a fine piano

then intensely,
but gently, plays. 2007-02-13 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=882 Charles Wright Charles Wright, a graduate of the Iowa Writers’ Workshop, received the Pulitzer Prize for poetry in 1998. “North” appeared in the Winter 2004-05 issue of The Iowa Review as part of a tribute to poet Donald Justice, who died in August 2004. North Iowa Writes This is the north, cloud tatters trailing their joints across the ground
And snagging themselves
In the soaked boughs of the evergreens.
Even the heart could lift itself higher than they do,
The soaked and bough-spattered heart,
But doesn’t because this is the north,
Where everything dark, desire and its extra inch, holds back
And drags itself, sullen and misty-mouthed, through the trees.
An apparitionless afternoon,
One part water, two parts whatever the light won’t give us up.

The north is not the memory of the north but its repeat
And cadences, St. Augustine in blackface, and hand to mouth:
The north is where we go when there’s no place left to go.
It’s where our altered selves are,
Resplendent and unrepentant and wholly unrecognizable.
We’ve been here for years,
Fog-rags and rain and sun spurts,
Beforeworlds behind us, slow light spots like Jimmy Durante’s fade out
Hopscotching across the meadow grass.
This is our landscape and our landing zone, this is our dark glass.

      (For Justin d'Aldoce, again, who knew Bliss by another name;
      in memory, in gratitude, and appreciation of days gone by.) 2007-02-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=890 Patricia Foster Patricia Foster is a professor in the Nonfiction Writing Program at the University of Iowa. She is the author of All the Lost Girls: Confessions of a Southern Daughter and editor of Minding the Body: Women Writers on Body and Soul. Just Beneath My Skin is available from Prairie Lights bookstore.
from Just Beneath My Skin: Autobiography and Self-Discovery Iowa Writes Autobiography’s intent must not depend on exposing the foibles and perversions of another person, skewering someone for her flaws and eccentricities. Instead, autobiography must show how relationship becomes conflicted, how the patterns of desire can be thwarted by our very human failings. In my own case, it was by writing a memoir that I came to understand my mother’s need for middle-class ambition and to respect that desire. Now when she tells me about redoing the dining room or the commercial success of one of my peers, I can be happy, knowing that such things bring her pleasure. And she continues to surprise me.

“You’re so happy with your life,” she said to me the other day on the phone. “I always listen to you because you know what you want.”

I laugh because it’s not entirely true. My dreams are just as ambitious as my mother’s, and just as slippery. Neither of us will get exactly what we want.

“I’m happy enough,” I say and realize it’s true, that each of us defines our own slice of happiness. After we say good-bye, I walk out to my backyard and begin pulling weeds from among the flower beds, pulling up the creepers that tangle in the roses, the juniper grass that is crowding the hostas and ferns. Across my lawn I notice the sunflowers just beginning to bloom, their stalks like long, fragile arms bent over the fence, the blooms a burst of yellow, the center a thick, velvety black. The entire backyard is a flood of late afternoon sun, the grass a startling green. On impulse I fling off my shoes and leap from my spot in the shade into that golden warmth. And here I stop for a minute. I stand absolutely still. 2007-02-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=891 Ethan Canin Ethan Canin teaches at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. He is the author of five books of fiction, among them Carry Me Across the Water and Emperor of the Air. The Palace Thief was selected by Linn County libraries to be the focus of Linn Area Reads for 2007. It is available from Prairie Lights bookstore.
from The Palace Thief Iowa Writes It is critical for any man of import to understand his own insignificance before the sands of time, and this is what my classroom always showed my boys.

As young Sedgewick Bell stood in the doorway of that classroom his first day at St. Benedict’s, however, it was apparent that such efforts would be lost on him. I could see that he was not only a dullard but a roustabout. The boys happened to be wearing the togas they had made from sheets and safety pins the day before, spreading their knees like magistrates in the wooden desk chairs, and I was taking them through the recitation of the emperors, when Mr. Woodbridge entered alongside the stout, red-faced Sedgewick, and introduced him to the class.

I had taught for several years already, as I have said, and I knew the look of frightened, desperate bravura on a new boy’s face. Sedgewick Bell did not wear this look. Rather, he wore one of disdain. The boys, fifteen in all, were instantly intimidated into sensing the foolishness of their improvised cloaks, and one of them, Fred Masoudi, the leader of the dullards—though far from a dullard himself—said, to mild laughter, “Where’s your toga, kid?”

Sedgewick Bell answered, “Your mother must be wearing your pants today.” 2007-02-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=892 Barbara Robinette Moss Barbara Robinette Moss received an MFA from Drake University and now lives in Iowa City and New York City. Her most recent book is Fierce: A Memoir. Change Me into Zeus’s Daughter was the 2006 selection of Linn (County) Area Reads. It is available from Prairie Lights bookstore. Barbara Robinette Moss's website http://www.barbaramoss.com
from Change Me into Zeus’s Daughter Iowa Writes Mother had waited all morning for a letter from Dad, a letter with money for food. When, once again, no letter or money arrived, she went out to the toolshed and brought in the corn and bean seeds for next year’s garden. The seeds had been coated with pesticides to keep bugs from eating them during the winter. Poison. I watched Mother split the dusty sealed brown bags with a kitchen knife and empty the contents into bowls, the seeds making sweet music as they tapped the glass: “ting, ting, ting.” She ran her hands through the dry seeds, lifting them to her nose. Did they smell like poison? She rubbed a fat white bean between her fingers and touched her fingers to her tongue, then spit into the sink, rinsed her mouth with cold water and spit into the sink again. She stood staring out the window above the sink, her hands limp in the bowl of seeds. She stood this way for ten minutes or more, staring out the window.

Then, as if released from a spell, she opened the cabinet and got out two colanders. She poured the dry seeds into them: corn in one, beans in the other, and ran water over and over them. She rubbed each tiny seed with her fingers and wiped the cool water on her forehead and the back of her neck. Her dress was already damp under the sleeves from the afternoon heat.

“Those seeds are poison, you know. Poison. If we eat them, we’ll die,” Alice whispered. She was eleven and knew these things. I tapped my bare feet against the kitchen chair and thought about this, deciding I would eat them anyway. I was so hungry and certain that no poison could kill me. I could just tell myself not to die and I wouldn’t. I was that strong. 2007-02-21 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=893 T.C. Boyle T.C. Boyle received his MFA and PhD from the University of Iowa. He is the author of nineteen books of fiction. The Tortilla Curtain was the 2006 selection of One Community, One Book: All Johnson County Reads, an annual countywide reading project coordinated by the University of Iowa Center for Human Rights. It is available from Prairie Lights bookstore. Prairie Lights Bookstore http://www.prairielights.com/
from The Tortilla Curtain Iowa Writes Afterward, he tried to reduce it to abstract terms, an accident in a world of accidents, the collision of opposing forces—the bumper of his car and the frail scrambling hunched-over form of a dark little man with a wild look in his eye—but he wasn’t very successful. This wasn’t a statistic in an actuarial table tucked away in a drawer somewhere, this wasn’t random and impersonal. It had happened to him, Delaney Mossbacher, of 32 Pińon Drive, Arroyo Blanco Estates, a liberal humanist with an unblemished driving record and a freshly waxed Japanese car with personalized plates, and it shook him to the core. Everywhere he turned he saw those red-flecked eyes, the rictus of the mouth, the rotten teeth and incongruous shock of gray in the heavy black brush of the mustache—they infested his dreams, cut through his waking hours like a window on another reality. He saw his victim in a book of stamps at the post office, reflected in the blameless glass panels of the gently closing twin doors at Jordan’s elementary school, staring up at him from his omelette aux fines herbes at Emilio’s in the shank of the evening. 2007-02-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=894 Holly Welker Holly Welker holds an MFA in Nonfiction and a PhD in English literature from the University of Iowa. Her poetry, fiction and nonfiction have appeared in Best American Essays, Black Warrior Review, The Cream City Review, and elsewhere. She is assistant professor of English and Creative Writing at Penn State Erie, The Behrend College. “Victory” first appeared in The Iowa Review’s Winter 2004-05 issue. Victory Iowa Writes We all got down behind the barricade.
We crossed that bridge when we came to it, and
50 million times after that. On a small
clean triangle of dirt someone had planted
hyacinths, which seemed to offer as much
promise as an engagement ring, though who
was betrothed to whom we could never figure out.

The enemy had a pulse and a vigorous
sense of outrage. Also an excellent
profile, handiwork of one of New York's
finest plastic surgeons. But no one likes
someone who foists, who forces something on
another by manipulation or schemes,
and once he lost his contact lenses and
everyone saw how awful he looked in
glasses, even the women with bobbed hair
who had formed the bulk of his volunteers
were no longer vulnerable to his charms.

Ours was a hollow victory. He was not,
after all, the acclaimed supremo of
robbery and slapstick, merely someone
with a sporty car and a long line of
credit. For all the legends of his
loathsomeness circulating among us,
for all the predictions of doom based on
scrupulous readings of venerable scrolls,
there should have been more of a fight. God knows,
once you haul out the heavy artillery,
you need something to shoot at. When the
vicissitudes of battle left us not just
skittish but downright cowardly we began
to see how chaos sets you up for a sudden
jumping of regimes. We took down the barricade,
armed ourselves with simple common
eccentricities and marched off, looking
for another target, a fragment of
an angel, the head of a king, a dragon passant. 2007-02-24 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=895 Lowell Jaeger Lowell Jaeger is a 1981 graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop. He has published two collections of poems and numerous chapbooks. He teaches Creative Writing at Flathead Valley Community College in Kalispell, Montana. Contractions Iowa Writes The slow melt of winter’s long
months pass. The pulse quickens, fights.
A fist in you grows strong.
Sleepless, a full moon lights
the three of us, limbs entwined.
You guide my hand as witness
to a restless kick. How tiny elbows shove.
It hurts, you say. You don’t mind.
Outside, April rips the earth
as green gropes its way toward birth.
Such a complicated bloody mess,
these labors we endure for love.
Wearing me and tearing you.
Makes us old. Makes us new. 2007-02-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=896 Robert Rehder Robert Rehder was born in Iowa. He has been published in numerous literary magazines; his book of poems is The Compromises Will Be Different (Sheep Meadow, 1996). “Free Fall” first appeared in the Iowa Review’s Winter 2004-05 issue. Free Fall Iowa Writes Having learned nothing from experience,
The snow keeps coming,

Trying to be everywhere at once
And jumping to conclusions—

Rush hour,
The traffic is backed up for miles,

A peace-keeping force occupies the capital
And makes a house to house search.

We’ve lost our place in the book
And cannot find it,

The snow has something to say
About everything

And rushes into the present
As if it were coming home. 2007-02-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=897 Mary Jane White Mary Jane White has practiced law in Northeast Iowa for 27 years. She is also a 1977 graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop and the recipient of a 1979 National Endowment for the Arts grant, and a 1985 National Endowment for the Arts translation grant to translate the Russian poet Marina Tsvetaeva (1892-1941). Her translation of Tsvetaeva's elegy for Rilke is forthcoming in 2007 from Adastra Press. Good Riddance to Those Years Iowa Writes For James Wright

Eighty, eighty-two, when you and Hugo died,
And Kinnell leaned in and read
From each of you—
And then from Patrick Kavenaugh—
Two poems, I remember, and
Can—give me a moment—find:
                           
One, In Memory of My Mother, so I
Do not think of you lying in the wet clay;
And O, commemorate me where there is water
Which also recalls you in so stilly
Greeny at the heart of summer, and even faintly
In the form of address: Brother,

And in the description that follows
As a brief disparagement of prose:
A swan goes by head low with many apologies. 2007-03-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=898 Kyle McCord Kyle McCord is a native of Adel, Iowa. He is pursuing an MFA at the University of Massachusetts at Amherst. His work was recently selected by Christian Hawkey for the Academy of American Poets award. He also serves as an assistant editor for jubilat magazine. white Iowa Writes begin by sewing rough round
patches on a coat. last winter
you filled with vows to never
again see the snow, the lurid
death of the north.

today i am struck by the rough
noise of your sleep, how dreamless
and seamed the world becomes;
i watch taped game shows
and suddenly your sitting,

sipping your coffee takes on the
appearance of the avatar, a wolf
in wolf's clothing, so to speak,
because, without fail, you
are not even real, not even here.

put water in water and it all
becomes clear—the clean taste
of snow, noiseless death of tartar,
a brush which turns teeth
seamlessly white over and over.

our world begins like this.

the lies you do not speak
are white, falling like ash.
unspoken lies like
our window sills running down
between cedars, the log

which fills with embodied angels
who, left to replace the sun for a
time, begin to cry. your
tears flood with angels, with frost,
with not sound,

not empty pans, or coats whose
patches can curve us again
into our worn bodies. somnambular
we watch the wilting of our earth
again and the taut bones

of squirrels striding beneath
their fur. the purposelessness
that drives us to watch without acting.
and you say again that you will not
stay here like this, living like this.

i collapse into the soft sound of agreement. 2007-03-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=899 Lucia Nevai Lucia Nevai is the author of Seriously, a novel, published by Little, Brown. Her first collection of stories, Star Game, won the Iowa Short Fiction Award. Born in Des Moines, she now makes her home in upstate New York. “Interment” first appeared in the Spring 2005 issue of The Iowa Review.
from “Interment” Iowa Writes It was a rough winter and a brief spring. Nina had just come back from her uncle's funeral outside Laramie. "He had a good life," she said. "A good life and a good death. He went in his sleep. He went in his sleep and two days later, he had a funny funeral."

"Funny," said Ron. The three couples were sitting on the screened-in porch having cocktails before going out for pizza. They were life-long friends. This was a mid-May tradition.

"Several hundred people with funny stories to tell, all of them laughing for an hour. I call that funny," Nina said. "The minister had to cut people off because he had another funeral service right after my uncle's. At my funeral, do you know how many people will have a funny story to tell?" Nina said. "Not one." She looked around. No one contradicted her. "It makes me wonder if my whole life is wrong."

She looked sincere. They wondered if she knew.

Of the three wives present, Nina looked the most rested, perhaps because she didn't work. Her skin was smooth and olive, her hair prematurely white. The beautiful bone structure, the striking slenderness that made her a knock-out at twenty wasn't enough at forty. There was a slight hunch to her shoulders, a pulling away from people instead of an offering up.

"So, we drove to the cemetery," Nina said. Her voice wavered. She waited until she regained control, so she wouldn't sound laughable the way people who talk when they cry do.

"She missed her connecting flight," her husband, Derek said. "She had to sleep on a cot in the Chicago airport overnight. She was strung out. If the flight had gone smoothly, she wouldn't be as shaken as she is now." Derek had a bushy brown mustache. He always wore a beret. He needed something to cover his head because he'd lost his hair in cancer treatments. The beret and the mustache balanced each other out; without them he looked grotesque, shiny pink skin from scalp to chin. Derek had dealt with cancer heroically. Now he looked fake. He looked as if he were made of wax, a Derek candle you light by the wick of the beret.

"See—he always dismisses me," Nina said to her friends. It was true, but they were sick of hearing about it. "I'm not allowed to be legitimately upset by anything. Not even death."

"Why be upset about what we know is coming?" Derek said. He was playing the cancer card. His friends were immune—he played it too often. "Save that for the surprises in life," Derek said to Nina. He spoke too confidently. He had surprises. They were important and would destroy the marriage if Nina knew.

Nina's face grew lonely. She looked as if she was up against the wall.

Joe piped up in Nina's defense. It was his house, his porch where they met every May. "Let her finish?"

Nina's face went from lonely to vain. "We drove to the cemetery in one big, long, funeral train," Nina said. Her hand swept across the evening air in a single, stately stroke. "Two hundred cars, a hearse and the Wyoming sky." Everyone was touched by the image. "We all got out and walked to the grave. The Army Reserves sent out seven men in uniform to fire the 21-gun salute. You can have one if you served in a war. I kept thinking, I don't want to be buried in Pittsburgh, I don't want to be buried in Pittsburgh. And then I thought: why would I live somewhere where I don't want to be buried?" 2007-03-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=907 Emily Dykstra Emily Dykstra is a human services professional in the Mason City area. Her previous publications include short fiction in The North American Review and several essays for Mason City's Globe Gazette and the Des Moines Register's Young Adult Contributor's Board. Nature Float Iowa Writes A red Old Town canoe is our vehicle, the Winnebago River is our wilderness on this splendid afternoon. Dad and I realize that we are enjoying what promises to be the last of the perfect fall days—a clear blue sky, light southerly breeze at our faces, warm sun on our backs. A few remaining leaves rattle in the tops of the trees, and light gusts of wind send drifts of yellow maple leaves alight on the water around us.

The object of today's float is not speed or destination, but observation. We know that Dad's truck is waiting for us four miles downstream at Lyle's bridge, but we're content to take our time getting there. Despite the balmy October sun, the river gives the impression that its residents and patrons are preparing for winter.

We haven't seen a heron yet and suspect that most have already flown south. Flocks of Canada geese that raised their goslings on the river are flying high overhead, honking goodbyes to their summer homes in the cattails and mud. Rocks and logs where we'd seen turtles sunning in July lie bare and blanched.

For all of the desertion that the bare tree branches and browning grasses imply, the river banks are still alive with signs of activity. We see squirrels romping, crashing through the drying grass and weeds with the noise of much larger animals. Freshly gnawed maple saplings indicate beavers at work on recent nights, and a muddy trail descending from a cornfield shows their partiality for a quick snack and a more pliable building material.

The river itself is also alive. Ahead of us, a carp flips itself above the surface of the water, an activity that carp seem to enjoy at this time of day. I imagine that afternoon flipping for river carp is akin to the human sport of diving—both creatures flinging themselves into an inhospitable environment, for the sheer pleasure and art of doing so. The carp flips itself into the sunshine again, his body shimmering as he crashes back into the water. The clear water allows us to see that the river bottom is littered with freshwater clams. The abandoned shells of dead clams lie partially buried in sand and moss, some broken in fragments by otters seeking dinner.

We spend time enjoying the noise of nature: the wind in the tree tops, the gurgle of a drainage tile, the trill of a pheasant in the brush. A sudden rustle on the left bank seizes our attention, and we look in time to see a Great Horned owl rise from the
grass and perch on a branch.

He is watching us. I marvel at the effectiveness of his camouflage, his tawny brown body nearly invisible in the tangle of dry branches. Had we not seen him land, we would have floated by, completely unaware. The owl swivels his head, following our bright red boat as we quietly maneuver around for a better look. The tufts of feathers above his ears give him his sinister "horned" appearance. We whisper excitedly to each other. It looks like he is still holding something in his talons. The owl decides that we're too close for comfort and takes to the air. His wings pumping with great effort, he falls nearly to the bank before gaining enough momentum to fly upstream away from us. Dad and I gasp at the reason for his awkward takeoff. As the owl retreats, we see a rabbit hanging limply from its talons.

We will spend the rest of the day exulting in the rarity of that moment—of the day, of the owl, of the brief glimpse we were allowed into the world of what happens when we're inside. Of the opportunity we were given to allow something outside of ourselves to give us a glimpse of what goes on inside of ourselves. Of God's miraculous provision for His creation, and the sense of comfort that ensues from the knowledge that because God provides clams for the otters, grass for the rabbit, rabbit for the owl, he will certainly provide what we need—including situations for us to realize just that. 2007-03-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=908 Matthew Alan Bovard Matthew Alan Bovard was born in Iowa City and grew up in Fairfield. He is 21 years old and is currently enrolled at the University of Iowa where he is working on a degree in English and theater. The Palm Iowa Writes My palm travels with me to all my destinations, it sees all that I see, it feels the world around it, always probing deeper with its sense of touch, its sense of feeling, the lines of my palm mark it, proving that the palm belongs to me, my palm is my palm, you cannot have my palm, my palm’s travels differ from those of your palm, my palm’s oils smeared different windows with its wonderings of what lies behind the freshly cleaned glass, if my palm were to talk expressions of touch such as texture, rough, smooth, cold, hot, clean, dirty, the language of the palm, if the journeys of the palm revealed themselves then the dust of a thousand lifetimes crammed into one piece of flesh revealing ancient secrets long forgotten, and now revisited in the depths of the lines that make my palm mine, my markings my identification, no one else’s mine all mine, not a single person can take it away from me, till I die and it returns to earth to journey in a new manifestation of life, going on amazing journeys, giving aid to new writers to write new and wonderful books of ideas that only now just begin to emerge, the world constantly changing and my palm along with it, as its oils are cleaned from the windows helping a man to earn a living, my palm as a piece of the environment interacting helping to create, the cradle to my fingers giving them the ability to make these words possible, my palm that some say can tell my fortune and the happenings of my life, the palm that insults those that get in its path on a rage no control, no constraint, my palm leaving its print in a red mark upon your fragile face. 2007-03-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=909 Keith Ratzlaff Keith Ratzlaff’s books of poetry are Dubious Angels:  Poems after Paul Klee;  Man Under A Pear Tree; and Across The Known World. His awards include the Anhinga Prize for Poetry, the Theodore Roethke Award, and a Pushcart Prize. He teaches writing and literature at Central College in Pella, Iowa. Crying Angel Iowa Writes after Paul Klee

Nothing prepared me for heaven. 
Its scaffolds—street after street—
halls leading to halls,
rooms papered with distance

as if heaven were only perspective,
a vanishing point drawing us
until we vanished. And if
I am crying, it's for small things: 

staplers, bowls, gloves, spoons
on their pedestals, their ideal forms
lost at the vanishing ends of corridors—
for Music in its winged box,

Math’s fulcrum and see-saw,
Geography's colored pins, its there, there.

How did we ever come to think
the single world was precious,
the model for us to love—
one town, one house, one sky,

one woman, the mole on her back—
when it is the universe, its gaps, 
the mileage between its outposts
God loves and is his image?

They weren't lies after all, the stories
where we are transmuted into stars
or into water lost in the infinity
of itself. Who could have imagined

God's need for distance,
this hurling us away to be near him?


from Dubious Angels:  Poems after Paul Klee (Anhinga Press, 2005) 2007-03-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=910 Jan Weissmiller Jan Weissmiller received an M.F.A. from the Iowa Writers’ Workshop in 1984. She lives in Iowa City with her husband, the painter John Dilg, and has worked for many years at Prairie Lights Bookstore. “The Yard’s Reason” appears in her poetry collection, In Divided Light, and also in the anthology Voices on the Landscape: Contemporary Iowa Poets, both published by Loess Hills Books. The Yard’s Reason Iowa Writes The blue ground flowers, Scilla,
Siberian Violet,
had nothing to do with it.
Nor did the sidewalk, the terrace,
the red of the studio door.
—The tick of the clock, the blurred
    view through the screen from in here—
The shape of the woodshed, the trunk
of the oak, the street through the field
seen past the leafless trees,
it wasn’t any of these.
Not the stone steps visible
in the dormant flower bed
or the stillness of the wind wheel.
Not the lock on the studio door.
Not the thought of your excitement
at seeing the wood duck.
Not even the wood duck.
Not the green sheen of moss
on the branch where it perched. 2007-03-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=911 Mary Swander Mary Swander's most recent work is a book of non-fiction entitled The Desert Pilgrim (Viking). She is a Distinguished Professor of English at Iowa State University and lives in Ames and Kalona, IA, where she raises ducks and geese and a large organic vegetable garden. “That Glorious Time of Old” can be found in the anthology In the Middle of the Middle West: Literary Nonfiction from the Heartland, edited by Becky Bradway (Indiana University Press).
from “That Glorious Time of Old” Iowa Writes Squeezed together on the hard wooden benches in the meeting room of the country schoolhouse, we sang Christmas carols, a slow, modal sound echoing off the plain pine walls. It came upon the midnight clear. Outside, the storm cocooned us in snow, the flakes swirling through the darkness, covering the horses at the hitching post. It was the night of the Christmas program in my neighborhood, a rural Iowa community where I am one of the few “English,” or non-Amish. Several families were delayed, their sleighs inching over waist-high drifts. Mahlon, the minister, kept us singing, his hand moving up and down with a steady rhythm. That glorious song of old.

Then some older boys extinguished the kerosene lanterns hanging from the ceiling hooks. Our voices hushed. A chorus of young voices arose from the basement steps, the notes pure and clear. Thirteen Amish children and their teacher—who couldn’t have been more than eighteen years old—wound through the meeting room. Each child carried a single white candle, the light glowing in the darkness. With angels bending near the earth.

The candles were snuffed, the lanterns re-lit, and the children went into a sing-song rhyming recitation of a poem dedicated to “Grandma.” Just one grandma? I thought. There have to be others here. The room was packed with older women, their shawls draped over their shoulders, their white hair pulled back into buns. But when the poem was finished, just one grandma stood up and bowed. She was the ancestor of all the children, these siblings and cousins smiling out at us with the same grin that swept across the old woman’s face. 2007-03-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=912 Doug Hesse Doug Hesse was happily raised in DeWitt, Iowa, and its surrounding farms, timbers, and creek beds. He was educated at the University of Iowa and is currently Director of the University Writing Program and Professor of English at the University of Denver. “My Father in White, Above the Royal Blue” can be found in the anthology In the Middle of the Middle West: Literary Nonfiction from the Heartland, edited by Becky Bradway (Indiana University Press).
from “My Father in White, Above the Royal Blue” Iowa Writes The fire chief and his deputy, elected by their peers, wear white coats in 1970, the other firemen black, the better to find a leader during conflagrations. As I stand that night across from the burning Western Auto, I watch two white-coated men atop the Spikins building abutting the blaze. They direct truck placements and hose streams, pointing broadly, a pas de deux in smoke. The chief is my father.

And as I watch him dance through embers shot by burst timbers, I wonder how much heat weakens mortar and whether, if the building collapses, he will feel long the flames. “Fire never kills people,” he had told me a few months earlier, when fourteen-year-old Billy Youngstrem died eight feet from his front door, having gone back in to save a dog, “the smoke always gets them first.” And somehow that reassured me. But now there is too much smoke and fire. He and Fred Behr, the deputy chief, shimmer white in white and yellow against the night.

When you’re fourteen and your father is forty, he cannot die. Maybe after a long cancer when he’s old and you’re old, too. But because you cannot imagine yourself at thirty and forty, you cannot imagine your father dying. Or at least in 1970 you cannot. Perhaps today’s eighth-graders, poised for a service world of downsizing, have learned to consume the present, too, opening space for a future that includes the deaths of fathers. But such spaces did not exist for kids born into the small-town fifties and sixties.

Here the Central Sabers played football Friday nights, and you could count on cars nosed against the end zones at the old junior high field by the late afternoon, their owners to return during the sophomore game at six. You could count on the bank closing at three-thirty and old men playing sheepshead at Hap Smith’s Shell station and manure spreaders shucking corn cobs sprinkled with pennies onto Ninth Street each Ridiculous Day. For big trips, downtown Davenport had department stores and shoe and stationery, Sears and the rest, and each Christmas Petersen’s set up motorized scenes in its store windows. Northpark Mall would not open until 1973.

It was all an aberration, of course, for even small-town America is movement and change. A coal seam plays out. The bridge is built ten miles upriver. The new interstate turns highway to market road. Farms blow away. Fathers get killed by freight trains. That was Willis Hesse. Dad was seven. It was Christmas Eve, and he waited at a family party for a father who would never get there. When they brought Dad home from the hospital, an uncle took him up to his parents’ bedroom to give him the double-barreled BB gun he’d wanted. And so Dad lost his father and Santa Claus the same night.

Fictive stabilities can never be seen from within their own time. Like Wittgenstein’s fly, we can’t see our bottles until something shatters them. And then we circle the shards, piecing them together in our minds, trying to see what we cannot know, the bottle’s shape before the blow. 2007-03-17 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=913 Sheryl St. Germain Originally from New Orleans, Sheryl St. Germain taught at Iowa State University for seven years and now directs the MFA program in creative writing at Chatham College. Her latest book, Let It Be a Dark Roux: New and Selected Poems, is forthcoming from Autumn House Press. “What You Can See Mid-Winter in the Midwest” was first published in the anthology In the Middle of the Middle West: Literary Nonfiction from the Heartland, edited by Becky Bradway (Indiana University Press). Sheryl St. Germain's website www.sherylstgermain.com What You Can See Mid-Winter in the Midwest Iowa Writes Today, three years sober, eyes burning with a white as cold and unforgiving as an unwritten poem, I walk into my backyard. Snow, snow, and more snow. What’s new. White, white, and more white until I think I will die of this whiteness, this unwanted guest that will not leave.

But wait.

Wait. Look harder. Stay longer, I tell myself. The dark brown bones of the swamp rise to the south out of reach of snow and then fall back, clean, pure, and budless as a good line of prose. The brown stalks of coneflowers still stand; the elderly of the garden, they will fall with the first wind. Their stalks look like dark lines that have forgotten where they’re going. Stripped of petal and color, dark seed pods hold on like iron; it’s the way I find myself holding on to the days as they stay white and cold and do not change.

Thistle and black sunflower seeds pepper the ground under the feeder, proof of the frenzied feeding the birds have done these last days of subzero temperatures and thick snow cover, a small piece of chaos in all this sobriety. The bird bath stands, useless, a sad gray monument filled with frozen water, snow on top like icing on a cake you cannot eat.

I can barely tell the location of the garden, which is also covered with snow, though I can guess it because the butterfly bush and stalks of mint are still visible. I mark it out and know that when the snow melts I’ll plant three kinds of basil, parsley, peppers, tomatoes. I know that mint and four kinds of thyme will come back in the spring; their roots still love under the snow. Like me, they’re just waiting for sun.

A sea of green along the back side of the house: junipers, mint green, blue green, silver green, water green, the green of Lorca, lines the western border of the yard. I planted it this summer. To the north, pine and spruce, the green of Christmas.

The cottontail that ate my lettuce this fall sleeps, curled near the back of the house. I see a feather, dark blue against the snow. I see tracks of squirrel and rabbit and dog, silver-blue and blazing on the snow where they’ve melted and refrozen, melted and refrozen. I see the weakness of the structure of my house—how all the snow falls off the steep roof to one part where much of it turns to ice and swells the gutters, melts and refreezes on the back porch where I cannot open the door because of the ice. I’m sure my gutters will soon fall from the weight of the ice.

All of this I see, and I see it because of the snow and its dark sister: a kind of brutal cold that stings and slaps you awake when you walk out into it, a cold I swear I can see, the way you can sometimes see the cold water someone splashes on your face to wake you from a drunken reverie.

For just that moment you can remember everything. 2007-03-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=914 Michele Morano Michele Morano holds an MFA in Nonfiction Writing and a PhD in English from the University of Iowa, and is now an assistant professor of English at DePaul University. Grammar Lessons: Translating a Life in Spain was published this month by the University of Iowa Press. There will be a reading from the book at Prairie Lights bookstore in Iowa City on Friday, April 13, at 7:00 p.m.

Established in 1938 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a wide variety of titles that will appeal to general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region.
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from Grammar Lessons: Translating a Life in Spain Iowa Writes And later, after the mussels, after the pulpo a la gallega, the swirling bits of octopus flesh in a sauce of garlic and tomatoes, after the glasses of wine and loaves of bread broken and passed hand to hand, after the strong local blue cheese spread thick on thin crackers and the apples drizzled with honey, after we have all eaten as much as we can and then picked the remains from one another’s plates, tucking into our mouths one more bite, one more spoonful, one more tangy or sweet or salty fingertip, then we turn, lights dimmed and candles aflame, to the Queimada.

In the kitchen Chus shows me the brown ceramic bottle, the label handwritten: Aguardiente. I say it aloud. The other words I cannot pronounce because they are in the dialect of Galicia, the province where Chus was born. He is the only Gallego among us, the only person with roots in the land of magic and spirits, of incantations. Chus opens the bottle, holds it out for me to smell, explains that this is liquor made from the skins of grapes, not quite wine, not quite whiskey, and stronger than either. May I taste it, I ask, and Chus smiles, not yet, not until we tame it with fire.

His smile is full, expectant. In this apartment, which is not where he lives but where he spends his extra time with a dozen other artists, painting, sculpting, developing photographs, Chus is more himself than anywhere else. I have seen him in bars, at the homes of mutual friends, on the street as he heads off to work, and nowhere else does he look quite so full, quite so content. And above all tonight, a night on which he has brought this group together—his coworkers from the newspaper, their partners and friends—to share food and drink and the experience of calling spirits to us.

Around the table there is silence and arms resting on stomachs. Moonlight outlines the window shades, outlines Chus positioning the large clay bowl in the middle of the table. I say that the moon is full on the winter solstice, imagine, and the others sigh yes, how amazing. I arrived with a full moon, I do not say, and I will see six more, perhaps seven, and then I will leave. I am already nostalgic, already sad for the day I arrived here, so impressionable and with so much faith. And sad for this night, too, which I am already imagining as memory, the night of my first Queimada in a cold apartment on Calle Independencia, Oviedo, Spain. 2007-03-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=915 Sandie Seeger Sandie Seeger, D.O., is a professor of biology at Missouri Western State University, a trauma surgeon in Chicago, and a native Iowan (born and raised in Hampton). “Marv’s Abode” is about a native Iowan, Marvin Fink, who farmed land around Latimer, Iowa. He farmed the same land for 60 years and died of colon cancer this summer. Marv's Abode Iowa Writes Standing over the gravesite
making it as I desire
not to selfish means
but to save what is left of him.

Chattering as I go… 2007-03-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=922 Jim Julich Jim Julich worked for twenty years as a librarian (emeritus) for The University of Iowa. He is the author of a volume of translations from the French, Aubervilliers, poems of Jacques Prévert and André Verdet. He lives on a farm near Nichols, Iowa. Keep the Line Taut Iowa Writes After vats of mellow Burgundy wine,
bushels of dark Gauloise tobacco,
oysters on the half-shell and making love,
two bone marrow transplants for leukemia,

I can still feel the wild tug on my line,
the bright form leaping and flashing in the sun,
plunging in shadow beneath the sunken log,
Hold on, keep the rod bent, keep the line taut! 2007-03-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=936 James Spangler Jason Spangler grew up in Marion, Iowa, and graduated from the University of Iowa in 1999. He owns and operates a seasonal shaved ice hut in Cedar Rapids. "This allows me six months off to write and make films," he says. A Binary in Opposition Iowa Writes I fell in love with Sharon,
Karen's Siamese twin,
the same day
I came
down
with Bell's Palsy
at the half-off
half dollar sale
at the Marion Hy-Vee.

Sharon said
she'd been looking
for a man like me.
I held her hand
and walked her
to the deli.
She had a tenderloin.
I couldn't eat. 

I gave her my phone number
out in the parking lot. 
She said she would call.
As she kissed me good-bye
on my limp cheek
Karen rolled her eyes,
raised her lip,
looked away.

The day had grown dark.
And as I drove home
with only one headlight
I prayed.
Please,
God,
don't let the left side go out too. 2007-03-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=937 Patrick Vecera Patrick Vecera is seven years old. He attends school at Pat's Learning Adventure, a modern one-room schoolhouse run by Pat Schmidt in Iowa City. He likes science and yoga and feels he is starting to become a writer. Birds Iowa Writes


In this frigid, frozen corner of the world
birds are freezing,
shivering, fluffing their feathers.
Billowy bouncing balls
flying through the blinding bright sky
bumping into each other
looking for food.
Finding it in my front yard.

2007-03-29 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=938 Clare Lanaghan Clare Lanaghan is ten years old. She attends school at Pat's Learning Adventure, a modern one-room schoolhouse in Iowa City. She enjoys sports, playing piano, and writing poetry. Winter Iowa Writes


Bitter bright
sun bounces on the snow
blinding the world.

Air, fresh and clean
as warm fog, floats from frozen throats.

The ever cold gnaws on the noise
silencing the world,
padding the earth's ears.

Winter moves everything
Slower and slower
As quiet as a snowflake
Falling.

2007-04-03 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=940 Megan Kann Megan Kann is eight years old and a student at Pat's Learning Adventure in Iowa City. She enjoys playing soccer and basketball. Winter World Iowa Writes


I smell clean cracking ice.
I feel the frigid phalanges of the winter wind pick
at my comfy clothes.
All I see is burning bright, paper white.
I sink into the shoveled snow
as the north wind comes.
I go as the breeze,
dance away to my fire warm home.

2007-04-05 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=941 Tiarnan Fox Tiarnan Fox is seven years old and a student at Pat's Learning Adventure in Iowa City. He says nature is his inspiration for writing poetry. How Winter Rules Iowa Writes


Winter returns.
Animals hide from soft, silver snowflakes.
Trees blinded
by the wonderful white winter
wait for their lanky lion leaves.
Fierce fire
the night guard
keeps the house warm and safe.

2007-04-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=942 Ethan Kline Ethan Kline is twelve years old. He attends school at Pat's Learning Adventure, which happens to be located in his backyard. Ethan was inspired to write "Haunted Winter" by walking in Iowa City's Oakland Cemetery and looking at the "black angel." Haunted Winter Iowa Writes


I feel the ghostly hands of winter chill,
goose bumps on my skin.
The wind moans with the voices of cold dead
howling for their revenge.
I smell the skeleton wind that runs through cemeteries
swirling and twirling
dancing to death.
I taste the icy, freezing phalanges
as the wind bites.
I see the dark falling to winter's last stand.

2007-04-08 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=939 Kyler Paterson Kyler Paterson is ten years old. He attends school at Pat's Learning Adventure in Iowa City, where he has learned to enjoy writing poetry. Frozen Falls Iowa Writes


Winter waterfalls
look like giant jewels
hanging from the sky.
Glittering rainbows
bouncing around
like fireflies.
The sudden sound of ice cracking,
diamond dynamite exploding
in the fearful, frozen ice.

2007-04-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=943 Janani Sreenivasan Janani Sreenivasan is an M.F.A. candidate in nonfiction at the University of Iowa. She writes for actors, for instruments, and for you. Ariadne Iowa Writes I sat down to solve a bowl of Ramen noodles. The noodles were heaped, snarled, centerless. However, a knot is defined as any closed loop, disqualifying Ramen: every strand extricable makes the appearance of infinity deceptive. This is a not-knot joke. I free the noodles singly and slowly, inch by inch, without breakage: the love between bowl and tine. In ancient China the noodle was a symbol of long life. In modern Japan it is nicknamed gakusei ryori: student cuisine. (Age 24 inches).

More precisely, a knot is defined as any circle trapped in three-dimensional space: a path confused, doubling and tripling back. It wanders into its own trap, garrots itself. (Alas.) A life line, a line to live by, advances without pause, straight and singular into the world. Depend on it. (One bowl advances one hundred linear feet at 0.125 cents per foot).

Something to love even more: the Gordian puzzle that unravels to gossamer, the blot that slims to almost nothing, once confused, now no more. The sudden funnel and solution. Sudden isolation and resolve. Fat brush tip lifting until a single hair trails—a surviving capillary. Caterpillar adrift till he finds the silk trail laid by his leader. The plan that leads to the interstate. The step from pillar to tightrope.

Come to think of it: the deep clarifying urge (to bathroom, to bed).

Come to think of it: the comet, the corridor, the cannonball arc, the calling: an oboe A piercing confusion, cloud cramming tiniest aperture, pipetting out that thin, indestructible filament. The entire orchestra depending from that thread. 2007-04-11 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=944 Adam Fanning Adam Fanning is a singer, songwriter, and poet. His albums include Fields Before Us (2003), Dreams for Sleepers (2004), Tongues on Tongue (2005), Rivers (2006), and Old Light/No Name/Ghost (2006). Iowa Iowa Writes on such fertile grounds
did we lay to rest
those summer days like waves
winds rolling flowers
backwards as
red winged blackbirds
sang from the
swaying piney treetops
leaning southward

and in other such summers
you showed me
how ponds are like soup bowls
for the stars
we can swim in
naked

and then on the way back to town
stop for pie with mud
in between our toes 2007-04-14 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=945 Amelia Marshall Rand Amelia Marshall Rand was born in Arlington, Virginia, but grew up in Norman, Oklahoma. She attended high school in Iowa City. "My mom made sure I covered a lot of territory before I could call one place home," she says. Amelia is currently studying creative writing at Knox College. for those of us who know Iowa Writes I wish at this moment I could be an omniscient figure. Where could I begin? Maybe at his eyes or maybe at her utter disbelief. Maybe I could attempt to describe both of their worlds. His continues to rotate with gravity intact while hers is thrown completely off its axis. She bites her fingernails and tastes the salt from her skin mix with the salt from her tears. He doesn't look at her. He avoids any feelings of guilt. He keeps talking. Words are spilling onto the floor between them. She doesn't know how to pick them up. She wants him to hold her hand, kiss her forehead, she wants him to love her again. It won't happen. They both know it. He offers an apology but his sincerity breaks her heart even more. He tells her he doesn't like to see her cry, that he feels like a jerk for causing her pain. She takes a deep breath and whispers that all she did was give him herself. All she did was hand her heart over to him with his promise to watch over it. He wants to give her heart back to her, but there is so much pain inside her body that it doesn't fit anymore. There isn't anywhere for it to go. She knows that if she gets up from that chair, walks across the grass, steps away from the curb, she knows she'll never see him again. How could that be possible? This is what she asks herself. He doesn't know what else to say. Nothing can fix her. She just has to exist for a while. 2007-04-16 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=958 Perry Ross Perry Ross, a graduate of the University of Iowa, is a school administrator in Iowa City. He grew up in Mt. Pleasant and writes about his experiences growing up in a small town. Perry writes primarily for his family but sometimes shares his stories with a larger audience as a professional storyteller. An Alcohol-Free Event Iowa Writes Old men sit sideways on wooden folding chairs and work waterlogged toothpicks as they talk about Eisenhower and the county's plan to pave the gravel road in front of the house. Rows of cars are parked in the hayfield. Children, giddy with excitement, run and play in the barnyard. Behind the house, teenage boys and young men toil taking turns on the thirty-some handles. Women sit in the kitchen, on the porch, and in the dining room sipping iced tea. This is an alcohol-free event. No one even thinks of alcohol. It is 1954. It is the annual Presbyterian Ice Cream Social at Arlo Roth's farm.

Strong-armed men crank away at the freezers trying to show that they can go faster and longer than anyone else. Others carefully dump ice and then salt around the revolving canisters. Someone shouts, "This one is done," and others step in and try to do a few more turns. When everyone is satisfied that it is, indeed, ready, the women step in. One carefully removes the crank and then the lid. With great care another one pulls the paddle out. Young kids flock to her wanting to eat the ice cream off the paddle. A few lucky ones get that chance. The lid is carefully replaced and the canister is covered with ice and wrapped in towels to await the rest.

Soon, someone else shouts, "Done!" and grabs his arm to massage the pain. Then another and another are done. The women lay out the bowls, spoons, and toppings on a long table on the lawn. Children grab spoons and line up to get heaping dishes of homemade ice cream.

The old men are right behind the kids. "That Myrtle's recipe?" says one as he points to a canister. "She makes the best ice cream!" The adults follow and usually add some chocolate, strawberry, butterscotch, or peach topping to their bowl. The first time through the young ones, knowing they will get more, go for the straight ice cream.

"Aaawww," says Jerry, grabbing his forehead. Eating the ice cream too fast has brought on a painful headache. Soon others are in the same predicament but can't stop eating the delicious soup. "My 'ead urtz!" says Tim, whose tongue feels thick with the cold.

Me, I like the semi-liquid ice cream around the outside edge of the bowl. I scoop it into my mouth so fast that I have to stop and wait for the mountain in my bowl to melt so I can have more.

Then my head hurts, too. My eyes seem to cross and I run to my mother in pain. She talks to me softly and the pain subsides. "Don't eat so fast," she says, and I look around and see that the yard is full of cross-eyed kids grasping their foreheads in pain.

Later, my mother stops me from going back for a third bowl. It's time for the hayride. I smell the fresh straw as the adults and kids load up on the hay wagons. I remember riding but not much else. The excitement, the food, and the gentle creak of the wagon put me to sleep soon after I am on board. I don't ever remember going home from Roth's but I know, of course, I did. 2007-04-18 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=959 Huston Diehl Huston Diehl is a professor of English at the University of Iowa. An award-winning teacher, she has published a number of essays on pedagogy as well as many articles on Renaissance literature. Dream Not of Other Worlds was published this month by the University of Iowa Press.

Established in 1938 and housed in the historic Kuhl House, the oldest house still standing in Iowa City, the University of Iowa Press publishes scholarly books and a wide variety of titles that will appeal to general readers. As the only university press in the state, it is dedicated to preserving the literature, history, culture, wildlife, and natural areas of the region.
from Dream Not of Other Worlds: Teaching in a Segregated Elementary School, 1970 Iowa Writes One afternoon, as I monitored my students on the playground, I watched the children in Morton School's other fourth-grade class walk in single file out of the school building and march with their teacher in utter silence around the boundary of the schoolyard. My students were shouting, jumping rope, playing tag, and making the most of their brief respite from the classroom, so I was immediately struck by the remarkably different demeanor of their counterparts. I watched, curious at first and then with increasing concern, as their teacher, a burly, middle-aged white man with ramrod straight posture and an authoritarian bearing, surveyed the column of silent students as if he were a drill sergeant inspecting his troops. There was something bizarre, even menacing, about him. And his students were unnaturally subdued, as if they were afraid that a lapse in concentration might undo them. I had never seen a group of children so tightly controlled, so cowed. After completing their grim march around the perimeter of the schoolyard, they returned to the steps of the school, halted for a brief moment, and then, upon command, disappeared back into the building, their "recess" completed. What was I to make of this disturbing scene, the eeriness of the children's regimented and unhappy procession, the intimidating presence of such an unlikely elementary school teacher?

When I asked Mrs. Stockton to explain, I got only a terse answer. The teacher, she told me, was Mr. Snead. The year before he had been hired to teach at one of the white elementary schools in the county. However, after a series of complaints from parents about his style of discipline, he had been transferred to Morton. He was transferred, she went on, eyeing me closely, after he broke the arm of one of his white students. So skilled was Mrs. Stockton at dealing with me, the inquisitive white woman in her classroom, that I detected not a trace of emotion in her voice as she related this appalling story. She left unsaid everything that mattered about Mr. Snead's reassignment to Morton: the powerlessness of the black principal to prevent it; the fears of the children whom Mr. Snead taught; the anxiety of their parents; the outrage of the African American community at the white superintendent's blatant disregard for the safety of the children under Mr. Snead's supervision; the terrible message that his presence at Morton sent about the relative value of white and black children. 2007-04-20 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=960 Nancy Price Nancy Price divides her years between Cedar Falls, Iowa, and Kissimmee, Florida. The author of eight novels, she has also published stories and poems in numerous journals.  Of "Safety Pins," which first appeared in the Spring 1970 issue of Kayak, she writes, "I am sad to say how contemporary it seems. Our soldiers still march in the name of safety, but holes are their trade, and holding. Tears widen around them. The empty helmets of our lost young men and women pin ruin together." Safety Pins Iowa Writes They come from the training camps, row after row.
Safety is their name, but holes are their trade,
                                    and holding.
They will hold forever, if necessary,
while tears widen around them,
until metal glints from some obscure corner,
and there they lie in their rust, empty helmets
safely pinning ruin together. 2007-04-22 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=961 Lyz Baranowski Lyz Baranowski grew up in California, Texas, South Dakota and Minnesota, but says, "I finally feel at home in Iowa." Her essays have appeared in Dragonfire, Des Moines Register, Cedar Rapids Gazette, Iowa City Press-Citizen and The Contemporary Reader. She currently works as a writer for a documentary about America's highways. Fowl Failure Iowa Writes We slipped one egg from the incubator and cracked it open into a small white bowl. We held the bowl up and compared its contents to the developmental chart of a chicken that had come in an issue of National Geographic. Each time we broke the hard-shell womb, effectively killing the life we were to witness, our mom patted her belly. "Watch closely. This is kind of like what's going on inside of me."

Only four eggs out of thirty-six hatched. Mom helped two more out of their shells. Dad chided. "You're not supposed to do that."

"But they're just little babies."

The next morning they were dead.

The four surviving chickens spent the next two weeks of their life in a cardboard box in the den. We cupped their small warm bodies in our hands feeling the quick thudding of their hearts reverberate through our palms. Their small beaks kissed the tips of our fingers. Soon, their gentle pecks grew into calculated stabs. Our hands were pockmarked with violence. We put them down and never picked them up again.

The strongest two began to beat their weaker siblings in a torture that lasted for a week. The beaks of the strongest plunged into the soft bodies of the weak, who cheeped for mercy. At the moment it seemed the victims were ready to die, their brothers, their attackers would walk away. They would eat, drink and sometimes nap—allowing the weaker ones to rest before beginning again. The victims lay afraid to move; blood and feces crusted the newspaper around them. The stronger birds viewed their victims with glossy black eyes. They enjoyed the spongy resilience of skin before it broke underneath their force, the fuzz that accumulated in their open mouths. Savoring the violence, they allowed no easy deaths, no swift ends; just peck and scratch after peck and scratch, until their mutilated siblings could barely force the will to cry out.

As the weaker ones grew smaller and more immobile the oldest grew strong, with thick glossy grown-up feathers appearing through their blood-splattered fuzz.

It's a Darwinian impulse that causes the egret to push his sibling out of the nest and rest comfortably while his own brother falls with a thud on the hard ground, leaving him there to be found later by little boys with sticks. It is an evolutionary necessity for the sand tiger shark to systematically kill and eat his siblings in the womb, before emerging victorious from his mother as the only shark fit to live. Spadefoot tadpoles only eat their siblings when food is scarce. But that was not what this was. This went beyond survival.

It must have worried our parents to see all six of their children looking down into that cardboard box: A slideshow of the world we were not yet supposed to know. Hearing cries for mercy and not saying a word.

By the end of the week, the two victims were gone.

Our mom slid her hand along the forming arch of our brother. "They died. They died and we buried them. They're okay now." Death was the placating lie. We heard the evanescent cheeping echo up from the creek for three days, and when it stopped we were relieved. 2007-04-25 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=962 Meredith Hines-Dochterman Meredith Hines-Dochterman is a 1997 University of Iowa graduate with a Bachelor of Arts degree in English and journalism. Moving Day Iowa Writes Sweat trickles down my back as I wrap my arms around the oversized cardboard box. The word "BOOKS" is scrawled carelessly on the side. This is the sixth box of books I've unloaded in ten minutes. Bending at the knees, I struggle to lift it.

"We have too many books!" I shout to my husband, my voice echoing in the overheated U-Haul truck.

"You have too many books," Scott retorts as he bounds up the metal gangplank. He takes the box from my arms, panting a little as he retraces his steps from truck to garage.

"Yours are heavier," I grumble, kicking a box of history books. It doesn't budge.

"History weighs on us," Scott tosses over his shoulder.

I roll my eyes at the joke. I'm grateful Scott has the energy to kid around. We're in our third hour of unloading the truck. This is after spending the previous day loading it, a restless night on the floor of our old home, and a five-hour drive from St. Joseph, Missouri to North Liberty, Iowa.

We haven't moved in five years. We're out of practice. We had kids. We bought a house. We adopted a cat. Those additions come with possessions, half of which are sitting in a truck, the rest spread out in a two-car garage.

It is the hottest weekend of the summer. Most of the people that promised they'd help us unpack didn't bother showing. My arms ache, my back is sore, and my throat is dry.

We have to return the truck by noon tomorrow. Scott begins his new job in two days. We need to enroll our children at their new school and find an after-school child care program. I need to find a job. And the grocery store. We have no food inside the house except that from our old kitchen. Even if I found the food, I don't know where the boxes of dishes, pots and pans, and silverware could be.

If I didn't laugh, I'd cry.

Swinging a garbage bag of bedding over my shoulder, I walk down the gangplank, through the garage and into the house. The blast of cool air eases my frustration, as does the sight of my daughter curled on the couch, sucking her thumb and cuddling her stuffed rabbit.

"Hi baby. Where's your brother?"

Emma points to the closed door. I knock and go inside. Brady is sitting on his unmade bed, staring at the mattress.

"What's wrong?"

"I miss Missouri," he whispers. "I want to go home."

I never considered Missouri home. As a native Iowan, the Hawkeye State is home. For the past two years, my single goal was to return. Luckily, I married a fellow Iowan who feels the same. Yet as we pulled away from our small house with the red shutters that morning, my heart broke a little.

I wrap Brady in my arms, making promises of good times and new memories. I say things will be better once his toys are unpacked. We'll visit the swimming pool with the waterslides. We'll shop for school supplies and he can choose a new backpack. We'll visit the ice cream parlor and go to the movies. I tighten my hug with each statement, knowing I am reassuring myself, too.

"Everything will be OK," I whisper fiercely.

The hours pass. The mass of objects in the truck dwindles and the hodgepodge of belongings in the garage grows. My grandmother brings a home-cooked meal. My older sister carries furniture inside. My brother arrives with a friend, willing to heft heavy items in exchange for money and beer. One by one they leave, waving away my thanks.

I sit on the front steps, exhausted. Scott is sprawled beside me. I need to leave for Wal-Mart soon. We're sore, we're sweaty. We can't shower without a shower curtain. Brady is a few houses away, playing tag with some neighborhood kids. Emma is drawing with chalk on the driveway.

I want to enjoy the moment.

A neighbor wanders over to say hello, offering stickers for garbage day and some neighborhood gossip.

"Welcome to Iowa," she says.

It's good to be home. 2007-04-26 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=963 Salma Salama Salma Salama, a Sudanese-American writer who lives in Coralville, works as a radio producer and a writing teacher. Rain on a Dead Child Iowa Writes It was midnight. Our government van had a permit to carry us from the corporation offices where we worked to our homes. Through the streets, we traveled through torrential rain. In a flash of thunder, we saw a woman carrying something like a sleeping child wrapped in a blanket in her arms. With such sadness in her eyes, she hailed us to stop. We stopped. Noticing her tears, I told the driver that we should take her in. The driver, whom we called "Uncle" Saeed, gave me such a reluctant look; but he covered his head, got down from his seat, and opened the door. Crying bitterly, the drenched woman begged Uncle Saeed to take her into the van. She got in, requesting those inside to allow her to sit with them. Embarrassed, and in tears, she sat down, still apologizing. But then she changed her seat, covering the child so we could not see him.

When I asked her why she was standing in that deserted place so late at night, she only said "they" had dismissed her. Did she live around here? I asked. She answered, No! I asked if she had anyone with her, like her husband. She answered that her husband had been arrested. Why? He was accused because he belonged to the SPLO (the Sudanese People's Liberation Organization). I asked, "Where is he being held?" She answered that she didn't know. Where did she live? She answered, "I live in Marzoug." Marzoug is far away, at least twenty miles, I thought, with a thousand questions in my mind. I asked Um-Saeed whether we could break the curfew order and take this lady home. With a horrified expression, he answered, "Impossible!" Our permit did not include Marzoug, he explained, and at any time, the secret police might stop us, adding, "Madam, I beg your pardon."

Suddenly, we glimpsed flashlights and a soldier with a gun, yelling, "Stop, you there!" Um-Saeed stopped. The soldier asked for our I.D.s. We passengers showed our I.D.s and the soldier, using his flashlight, checked them. He then called on the child's mother to show her I.D. Her tears answered for her. "Get out quickly, hurry up!" the soldier shouted, starting to pull her out. I tried to get between them, but he pushed me away. The woman was crying loudly, "This is a dead child! They ousted me from the hospital, because I couldn't convince them to bury the child on my behalf. I don't have the cost of his burial. I don't have anything. My husband has been arrested. I don't have anybody to help me!"

We all got desperate. I shouted to the soldier, "This is a dead child! The dead have a right to a speedy burial, don't they? Or are we just supposed to let them rot?" Then I must have whispered thousands of curses, as the van started moving again, leaving the woman behind. 2007-04-28 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=964 Mary Conway Mary Conway is a graduate of The University of Iowa. Mary and her husband, Francis Conway, M.D., live in Emmetsburg. A Certified Substance Abuse Counselor in Iowa, she has also been a professional writer for more than 25 years. Her work has been published in newspapers and magazines throughout Iowa, and she has been a syndicated columnist for The National Catholic Press. Last Requests Iowa Writes We all have little quirks that are part and parcel of our personalities. They make us the interesting, if not controversial, humans that we are.

One of my quirks is that I like bagpipe music. The raspy, squeaky noise that emanates from the bagpipe is soul music to me. The history of my relationship with bagpipe music goes back many moons to when I was a member of The University of Iowa's Scottish Highlanders Bagpipe Band. I learned to love the bagpipes then and it stuck with me.

At a recent family gathering, I was telling my adult children that, on the event of my death, I want bagpipe music at the funeral. Nothing canned, I warned them. I want a real live bagpiper in full Highlander array, following the priest down the aisle, piping my family and myself into the church. Actually, I thought of having the piper go first but the priest would probably fuss about that. They looked at me as though I had lost my mind.

"Where do you think we could ever find a Highlander decked out in a kilt to play the bagpipes at your funeral?" asked someone in the group.

"That's your problem, not mine. And furthermore," I continued, "I want the following music to be played: 'The Bluebells of Scotland,' 'Over The Sea To Skye,' 'Scotland the Brave,' and 'Amazing Grace,' in that order."

"How about 'Ding Dong The Wicked Witch is Dead'?" offered my son-in-law.

When the laughter died down, one of my enlightened offspring said to me, "Mom, you're a control freak! After all the preaching you've done about codependency being about control and how destructive it is, here you are attempting to control the whole lot of us from your grave. I can't believe it!"

"You're right," I said.  "It's sick stuff. I should simply make the arrangements myself, sparing you the pain of searching for the appropriate music when you're grieving (I hope). That way I can throw a guilt trip on all of you for not obeying my wishes. You know, that's a good idea. I think I'll do it."

"That sounds like control with just a bit of manipulation thrown in for good measure," said someone who shall remain unnamed.

"Not at all," was my reply to the little darling, now six feet tall. "We only die once you know, and it's important to have things the way we want them when the time comes. Remember the Scripture readings that remind us that the day of the Lord is coming like a thief in the night? My point is made."

"Is there anything in Scripture about codependency?" asked another, sarcastically. "Were there any bagpipes in Jesus' day?"

"Codependency is as old as man himself (and woman herself, to cover the inclusive language issue)," I replied. "History is filled with miserable episodes of people trying to control each other. Wars have been fought over who shall control whom and why. Shame, blame, covering up for others, rescuing, enabling, rationalizing, minimizing, and denial have all been with us from day one. Even Adam laid the blame on Eve for his fall from grace by saying that she made him eat the apple. The skunk."

"As to whether there were any bagpipes in Jesus' day, I doubt it. But if there had been, you can be sure He would have had a lonely piper playing in the distance as a guardian of His tomb. I know about these things."

"Can you just imagine what people will say if we have a bagpiper playing at your funeral?" inquired yet another darling.

"My friends all know about my wish for having a bagpiper at my funeral. I've already informed them so that you will be compelled to do what I want you to do. They are quite prepared to scold you indefinitely if you don't honor my last request."

"Request my eye! This sounds like an order to me," said another of my darlings. "There is no way we can get out of it."

"No, my dearest child. This is what you call Terminal Codependency." 2007-04-30 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=965 Dan Coffey Originally from Buffalo, Dan Coffey has been the Languages and Literatures Librarian at Iowa State University since 2000. His poetry has been published in several journals, and he has a book forthcoming in 2008 from Scarecrow Press: Literary Research and British Postmodernism: Strategies and Sources. "Channeled" was first published in the summer of 2005 in MiPOesias magazine. Channeled Iowa Writes I will be channeled by a young girl who
won't think about murdering her parents.

She'll braid her own golden hair
while watching "Price is Right" reruns.

A litany of short-lived pets, who themselves
have channeled other pets, will be her legacy.

A book will be written about her and will include
the controversial channeling years.

When she pulls me into her psyche, I will be sweaty
from having just mowed the lawn.

She'll get me a beer, as she might for her father,
and we'll watch whatever comes on after "The Price is Right." 2007-05-02 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=966 Janie Breggin Braverman Janie Breggin Braverman is a fiction writer and poet living in Iowa City. Her work has appeared in The Baltimore Review; Disturbing the Peace: Writings of Colorado Lawyers; Pinyon; Steam Ticket; Desert Voices; Being Jewish Magazine; and on the kiosks of Iowa City's pedestrian mall.  She is an MFA candidate in the low residency program at Queens University of Charlotte, in North Carolina. Silk Iowa Writes "Is this what you would like, the red silk?"

The cool fabric slides through my palms. It catches slightly on the calluses of my hands. I sculpt mostly in stone, and the chisels and hammers take their toll. Faint oak leaves rise on the surface of the silk—woven, not printed; a bit of burgundy on scarlet. "Yes, I think so."

My grandmother turns back to the trunk, open on the attic floor. Dust motes float down around us. "Or maybe you'd rather have the green?" She lifts another kimono, tenderly setting yellowed tissue paper aside. Her hands shake ever so slightly, and I know she is remembering my grandfather.

I slide my arms into the red kimono. It would have been floor length on her sixty years ago. It hits me mid-calf. "No," I say. "I want the red one." 

She lifts the green kimono and passes it to me. It's the first one my grandfather sent back to her, the one she would have worn on his first night home from the war. Bright orange and silver fish swim down the back, their dark eyes luminous as moons. The belt is wide and stiff. The robe holds its creases as if it had never been worn, but I know that is not true. I have seen the pictures of my grandmother wearing this robe at my grandfather's funeral, clutching the silk triangle of folded American flag above her distended belly, eight months swollen with my mother. I hold it open for her. "Let me help you," I say.   

She turns to the flyspecked oval mirror, tilted against the wall. Her gnarled hands smooth down the heavy edges of the kimono's belt. She is stooped now, and the robe pools on the floor around her, the fish flowing down her narrow back. 

Let me help you. She said that to me when I was in my last year of college and had run out of money. Let me help you. She said that to me when I had been up all night, three nights in a row, with my colicky first child. Let me help you. She said it again the first time, the second time, and the last time my husband left me. 

"Thank you," she says.

No. Let me thank you.

I step up behind her and stoop to rest my chin on her shoulder. She smells of cinnamon and vanilla, of oatmeal on a winter morning. My hair, as black as fish eyes, frames us both. Her hands come to rest on her own heavy grey braid. I am thinking of how to chisel her light blue eyes—and mine—into mahogany, how to capture the wrinkles and lines. The hair will be easy. Late afternoon light spills in through the attic windows, casting warm tones across the floor. It is early fall and soon will be too cold to be barefoot in the attic. My grandmother smiles. We have the same crooked teeth.

I would love to have the green kimono, but I would never ask. I put my arms around her and red oak leaves shimmer in the mirror. This is what I like. 2007-05-04 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=967 Kristina Dallmann Kristina Dallmann grew up on a farm near Grimes, Iowa, and her parents still live there. She now lives in Iowa City and works as a chemist at the UI Hygienic Lab. She has had poems published in the Iowa City Poetry in Public project and in Lyrical Iowa. Thick Skin Iowa Writes The evening light was starting to go as Em helped her father with the chores. It was autumn, early November. Em filled the last bucket of water for the night and followed her father to the barn. The water sloshed up the sides when she moved, and she tried to match her father's pace.

The barn was on a hill to the west of the farmhouse, a hundred feet away from the pump. Em watched her feet and counted her steps, one, two, one, two. In the light of the sunset she looked up, squinting in the glow of orange that hit her face, the buildings, the trees. The shadow of her father grew larger. It reached long and thin until it touched the tops of her shoes. She stopped and put the buckets down, water coming up over the lip and landing on the ground. Em sunk her hands deep in her pockets and pulled out her gloves. She put them on and picked up the buckets again, splashing some on her shoes as she hurried to catch up.

At the top of the hill the barn blocked the remaining sunlight from hitting the cattle lot, and only dark forms were visible. Em knew her father was there, but she couldn't make out his shape. Low bellows rolled along the air like hungry ghosts. Em stood beside the fence where the long feed bunk reached out in front of her. She watched cattle push against themselves for position, their warm bodies packed tight for food. Vapor rose from their collective breath, held by the last rays of light. Her father's buckets were sitting by the fence, solid and cold. Em sat hers next to his and watched her own breath rise from her nostrils. In the dark of the lot she heard her father's voice, slapping tough hides to make room for himself. He pulled bales of hay from the hayloft, popped off the twine and spread it evenly for the beasts. Soon the outline of her father was visible. He walked across the lot and back to the fence where Em was standing, reached over the top board to grab the buckets that Em lifted up to him. He disappeared again into the darkness. Em moved from one foot to the next as she waited, rubbing her gloves against her sleeves, watching her breath. She looked back to the dark lot and saw a shadow weaving back and forth on uneven ground. Her father took the last two buckets, disappeared once more, and then came back to the fence.

"Tomorrow I'll look into buying a water tank for the lot so we don't have to carry this water anymore."  He climbed back over the fence, getting pushed around by the cattle at the feed bunk just on the other side. Em picked up two of the empty buckets and followed her father away from the barn.

"Dad, how come you don't wear any gloves when you do chores?" From the light that was left they were both barely visible, almost lost in the twilight.

"Guess I don't need them, Em." His pace was steady across the gravel lane.

"But how come I have to wear gloves? How come my hands get cold?" The sound of their steps echoed off the buildings, making them seem bigger than they were.

"Well, I guess my skin is just thicker than yours. That's what happens when you're out here, year after year. Thickens your skin right up. Tough." He slapped the back of his hand a couple of times, and smiled even though Em couldn't see it. She looked over her shoulder at the last strip of light in the sky, blue leading into blue, then darkness to the stars. A sliver of moon accented the night sky, hanging not too far above Em's head.

"Dad, will my hands be tough like yours someday?" Em and her father reached the sidewalk that led to the house, lit by the artificial porch light that stung her eyes.

"Well, Em, that all depends. All depends on how you use them." 2007-05-06 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=986 Grant Tracey Grant Tracey is co-editor of the North American Review, a literary magazine published by the University of Northern Iowa.

"Artists and Angels" can be found in Notes from the Flyover (NAR Press, 2006), a festschrift celebrating the life and work of University of Northern Iowa Professor Emerita Barbara Lounsberry. Dr. Lounsberry is a noted educator, writer, and scholar. One of her many interests is Midwestern life. Notes from the Flyover is available from North American Review Press.
from "Artists and Angels" Iowa Writes "Oh no," he said, the chair's metal back pushing against his shoulder blades. One of the padded arms was torn and the flat foam undercoating felt like dry sponge cake. "I really don't mind." But Matt Traicheff was busy. He had exams to read and Eva Cirano was not an easy student. She never said much in Intro to Film, and as other students talked she often rocked forward at her desk and absently picked at bubbles of dandruff along the center part in her hair. He offered her a seat. "So. What's up?"

"You don't like me, do you?" Fat bracelets around her left wrist jangled, punctuating her words.

"Huh?" Matt arched, the chair clanked, and his feet rose slightly. Around him vibrated voices of colleagues, fellow teaching assistants discussing syntactical style, paragraphing, and the meaning of the lion's role in "The Short Happy Life of Francis Macomber" with their students. "I wouldn't say that," Matt said.

"Most people don't like me. I'm kind of socially retarded, I guess."

Matt's cheeks burned along the upper edges and his eyes itched. She did make him uncomfortable, but he didn't dislike her.

"I never say the right things, so I don't talk at all. I have a hard time talking in class." She shifted a bulky backpack from the floor to her thighs where it dimpled her blue jeans.

It wasn't about saying the right things, it was about exploring ideas and venturing to find meanings in texts, in history, and in yourself, but Matt felt strange citing his philosophy, and his thoughts were complicated by an urge to stand up and place his hands on her shoulders and tell her everything's going to be fine, you'll get through this, I did, we all did. 2007-05-07 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=987 John Wilson Swope John Wilson Swope teaches courses in literature, pedagogy, and creative nonfiction for the Department of English Language and Literature at the University of Northern Iowa.

"Listing to the Right" can be found in Notes from the Flyover (NAR Press, 2006), a festschrift celebrating the life and work of University of Northern Iowa Professor Emerita Barbara Lounsberry. Dr. Lounsberry is a noted educator, writer, and scholar. One of her many interests is Midwestern life. Notes From The Flyover is available from North American Review Press. from "Listing to the Right" Iowa Writes "Young Man, do you mind if I join you?"

"Sure. I mean, no ma'am." I stammered, remembering to rise in the presence of the elderly woman in a blue silk dress, black gloves, and a matching picture hat. She sat slowly, leaning upon her cane.

Mommy and I had spent another afternoon at the National Gallery of Art, motivated by the imminent closing of a traveling exhibition like the portraits of John Singleton Copley or DaVinci's Mona Lisa. While exiting through the rotunda, Mommy had excused herself, so I sat on one of the round leather pads that covered an equally round marble bench, staring into space as children will.

At age eight, I also knew that it was rude to stare, so I looked towards the arch hoping Mommy would soon reappear, ending the awkward silence.

"Do you come to the Gallery often, Young Man?"

"Yes, ma'am," I turned back and saw that a few wisps of white hair had slipped from beneath the crown of the hat. Her face was thin and finely featured but neither hard nor mean. "Mommy, I mean, my mother brings me."

"And do you enjoy your time here?"

"Oh yes, ma'am."

"So do I."

"I'm waiting on Mommy now."

"And I upon my driver. I told him four," she said, consulting her gold Lavaliere watch. "But I seem to be a bit early, so I'll just wait here."

Mommy called, "Let's go, John." As we exited down the steps, she whispered, "That was 'Alice Blue Gown.'"

"Who's that?"

"That lady was Mrs. Longworth—Alice Roosevelt Longworth, daughter of President Teddy Roosevelt."

I turned back to look at the old woman. In her no longer fashionable dress and hat, she gazed wistfully in profile into a muted shaft of sun from the narrow, multi-storied window, the pose and light reminiscent of Vermeer. 2007-05-09 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=988 Vince Gotera Vince Gotera is the editor of the North American Review (the oldest American literary magazine, founded 1815). He is also a professor of creative writing and multicultural literature at the University of Northern Iowa. His poetry books include Dragonfly, Ghost Wars, and Fighting Kite (forthcoming). His favorite color is blue, especially aquamarine and periwinkle.

The prose poem "Ghost Dance" was published in Notes from the Flyover (NAR Press, 2006), a festschrift celebrating the life and work of University of Northern Iowa Professor Emerita Barbara Lounsberry. Dr. Lounsberry is a noted educator, writer, and scholar. One of her many interests is Midwestern life. Notes from the Flyover is available from North American Review Press. Ghost Dance Iowa Writes Lakota converged on Wounded Knee in battered blue Ford pickups, Winnebago RVs, shiny new Jeep Cherokees, and on horseback—to dance the Ghost Dance again. In ceremonial regalia and buffalo capes, dancers formed circles on the desert floor. As the dance continued, night and day, other tribes joined them—Paiute, Shoshone, Pequot, Chickasaw, Tlingit—a ring of rings, medicine wheel, a necklace of hope, power, and desire. Tremendous clouds of dust billowed into the piercing blue sky of summer, as if the great buffalo herd had come back, thundering from prairie graveyards, resurrected from mounds of skulls. 

On the seventh morning of the Ghost Dance, the good citizens of Keystone, South Dakota, a hundred miles to the northwest, were shaken from their beds by an earthquake. Above the town, at Mount Rushmore National Memorial, the sculpted faces of Washington, Jefferson, Lincoln, and Roosevelt seemed to shiver. Stones skittered down the cliff. Suddenly, with the rumbling sound of shearing rock, like a rolling temblor, the mountain itself unfolded and stood—a gigantic figure of a man. 

Like a thousand-foot-tall mutation from a Fifties sci-fi movie, it stood there: a stone monster with four heads. Shaking off huge slivers of granite, the colossus turned toward the rising sun and began to move. The four presidents' heads perched on the massive shoulders looked around and at each other, bickering about directions. The giant reached down, plucked I-90 from its roadbed like a ribbon, and wrapped the blacktop round its waist for a sash. Then it walked away, each stride booming like a thunderclap, heading east toward the Atlantic. 2007-05-12 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=989 Ron Sandvik Ron Sandvik was born and raised in Cedar Falls. He believes one of the great powers of Iowa, of the prairie, is how it continually seduces its residents through the gestural force and delicate shadings of each season.

"Cold Chicken" can be found in Notes From The Flyover (NAR Press, 2006), a festschrift celebrating the life and work of University of Northern Iowa Professor Emerita Barbara Lounsberry. Dr. Lounsberry is a noted educator, writer, and scholar. One of her many interests is Midwestern life. Notes From The Flyover is available from North American Review Press. from "Cold Chicken" Iowa Writes I lay under a blanket on the sofa, awash in the flickering blue light of the television. It was 3 A.M. and the station the set was tuned into had changed from interesting crime documentaries with reenactments and interviews to manic infomercial bombardments. For people like me, occasional tourists in the world of sleeplessness this sense of petty adventure was the payoff. "So this is what people are watching at this hour of the night, Ah-Ha." My wife and children lay in their beds upstairs, exhausted from a long day of burning brush at my parent's acreage. We had chainsawed trees, downed in a recent thunderstorm, into manageable chunks and toted the debris onto a sprawling brush pile to be torched next winter. We worked as a family until our muscles ached and I was tired beyond the ability to sleep. Maybe the big hook of this infomercial was that it featured chicken so prominently.

Ron Popeil, the Salesman of the Century, the man who brought this nation products like the Dial-O-Matic, the Veg-O-Matic, the Mince-O-Matic, the Chop-O-Matic, The Smokeless Ashtray, the CleanAire Machine, Mr. Microphone, the Trimcomb, the Miracle Brush, the Hula Hoe, GLH (instant spray hair), and the Pocket Fisherman was comfortable working the rotisserie beat. The household legend would look at his co-host and then the audience with the kindness of a pastor at a children's sermon and sing out the catchword of rotisserie living: Just set it and forget it!

Advantages, economies, and new ideas were piled one atop another in a steady rhetorical drumbeat while my optic nerve loaded the beautiful people, their words, and all that they promised into my brain. These sirens of convenience sang from, cooked in, and pitched from a large, homey, well-appointed kitchen. It was a sanctuary, an altar, to domestic harmony. However, something was wrong. I know a lot more about my local television programming and the Showtime Rotisserie than I do about my community, county, or the planet. 2007-05-15 http://dailypalette.uiowa.edu/?artwork=990 Sara London Sara London received her B.A. from the University of Iowa in 1981 and her M.F.A. in poetry from the Writers' Workshop in 1985. She has had work published in The Iowa Review, Poetry East, and Mid-American Review. She teaches at Smith College.

"Spoon and Tree" appears in the current issue of The Iowa Review (37/1, Spring 2007). Spoon and Tree Iowa Writes What gladdens her is the spoon,
with its tiny saucer of remnants,
its slender shaft, scrubbed last—
and now the kitchen's clean.
Clean are the knives and forks
all akimbo in their drying cage
at the window. The spoon
leans alone toward light,
a backyard limb reflected
in its sunken belly, so a
liquid darkness tongues
its curves and bends
along its slender neck,
making the one tidying up blush
at this bed she's come upon —
refractive, gleaming, the old
dream of coupling
here portioned out
in such a strange
supper.
            When the light is gone,
the immaculate house hushed,
she puts down her book
and returns, barefooted,
waking the wood planks
to the kitchen. The cupboard,
too, sighs, its ascending note
sliding wind-c